lol im already planning my summer. me and a big group of people ( me cathy katie wes maybe ellie alex and some other people) are going down to bournemouth be and going surfing lol and hopefully josh will be meeting up with us which sould be nifty! anywayz bye bye lol
Mood: ikky
eh im so tired, i havnt slept all night cause i just feel so sick its unbelivable. Ehhh my stomach!! eeehhh...brb...........back, anyway, i really do want a serious relationship now, i dont want someone in my school, cause, i dunno im just not into it. When i went to town i saw loads of people holding hands, hugging, kissing and its really fustrating because..i dunno.anyway (again) im kinda wearing really emo clothes now lol, they suit me tehewell i cant be botherd to right anymore im just gonna sit by a toilet and throw up...bye bye
carrying on
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So anyway, i HAVE changed alot. Im alot more nicer to people now and i try to be as high spireted as possible. The type of music i listen to is different. I dont listen to stuff like Sum 41, good charrlote ect. There to mainstream for me, im into more "hardcore" music like From first to last, taking back sunday and three days grace. I use different words now, instead of cool (or anything like that) i say nifty or rad, and if someone askes me if im ok or how am i today i say spiffy or nifty. I dont like chat talk anymore even tho i still do it abit. i Am a hypocrite and i AM a steriotype, but at least im honest and i can amite it unlike other people. if you think my honesty will make you hate me, then go ahead, hate me, i wont care because i wont let it get me down, im gonna try and make alot more friends outside of school because it seems ALOT of my friends go to my school and if im good friends with people not in my school then it will make it that much better when i see them next. Um..well i dont really know what else to put to well, see ya later
carrying on....again
well went to the doctors and it turns out that i have some sort of infection in my digestive system cause i eat something bad (hmm amybe i shouldnt of tried that raw beef...) and that i have a low sugar lvl and im dehydrated...gawd im so unhealthy, well when i told cathy she said that she had it once and that i HAVE to drink loads but ive only had one glass of orange juice cause i really dont feel like eating or drink which ttly sucks! the doctor recomended a glass of water with a tea spoon of salt also this other thing but it was really gross. AND im ttly starving because i didnt eat anything yesterday and i had a ikkle bit of food today because there is a mssive list of food i cant eat...EVEN BREAD!!! man i have to say THIS IS THE WORST ILLNESS EVER!!! i cant wait to get back to normal!!!
so i went to town with cathy today its it was pretty cool, i had to buy some clothes so i bought this black and grey (ish) stiped shirt and this i dunno how to describe it buts it pretty cool. Errmmm...then WOHOO we saw these three Emo boys and wow there were fit, one of them (the one i liked) so separated from the others so i just went to him "your so fit" then went of but fucking hell he was so pretty (that another one of my new words..pretty) them erm, we didnt really do much, but on the nus these boys say next to us and when we *stuggled* to get past the so we can get off the bus thry said "bye" and "bye love" to us it was soooo funny...anywayz bye bye
Mood: ok
Listening to: three days grace - home
wow, its Christmas eve....im excited i guess...so anwayz..i dunno lol bye
Listening to: FFTL - 12 DAYS OF XMAS
On the 1st day of xmas my friendster gave to me,
My first pair of saucony's
On the 2nd day of xmas my friendster gave to me,
2 sets of dog tags
And my first pair of saucony's
On the 3rd day of xmas my friendster gave to me,
3 drug free x's
2 sets of dog tags
And my first pair of saucony's
On the 4th day of xmas my friendster gave to me,
4 backstage passes
3 drug free x's
2 sets of dog tags
And my first pair of saucony's
On the 5th day of xmas my friendster gave to me,
IM IN CHAOS CREW
4 backstage passes
3 drug free x's
2 sets of dog tags
And my first pair of saucony's
On the 6th day of xmas my friendster gave to me,
6 hot topic gift cards
IM IN CHAOS CREW
4 backstage passes
3 drug free x's
2 dog tags
And my first pair of saucony's
On the 7th day of xmas my friendster gave to me,
7 inch rare vinyl
6 hot topic gift cards
IM IN CHAOS CREW
4 backstage passes
3 drug free x's
2 dog tags
And my first pair of saucony's
On the 8th day of xmas my friendster gave to me,
8 kids a moshin
7 inch rare vinyl
6 hot topic gift cards
IM IN CHAOS CREW
4 backstage passes
3 drug free x's
2 dog tags
And my first pair of saucony's
On the 9th day of xmas my friendster gave to me,
9 LJ comments
8 kids a moshin
7 inch rare vinyl
