As My Life Crumbles Around Me

Mood: meh upset depressed etc
Listening to: nobodys fool - avril

well started sat wen we wnt campin mainly i got pissed and pissed off shit happened dont want to tlk bout it its 2 depressin. sunday went to bmuff den went home and died mainly shitty week dont really want to tlk bout it sorry every1 will blog nxt wk.

just i gone on a break wid my gf and mainly i need 2 think coz my life is fuked up and im goin 2 really need my mates at da mo k so if u read dis HELP.

i may do a bigger blo of dis at da weekens wen i can fink proply

yan

Mood: mehhhhhhhhhhhnesssssssssssssss
Listening to: lostprophets - last train home

so so well 2days bin ok part frm a few peeps pissin me off but wot do u expect!!!!!

well really my feelin well i dont care if ne of ma mates read dis as they may as well no. rite well does ne1 ever get dat feelin dat ur not wanted and that u feel dat r ur mates really ur mates? do they really care about u? or do they just say it? well who nos but lately ive had that feelin dat ma mates r against me and they dont really want me around but dont want to hurt my feelins but i would rather they come out wid it or wont they coz their usein me 4 stuff like me buyin cds so they can copy dem or that i buy dem stuff coz i always have money but really i dont no and i will live my life as each day comes. but 4 the record i love all ma mates and if they ever thought i didnt then they r stupid coz i do.

neways wont blog till monday as campin and will b 2 tired on sunday.

yan

Mood: slightly pissed off meh
Listening to: fuk all

god it pisses me off sometimes wen ur close mates see u as just a piece of shit on their shoe god how it pisses me off. u see i have these really close mates that i adore and love and that i feel i can tel nething 2 but im not so sure coz they always seem to well keep things frm even the slightest little things like wen they say if u ask dem dey will say but den they dont its just pathetic and it pisses me off. so really i dont feel that i am able 2 trust dem if they r unable to put trust in me so frm now if i need some1 2 tlk 2 i will go 2 bout 1 of three people and u should no hu u r (a, s & j) so well dats it really just my feelins.

monday was the highlite of the week mainly had fun just messin round at the swimmin pool got drowned several times but i drowned 2 others hahahaha wen they tried to drown each other i got both of them hahahahha.

blog l8er

yan

Mood: tired
Listening to: weird al - yoda

2day peeps well its bin ok saw ma lil mate 2day jay an gave him loads of old toys of mine as he is 4 mainly cleaned house then painted wot fun it nwas actually then met alys went round hers den went 2 erin and 2 the park 4 picnic had a PRIVATE convo with mel den went 2 jems where i am at now and mainly hav just bin chillin.

got work 2mo o wot fun workin wid lisa as shes takin all da hours so i got nothin and cant even work aftr skool probs coz shes taken it as i should hav worked 2day but hav no idea y not bt i will find out 2moz hopefully

neways good nite im tired

yan

Mood: okish
Listening to: tenacious d drive thru

mite not blog 4 a while as cant be assed as not much happenin in my life at da mo but wen it get interestin i will again but till then good bi

yen

Mood: fine fine

friday really dont remember much but dont want to remember the bits that i do so not goin 2 say nethin really but hey it was a gr8 nite but dont mix vodka with chips and fish coz it makes u sick.

sat well worked mainly but after sharron mel erin and alyse came and met me and we went round sharrons messed around a bit me erin mel and alyse went home well i did but erin and alyse went on an adventure but dats all im sayin. well got home and wot do i find as i walk in 2 my room well........... it had bin tampered wid ma mum had gone through my room and chucked things out even a £300 hi-fi system but i managed 2 get my speakers bk but da hi-fi was smashed how pissed off was i. my stuff has gone missin cant find nothin.

sunday worked.

today went round alyses which was ok mainly stayed on msn all day.

yan

Mood: psychotic
Listening to: jimmy eat world - pain, work, sweetness + bleed american

will blog after da wkend as will b 2 busy as workin and party 2 nite BOOZE BOOZE BOOZE yey get erin drunk and alyse lol

Mood: hyper
Listening to: clasical ewww horrible music

well yesterday was an excitin day well 2 a point. waited 4 ages 2 meet peeps in poole didnt turn up so went to bmouth met loz with alsye wen to borders had a coffee and then looked round a bit got food after meetin mel shaz and chris. then went bk 2 mels watched the ring . then went to tower park 2 meet every1 to see the ring 2. alyse had a txt off erin that she had done a runner but was comin 2 cinema but stayin at mikes 4 a while which was a stupid thing 2 do but i hav 2 say it wasnt a gd idea but after we had seen the ring 2 her mum turned up and they had a chat 4 a while but that was oviously goin 2 happen at some point but other wise a ok day not fantastic but ok.

2day well i did nuthin no 1 invited me out just went to revision at skool and wen thome and sleept all day long now i wana stay up all nite lol.

yan

Mood: ok fairy gd need 2 get feelins out
Listening to: feel good ink - gorillaz

life y? i dont understand it y? y where we brought here? y do we excist? wot is the god dam purpuse of us bein her part frm sex but we all die and one day the earth will die. if there was a god we should hav better lives then this. but wot if? what if this is hell or part way 2 hell but we dont no that maybe if were good we go up a level closer to heven or if were bad we go to hell or live again and this piece of shit of a life. well dats my theory if u dont understand it then tough live wid it.

wel 2day fairly ok not much happen so nuthin 2 say but my feelins really sorry but i hav no where else 2 put them.

wot is love is it a feelin or just a sayin u tel me cuz i aint got a clue but do u? how can u tel that ur in love wid some1 does god come and tel u dat and dont tel me u just no it comes 2 u cuz dats a load of crap. sorry if i offend ne1 or ne1 close 2 me soz.

i say and u say that u luv ur friends u say it 2 dem all da time and so do i and i even say it 2 my gf but i dont understand wot love is i hav i felt it befor or could i even be feelin it now i really dont understand.

neways thx 4 readin if u did and im sorry if im just a twat but thats me and i need 2 say it

yan

 

Mood: relaxed

well everything was ok 2day lots of public sex etc very funi chavs that had ago at josh but he did deserve it as he is a chav himself and anoyin extra that i cant stand but hey mel had gr8 time wid dan her new bf on the grass havin public sex everywhere while me and shaz relaxed and laffed but hey a picnic was gd and i ate 2 much like cream frm a spray can thing it was gr8 fun hehehehe hope josh didnt get 2 sticky or mel lol well josh did piss himself lol.

not much 2 say but woohoo but very tired and ne1 dat dis nirvana i will kill and im not jkin as i luv em 2 bits and no 1 can stop me hahahaha

yan