The Fucking Days

Mood: great
Listening to: my fav. movie...moulin rouge

it was cool...my week sucked r//y bad well monday and tuesday...and maybe even wed. sucked i cant remeber but thursday and friday were great...on thursaday i had my dinner theatre for speech and dara and i hung out...friday wll i broke up w/ brian.....and them my family and i went out for dinner...on sat. my mom and i went shopping all day ling and we bought my fv. movie moulin rouge i havent stopped watching it....well oh yes wed. did have a good part...i was tlaknig to david and like well he said he wanted to get bak / me and that he loved me omg that was like the happiest day of my life but i didnt break up w/ brian for him.... but i dunno.....gosh well theres nothing else to write bout other than KYLE is BAK yay...well im gonna go sry this is kinda boring theres nothing to write about plus im rlly into my movie!

Mood: alright
Listening to: i dunno some shit on the radio

hey everyone!!!! argh im super bored but hey my problem right!!

argh my wekend sucked it even started out bad...i was gonna go to the movies w/ m boyfriend, brian...but it seems that he couldnt get a ride...so i didnt get to see him but i went to the movie anyways which was a BIG mistake...wel went to see the Ring 2 well that movie was one of the worset things ive ever seen in my life!! i was ready to shot myself...i mean theres a art in there that had nothnig to do w/ the crappy movie...i eman it was DEER!!! hello real scary NOT!! but oh well to top off my great weekend i had to spend the intire weekend w/ my grandma--> dont get me worng i love her to death but like it was so boring we didnt do nething but sit there and watch tv cuz my grandpas rlly sick so we went to only one place and that was walmart but we only stayed there for like 10 min...how boring!!! oh well there was one rlly rlly great thing bout my weekend! well like i was tlaking to my ex david and like even tohguh im dating brian hes still like the on the top of my list...well he said he loved me! omg i just bout died! oh well

well lets see what happened today? nothing much other than my friend britany got mad at me for the stupidest reason...rlly its queer1 u wanna know what it is? well if noy im tellnig u anyways! well like she sits and tells  me that she dont liek sme of my firends but than shell go tlak to them like its all good...well i said i didnt wanan invite her bowling cuz my friends were to fond of her and she just made it into something terrible... wasnt saying they hated her i just dont wanan listen to stuff cuz shed whisoer in ym ear---dont let her sit there i cant stand her--i love them all so much i dunt wanan be dragged in the middle...but other than that my day was pretty good...found out the brians step mom wants me to cme over way she can meet me...how cool i feel loved! it was lonely today cuz kyle wasnt here he left for vegas on sat. and wont be bal till next sat...im gonna cry1 oh well i think this is enough...im to lazy to do my shut outs!

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Mood: happy...i think
Listening to: mr.lonely

today was alrite i guess...well maybe....i was bored but i always am cant help it....so has anyone got any advice about my problems metioned in m previous entry?? i need advice....and i actually think i have real true feelings for david....i might i might not...but wouldnt u say u did if all u tohught bout was him and when u tlaked to him....u felt the happiess?? thats rlly worng for me to say cuz im dating brian....but like i dunno i dont rlly know him.....and maybe i should ask him to maybe give me a chance to get to kno him...and some ppl think hes not good enough for me...i desevre better, but i dunno maybe he deserves better. im not that great of a person...seriously no joke. i mean i have the worst attitude ever, im a bitch, i dont let myself get to close to ne1 what so ever...and they go on. maybe im just trying to figure things out for my self....tying t figure out wtf is going on...i think i need some anti-depressents. hehe

hmmmm...what else is there to write bout????? oh sry bout the golfing design i culdnt find one i liked so i picked that one...and picked the colors so im keeping it.

ok time for shout outs:

David- if u do read this by any chance...i need to kno...do u truely care for me as much as i do for u?

Dara- ur great hun...what would i do w/o u?? aboslutly nothing (my spellng sucks) hehe think in a few months were gonna be sophmores ok a lil more than a few..we need to hang out way more.

Lindsay- hey hunny bunny...your the best of the best...u and i have prolly been the freinds the longest...i dnt kno whaty i would do w/o u. and dont mind softball...itll get better i kno it will...hahahaha u have cpr and u get to make out w/ paper (very funny) well i dunno what else there is oh thx a million for sitting w/ me at lunch u completely save me....

amanda- ur the bomb!!!!!! and u will find that guy

 

 

Mood: tense...scared...lonely
Listening to: watching american dreams

hey yall first time in a while u heard form me...for some reason i couldnt get a password or nething so it wouldnt let me in (old blog is zexyz33) but oh well.im glad i got one bak though i use this to relieve stress since i cant do other things. but oh well...well lets start 9this is gona be long) or it could take days to explain....

well...life just sucks....i mean my home life sucks.....everyone gives into mikey hes lil mr. king...and i cant stand it..but i dunno no one could help me there unless u could save me and secrety drive me or get me down to va beach.....

well another problem is david...i dunno if i rlly like him or not, i jsut kno i wanan be with him...maybe its b/c i got what i wanted with him and i felt safe in his arms...but its not like i have given ne1 a chance to, i push everyone away...god i even pushed david away...u kno i havent been with anyone longer than 2 weeks since the 7th grade...yea how pathetic am i??? i need a 12 step progem seriously......but that mght be the point y im depressed. some one help...i tink im going insane, well back to david....someone needs to write me bout him...uz i just dunno..my friends all ahve their opinions and my one rlly rlly great friend...well she ant stand the boy

that goes onto my next problem.i never get to see jess i love her todeath i cant stand being w/o it i mean come on.weve known each other forever and we kno what each other are thinking..we should be biological sisters hehe well thats not that big problem other than i miss her...

next....my boyfrined now...well hes nice....but see theres one lil problem...ummmm hes been locked up (like in keystone and juevy) well that bothers me a lil cuz im such a goody 2shoe and what ii heard i kinda dont wanan be alone with him...i just dont...

i guess i shuld stp complaining...cuz it makes me sound like rlly self-centered and pitifull. (if ne1 has ne advice plz sign the guess book or write a complament)

now time for my shout outs.......

dara: hey sweetie ur the best...i dunno what else id do w/o u..ur the greatest.....and im so happy u and jake are bak together--u are so happy now...and u kno if ppl (u know who im tlaking bout) get mad at u or dont like jake and cant see that ur happy than fuck them......they are nohing but losers rlly....and they arent ur true friends..well they might but they are going the worng way about it...i wish everyone could just get a long.....oh and caitlin melon needs to die i hope she rads this i dont care...i cant stand her at all i didnt do nething to her and good....oh well i hope u sin the guessbook...luv ya

kyle: hey ur the best biggest bro...but ur mean for leaving me to go to vegas (u rlly suck) but oh well.....i hope everything works out for u w/ everything....sign my guess bok u butt(jk but rlly sign it)

amanda: hun ur great...well i dunno what to write, im rlly bored rite now like always.....i dunno i hope u find a magnificant man...ok well i dunno what to write....im just rly tense write now (SIGN MY GUESSBOOK)