6 hot topic gift cards
IM IN CHAOS CREW
4 backstage passes
3 drug free x's
2 dog tags
And my first pair of saucony's
On the 10th day of xmas my friendster gave to me,
10 vegan cookies
9 LJ comments
8 kids a moshin
7 inch rare vinyl
6 hot topic gift cards
IM IN CHAOS CREW
4 backstage passes
3 drug free x's
2 dog tags
and my first pair of saucony's
on the 11th day of xmas my friendster gave to me,
11 pair of diesels
10 vegan cookies
9 LJ comments
8 kids a moshin
7 inch rare vinyl
6 hot topic gift cards
IM IN CHAOS CREW
4 backstage passes
3 drug free x's
2 dog tags
and my first pair of saucony's
on the 12th day of xmas my friendster gave to me,
12 tight black t-shirts
11 pair of diesels
10 vegan cookies
9 LJ comments
8 kids a moshin
7 inch rare vinyl
6 hot topic gift cards
IM IN CHAOS CREW
4 backstage passes
3 drug free x's
2 dog tags
and my first pair of saucony's
Mood: ok
Listening to: three days grace - take me under
Ive been thinking alot, and ive realised that thoughtout this blog ive been complaining about my life, my parents, and pretty much everything, and well, ive totaly changed my point of veiw, I should be thankful that i have a family that actually cares about me and my future. And well i dont really know what to say about that other stuff because like i said my point of veiw has changed. Also i've been listen to the band Three Days Grace (omfg there fucking awesome!) and well theres a song called Drown that completly realates to what im feeling and the mood im in so im gonna post the lyrics in a little while...so anywayz....WOOHOO!!! Christmas in 2 freaking day! But to be honest, it doesnt really feel like Christmas, i mean, it isnt even cold outside. Which kinda sucks as we've been having great hot weather this summer, i think some of us would like a bit of a cold breeze. Owell..So anywayz yeah that about it...here the song i was on about!
Good morning day
Sorry I'm not there
But all my favorite friends
Vanished in the air
It's hard to fly
when you can't even run
Once I had the world,
but now I've got no one
If I needed someone to control me
If I need someone to hold me down
I would change my direction
And save myself before I...
If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to push me around
I would change my direction
And save myself before I...Drown......Drown
Good morning day
Sorry you're not here
But all those times before
Were never this unclear
It's hard to walk
when you can't even crawl
Once I had this world,
but now I've lost it all
If I needed someone to control me
If I need someone to hold me down
I would change my direction
And save myself before I...
If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to push me around
I would change my direction
And save myself before I...
(Drown)... Rolling faster then I'm breathing
(Drown)... Rolling faster then I'm breathing
(Drown)... Rolling faster then I'm breathing
If I needed someone to control me
If I need someone to hold me down
I would change my direction
And save myself before I...
If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to push me around
I would change my direction
And save myself before I...
also here another song i like!!
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven’t missed you yet
Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven’t missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Only when I stop to think
About you, I know
Only when you stop to think
About me, do you know
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me
I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
i havnt wrote in this for a while....i think...owell lol. So erm today i went into town with Cathy it so so fun..we had 2 highlights of the day! the first one was when we was just walking though the posh part of town and we walked past this shop and some teenager/man just waved at us lol we were in stiches! and the other one was i went to buy a hotdog (omg it so soo yummy! lol) and we were just stood there talking to the hotdog man (well thats what he referd to himself as!) for about 8 minutes...so funny. and YESH!!!! i got cathy to go on this ride with me!! TWICE!! WAHOOO!! lol erm i think were going into town with Alex something after christmas lol *gigglesnort* oh yea we also so Sam, Dan and there m8 bradley...lol anywayz bye!
OMG i LLOOOVVEE talking to ryan on msn now coz his cusine is always with him and gawd his cus is a fucking fittie! and hes a sk8er wahoo!!!!!!! god im in such a good mood now!! im actually not arguing with my mum for once!!! that just shows how laid back im feeling !!! WOWZA!!
hello people! i love you! yeah thats right, you!!! mwah!! tehe ok ill shut up now im probably scaring you....i scare alot of people....apparentl.......well i dont think i do......but thats just me....ok.....bye....
