Mood: depressed
im fed up now friend hatin me and im becomin lonely maybe i deserve it but wot hav i done 2 deserve it but there r some ppl i hate and they r the ones who r mates wid ur mates and make things harder in an arguement it pisses me off big time
rite soon yan
Mood: meh
well sorry 4 not bloggin in a long time ive bin sortin out my life.
well ive met some1 i reli like she likes me bk as we hav had a long convo bout it all but i dont no wot 2 do cos she doesnt want a relationship at the moment due 2 her last prick of a bf but i reli like and i dunno if i mite get bored and move on though.
another piont 2 my life lately is my so called friends like 2 treat me how they like use me wen they want i dont no wot 2 do ne more!!!!!
well thats sored out my life hasnt it not reli i should get some councilin or some thin lol
will blog soon yanyan
MADE IN CHINA, LIVESTRONG, CHEESE, BROWN, DIE MEL, DIE! SEX, FREE AT LAST ALYSE IM ALL URS GRRRRRRRRR ALEX GRRRRRRR LOL IM NOT HOMOSEXUAL ONLY WEN IM DRUNK. HEHEHEHEHEHE WOT THE FUCK AM I ON? ALYSE WOT HAV U BIN FEEDIN ME? FOOLISH DINGO!!! BITCH, ERIN ERIN SEX.
THE END
YAN
Mood: tired
Listening to: fuk nos
well 2day woke up got up met tom went 2 skool at bout 12 as had my first GCSE exam of RE hated wot the fuck the answer 2 the first question was cos i dunno but hey i failed. went home went out got attacked by one of my mates now hav a giant mark on my neck but i did get pinned down so im really soz shaz love u lots really missin u. c u thurs.
yan
Mood: bored outa my mind
Listening to: mcr - ghost of u
the last day of skool was friday and it was very emotional i even cryed cos im goin 2 miss the fun science lessons with sean and kt it was fun tkin the piss etc. but most of all im goin 2 miss alot of peeps i will never c again which is very sad but maybe i mite c some in 6th form but i dont think they will b in my classes. the last day had 2 b funi as well tho i became a french fairy with a mustash and fairy wings and a wand lol and of course got every1 2 sign my shirt. but hell im goin 2 miss some teachers as well like the legend mr k but i tel u wot i wont miss miss bruce lol i h8 her but thats life. mainly the day was really gd but upsettin as well but hey i will get over it.
got hoem and got a call off sean so i went up charons 4 a few beers den we went out 4 chips den met up wid lauryn kt kt sarah alice and i think dat was it o no kylie as well and kt b was pissed and it was so funi as soon as i can i will put pix up but earlier round charons we attacked little children with bananas lol it was so funi i hav vids of it all.
i will miss u all (thats 2 every1 i no frm poole high skool dat i mite never c again)
the weekend was fairly borin but i saw my babe and dat was bout it and mainly revision as start exems dis week fun and i hav 2 go now as i need 2 revise.
yan
rite 4 the record i didnt mormer that wot u think under my breath i said that she hates u not that i knew she was goin 2 hit u alyse i never knew dat ok if i did i would hav told ok and well every1 dat i hav spoken 2 say they do like me and ur only sayin coz ur pissed off wid me which is pathetic ok
yan
Mood: extremaly very highly pissed off
just read alyses (peach) blog how FUCKIN RUDE!!!!!!! excuse well we may hav had a disagreement last week but u being punched and spat at bi kerry was nothin 2 do with me she hates u and always has so get ova it. i told her 2 drop everything 2 do with it on friday and she said "sure" but that she still hates her but that erins ok. so 4 ur knowledge it wasnt anythin 2 do with me OK!!!! look i made up with them coz i didnt want 2 b enemys wid ma best mates but oviously i no which 1 is my best mate coz she listened 2 wot i had 2 say and i could never fall out wid her as shes ma cuz and i wil always love her. this brings me 2 another point, so no 1 likes me do they alyse thanks a bunch y dont i just ask dem my self as well rob he was plzed 2 c me and mike and wot i say bout mike isnt harsh i mess around and he tkes da piss outa me 2 as its funi but oviously they hate of course they do yeh totally so how come i do tlk 2 them on msn etc and wen were in bmuff huh answer dat. im always tlkin 2 chris hes a gr8 gut but seems u cant get that in some girls can u no offence 2 any other girls that are actually desent. but if ur goin 2 b like dat well u do that and if zack hates me so b it but i still like all of dem and i get on well wid dem. but 2 some 1 im oviously nothin and after sayin dat a best mate dont 2 stuff like b harsh against them well u cant say dat bout me if u do it bk can u and im the incent since monday as i had nothin 2 do with it ask kerry ur self!!!!!!
yan
Mood: cheesy
so lifes bin a ok at da mo and well ive kinda fallin out wid a few peeps but if their willin i want to make up wid dem well me and alyse are on good terms now we are speakin and HAPPY BDAY 4 2moz and hope u hav a nice day. well work 2day was shit did shit hours did shit jobs well da hole thing was shit 2 tel u the truth i could do with a new job but the onli thing is dey pay gd hourly rates but i dont get enough hours and that dam lisa always gets the hours shes just a fav but shes a gd person 2 and i no stuff hehehehehe. well mel nice 1 4 findin a new job hope everythin goes wel and plz stop self harmin it dont get u far in life as ive done it and well infact i did it this week same as u and wel i was stupid but it had 2 b done but i want u 2 promise u will never do it again and i will promise 2 k. 2morro should b great bmuff hope u lot are comin coz its alyses bday and she will cry and i dont want her 2 hehehe. 1 week 2 go yey im so happy dam i hav a drama exam tuesday shit o well i will do ma best good luck 2 every1 doin der GCSES coz i tel u wot im goin 2 need it as fuked up my french oral.