Mood: eh
Listening to: katy rose - overdrive
Well i dunno what to write in this at the momeny i just feel the need to ttyyypppeee something lol. i dunno. i feel emotionless at the moment, im not happy, im not sad, im not anygry nor depressed. im not really anything, im just emotionless. How strange. Owell so i dunno i what im gonna do today. my option has vastly shrunk, so i can either go call for cathy - oh wait no i cant shes got her cusine round over the weekend - so that option is fucked and my other option is to go out with Ben and that lot as they have strangly found a new love of calling for my everyday. OR i can just said and wait for Ryan to come on msn so he can give my Ryans addy. Owell, i guess its gonna be a looong wait seeing as he goes over to his dads ever tuesdays and sundays (i think it is) so do some work....and gets £60 a week......lucky fucker. owell FUCK my hair is so freaking greasy! owell i guess ill go wash it later on. buh bye!
Outta bed at the crack of noon
Blare the music and have a swoon
I can't stop thinkin of your face
La la lee la lee loo lace
I'm six feet under the Bhodi Tree
With my crap new-age philosophy
Diamonds where there once were stars
I'm sittin in Jayne Mansfeild's car
Yea yea-a I'm independence
Yea yea-a I'm borderline
Yea yea-a I'm California
My minds all screwed and upside down
But my heart's on overdrive (yea my heart's on overdrive)
I need to take a shower when I look at you
Ya sting and hurt like a bad tattoo
I wish you'd change my point of view
I cruise the canyon to get a breeze
With Hidden Treasures up my sleeve
I like the light and hate the heat
But I'll lick the blood right off your street
Yea yea-a I'm cherry cola
Yea yea-a I'm candy-eyed
Yea yea-a I'm California
My mind's all screwed and upside down
But my heart's on over drive
They all come here to find a scene
But end up girls on methadrine
Naked on a TV screen
The dreams that fall beneath my feet
Make my footsteps feel so sweet
But your kisses are my fait accompli
YEA YEA- A
I'm independence
Yea-a I'm borderline
Yea-a I'm California
My mind's all screwed and upsidedown
But my heart's on overdrive
Yea my heart's on overdrive
Listening to: sp - me againts the word
Mood: missin love! lol
Listening to: avril lavigne - to much to ask
fucking hell that title is seriously weird, but hey its how if feel, i see people like Katie and Wes, some weird chavy people in year 10 and 11 so wrapped up in love it makes me stop to wounder, when can i have something like that? i know my friends are probably reading this thinking what the hell are you talking about, you've plenty of realtionships. Well sure i havnt but i never really last's more than a month or so as sooner on later i loose interest and i feel the need to dump them, i just need someone who will keep me on my toes if u get the meaning (not in a sick way) I guess i do have some options out there, like ben - he says he fancies me so much and that he's fancied me since year 7 (which ive heard many many times from other people before), also there Ryan - gawd hes such a sweet kid and hes actually giving me the hugs now and today at luch he was walking around linking arms with me, some people were saying that we look really "cute" together but i dunno. And now george and that lot are saying to me that Matt is starting to like me in "that way" now but unfortinatly ive lost interest in him well i think i havnt anywayz but i still find myself staring at him unknowingly, and then theres Alex - Gina said that hes said hes "really likes me" today aswell coz he was talkin to him in msn and apparently he said that but again unfortinatly ive lost interest in him to. Eh i dunno anymore coz i like the feedom of being single and not having some1 breathing down my neak all the time like Mike did, well actually i LOVE the freedom of it. But at the Same time i really do miss having someone to hold my hand and walk me to my class and make plans with me AND i really miss a decent kiss (would u belive that i havnt snogged some1 since year 7!! 2 fucking years to long!) and well yeah i dunno.
i aint been doing much todau lol, owell, wow i cant wait till chrismas!!! im wishing my butt off i get my mp4 player!! i'll be soooo happy if i get it!!! lol. Ermmm Ben Crook fancies me! lmao he keeps saying hes gonna give me a kiss 2 mos and im like NOOOO lmao. Anwayz moving on, erm i dunno, been pretty happy today, dunno why, but lately i just have been really HAPPYYY!!! LOL anwayz im off the play RUNESCAPE LMAO lol
Mood: ok
Listening to: eminem - when im gone
wowza im so freaking board i just went to call for cathy coz shes round her aunts house 2day, so shes gonna come call 4 me later, sha la la la omg i love eminems new song "when im gone" im gonna post the lyrics on in a sec lol anywayz so i fancy matt now lol, but its seriously pissing me off now coz all the people who r ment to be my friends and who are ment to be supportive are just taking the piss. I mean, its like, so fucking what?! and to top it off ellie had to go and fucking tell Sam and MIke and that lot that i fancy him and they went and said something to him and well i just cant belive she done that, errr i was so mad at her! fucking hell i dnt tell people who she fancys. lol, anywayz erm, i dunno im really board. la la la la no1 is on msn apart from ellie lmao lol, so anywayz herez the lyrics to that song
[Introduction] Yeah... It's my life... My own words I guess... [Verse 1] Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for? Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for? When they know they're your heart And you know you were their armour And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'em But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you? And everything you stand for, turns on you, despite you? What happens when you become the main source of a pain? "Daddy look what I made", Dad's gotta go catch a plane "Daddy where's Mommy? I can't find Mommy where is she?" I don't know go play Hailie, baby, your Daddy's busy Daddy's writing this song, this song ain't gonna write itself I'll give you one underdog then you gotta swing by yourself Then turn right around on that song and tell her you love her And put hands on her mother, who's a spitting image of her That's Slim Shady, yeah baby, Slim Shady's crazy Shady made me, but tonight Shady's rocka-by-baby...
[Chorus] And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain Just smile back And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain Just smile back...
[Verse 2] I keep having this dream, I'm pushin' Hailie on the swing She keeps screaming, she don't want me to sing "You're making Mommy cry, why? Why is Mommy crying?" Baby, Daddy ain't leaving no more, "Daddy you're lying "You always say that, you always say this is the last time "But you ain't leaving no more, Daddy you're mine" She's piling boxes in front of the door trying to block it "Daddy please, Daddy don't leave, Daddy - no stop it!" Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket It's got a picture, "this'll keep you safe Daddy, take it withcha'" I look up, it's just me standing in the mirror These fuckin' walls must be talking, cuz man I can hear 'em They're saying "You've got one more chance to do right" - and it's tonight Now go out there and show that you love 'em before it's too late And just as I go to walk out of my bedroom door It's turns to a stage, they're gone, and this spotlight is on And I'm singing...
[Chorus] And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain Just smile back And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain Just smile back...
[Verse 3] Sixty thousand people, all jumping out their seat The curtain closes, they're throwing roses at my feet I take a bow and thank you all for coming out They're screaming so loud, I take one last look at the crowd I glance down, I don't believe what I'm seeing "Daddy it's me, help Mommy, her wrists are bleeding," But baby we're in Sweden, how did you get to Sweden? "I followed you Daddy, you told me that you weren't leavin' "You lied to me Dad, and now you make Mommy sad "And I bought you this coin, it says 'Number One Dad' "That's all I wanted, I just want to give you this coin "I get the point - fine, me and Mommy are gone" But baby wait, "it's too late Dad, you made the choice "Now go up there and show 'em that you love 'em more than us" That's what they want, they want you Marshall, they keep.. screamin' your name It's no wonder you can't go to sleep, just take another pill Yeah, I bet you you will. You rap about it, yeah, word, k-keep it real I hear applause, all this time I couldn't see How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it Put it to my brain and scream "die Shady" and pop it The sky darkens, my life flashes, the plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes That's when I wake up, alarm clock's ringin', there's birds singin' It's Spring and Hailie's outside swinging, I walk right up to Kim and kiss her Tell her I miss her, Hailie just smiles and winks at her little sister Almost as if to say..
[Chorus / Outro] And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain Just smile back And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain Just smile back...
[Curtains closing and sounds of footsteps] see, the thing is with eminem, i only like his more serious song like this one, and mocking bird, the way i am, toy soldiors, and mosh stuff like that lol anwayz bye ye!
Mood: blah
Listening to: taking back sunday
we left school at 7pm and had a 13 hour (or something like that) overnight trip to germany, when we got there we went to the german markets for a while, then went to another, then after that we checked into our hotel, it was fun coz nikki, jourdan, and aaron held me "captive" in there room and nikki srayed his linkz all over me lol, this was going on during the disco and when out teacher found out she sent us back down, the disco was crap, at night Nikki and Jourdaj kept phoning me and we had a long converstaion about...well...nothing really then i had to give nikki a box of pringels coz he told me what channel mtv was on. Ermm the next morning we went to another market and well after we went home, from what ive written it doesnt seem that much, but trust me it was pretty cool *ahem* and it was like, THE longest weekend of me life!