blog later
yan
Mood: meh
well i found out wots missin in my life and dat was sharron i should hav never left her i want her bk and im willin 2 do anythin 2 get her bk. and mel dont worry i will atempt not 2 get in the situation 2 kill my self if i do i will tel u first. I LOVE U SHARRON and dats 4 the world 2 see if i had da money i wud rite it in the sky or in roses or somink romantic coz i want u bk and dont care bout no 1 else at dis point but u.
u make me so happy all my troubles go away. shit im runnin outta things 2 say o well but I LOVE U SHARRON come bk 2 me. do wot ur heart tels u.
yan
blog later
Mood: AHHHHHHHHH
my poor poor top my lovely white top has now gone PINK wot 2 do the dam washin machine was put on low heat but gave 2 much heat and caused my top 2 go pink cos the animal sign on it ran the colours 
wot 2 do o wot 2 do part frm ma mums buyin me a new 1 but i feel bad cos i payed £22 4 it and now she has 2 pay dat much and she cant afford it but now ive wasted my money wot 2 do grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i luved dat top.
yan
Mood: roar
mehhhhhhhhhnessssssssssssssssssss im so bored at skool i want to dieeeeeeeee but now im so happyyyyyyyyyy yey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yan
Mood: cheery
Listening to: nothin
well ive decided well got help coz the onli reason that my life is so crap and im gettin no where with the things i want is that im 2 depressed well depressin and makin others as well so im goin 2 step up tke some happy pills and get my life sorted and not b moody or pissed off im goin to brush it all off my shoulders all the things that are holdin me bk.
well the few days hav bin ok some people will not shut up bout somink i said wen we went campin and thats makin me depressed as well and 4 the record i would reather if u al FUCKIN shut up thx.
so yeh bin wid sam amd george the last few days and its bin ok we bin messin around and ma mate georgie has dis big crush on ma mate dave its so funi neways blog later.
yan
Mood: not in this dimention
Listening to: nowt
well this could be long or short who nos
well lets just say i cant be bovered to finish da campin 1 so we will tlk bout da last week
well for the last couple of weeks ive bin havin bad feelind about my relationship wid sharron with my exams comin up and things i was thinkin bout a break till after my exams but i was thinkin that was der much point in us goin out wid each other as well we hav nothin really in common wid each other and wen we were alone der wasnt anythin 2 tlk about so i thought maybe try and break well did that on thursday but i couldnt hack so i had 2 end but i the end i took da chi9ckins way out and did it by txt but i wasnt goihn 2 till she txt me tellin me dat she new dat was how i was goin 2 do it and that mel told her. thx alot mel well now i feel bad 4 doin like dat and of course i expect her to be mad and upset and yeh i hav a little cry and i no she wants us 2 try and get bk 2gether after exams as da email she sent me but of wot ive bin told is that she has her eyes on some1 else dats 1 of my mates who sopposidly hates me dats y i didnt get invited 2 the cinema but the truth is i kinda hav the hots 4 some1 else 2 so y should i blame her go ahead if she wants she a nice girl and deserves better then wot i am. i would love 2 still b mates wid her as we didnt part on really bad term s but i think we should go are sepperate ways and move on and i no it will take time but all these things do.
this week has bin great in other parts met a few new peeps like sam even tho i new of her and shes nice and oli and jess who are great oli hes my new stoner buddy and hes great we had a meal at yum yums on friday 5 of us all u can eat 35 dishes wow dat was gr8 lol.
blog 2moz wid more if i need 2
yan
Mood: meh upset depressed etc
Listening to: nobodys fool - avril
well started sat wen we wnt campin mainly i got pissed and pissed off shit happened dont want to tlk bout it its 2 depressin. sunday went to bmuff den went home and died mainly shitty week dont really want to tlk bout it sorry every1 will blog nxt wk.
just i gone on a break wid my gf and mainly i need 2 think coz my life is fuked up and im goin 2 really need my mates at da mo k so if u read dis HELP.
i may do a bigger blo of dis at da weekens wen i can fink proply
yan
Mood: mehhhhhhhhhhhnesssssssssssssss
Listening to: lostprophets - last train home
so so well 2days bin ok part frm a few peeps pissin me off but wot do u expect!!!!!
well really my feelin well i dont care if ne of ma mates read dis as they may as well no. rite well does ne1 ever get dat feelin dat ur not wanted and that u feel dat r ur mates really ur mates? do they really care about u? or do they just say it? well who nos but lately ive had that feelin dat ma mates r against me and they dont really want me around but dont want to hurt my feelins but i would rather they come out wid it or wont they coz their usein me 4 stuff like me buyin cds so they can copy dem or that i buy dem stuff coz i always have money but really i dont no and i will live my life as each day comes. but 4 the record i love all ma mates and if they ever thought i didnt then they r stupid coz i do.
neways wont blog till monday as campin and will b 2 tired on sunday.
yan