Mood: ok
Listening to: taking back sunday
So im not at school right now, ive been sleeping to ive all awak for the german trip today, and frankly i feel pretty CRAP lol, for the past 2 days now ive been waking up with a nose bleed but lets hope that doesnt happen in german! anywayz gtg now buh by
Mood: meh
Listening to: taking back sunday
well just to get things straightend out..if your thinking i got something knew or found something out wel no, i just can never find a appropriate title lol. Anywayz today has been pretty fun lol. Apparenty Matt Night fancies me now lol tehe EH james fancies me, i cant stand it, i cant even look at him anymore, it just makes me feel sick...HE makes me feel sick, everytime hes comes over to me and my m8s im just like....walk away lol. So annoying!! err and there was this knew girl called Sintana..lol...her name cracks me and my friends up because at first we thought it was saltana lol. Even Mriss Brainwood thought it was saltana lmao. At first she seen like a pretty decent person even tho she was a proper chav....but then we all started talking and she it SUCH A BITCH OMG i cant belive how much i hate this girl! She thinks she really hard coz she like" oh i pushed my prother out of the window, i pushed some boy into a river and he couldnt swim, i beat up him, i beat up her, ive been arrested, i smoke, ive taked drugs once..." OMG SHUT UP! i cant belive how annoying she was, im not gonna give her the bad end of the stick YET, coz i guess at the same time she is a really nice person to, because she is pretty funny even tho she stars at you alot, and she is easy to talk....ahem. lol So anywayz, err in drama today all the boys was saying to me i have to get in with ben by the end of the day and they were saying if matt could ****** me and i was like NO THATS SICK! got there so weird lol. and now there all kinda competing on how could grap my **** first is so twisted. Ermm well i went to see my nan and grandad today with my brother and tehe we saw alex running in short lol we were laughing so much. lol. So anywayz, wen we got there we was just chatting for a while coz i havnt visited them and aggeess. We was talking about christmas and the german trip im going on tomorrow and stuff like that. They gave me 20 which i was supposed to exchange into euros but i spent it instead lol, i bout a couple of sk8 magazines (sidewalk and transwolrd skateboarding) i got a free 2006 calander lmao. Err...what else have i done...nothing much i guess, im not going into school coz my mum said she wants me to sleep in and get some rest for the trip tomorrow, i would so not laught if she made me go to school tomorrow seeing as i have already put my unifom in the wash lol. Anywayz gawd im so obseesed with taking back sunday!!! wowza!! there so good!! and yer...gawd theres with girl in year 10 called sarah coz fucking hell i hate that girl. i wish she was dead, she keeps getting people to pass messages to me saying that im a dirty tramp who wont get anywhere in life, and swear to god next time she says somthing about me im going to serisously smack her, no joke, ive never been more annoyed with someone in all my life. i hate that girl so much, she a fucking bitch, but a fuckind lisp, who cant singm so i dont really know why shes even trying. gawd. Errr lol Anyway, i was talking to Jamie last night, gawd i havnt talked to him a such a long time. it was good to hear from him again. hmm. i dont really know whats going on with a cirtain person in my life, they done something unforgivable to me and everything i know about breaking hearts and pain, well i guess i just learnt more from them, i guess anyone would do. anywayz im gonna post a couple of taking back sundayt songs.
Get up, get up
Come on, come on, lets go
There’s just a few things
I think that you should know
Those words at best
Were worse than teenage poetry
Fragment ideas
And too many pronouns
Stop it, come on
You’re not making sense now
You can’t make them want you
They’re all just laughing
Literate and stylish (literate and stylish)
Kissable and quiet (kissable and quiet)
Well that’s what girls dreams are made of
And that’s all you need to know (and that’s all you need to know)
You have it or you don’t (you have it or you)
You have it or you (don’t)
You have it or you
You see how much time you’re wastin?
You’re coward of seperatin
Stop it, come on
You know I can’t help it
I got the mic
And you got the mosh pit
What will it take
To make you admit that you were wrong?
Was his demise so carefully constructed?
Well let’s just say I got what I wanted
Cause in the end it’s always the same (you’re still gone)
Lets go
Literate and stylish (literate and stylish)
Kissable and quiet (kissable and quiet)
Well that’s what girls dreams are made of
And that’s all you need to know (and that’s all you need to know)
You have it or you don’t (you have it or you)
You have it or you (don’t) don’t
This is me with the words on the tip of my tongue
And my eye through the scope
Down the barrel of a gun (gun,gun)
Remind me not to ever act this way again
This is you trying hard to
Make sure that you’re seen
With a girl on your arm
And your heart on your sleeve
Remind me not to ever think of you again
This is me with the words
On the tip of my tongue
And my eye through the scope
Down the barrel of a gun
Remind me not to ever act this way again (again)
Again (again)
This is me with the words
On the tip of my tongue
And my eye on the scope
Down the barrel of a gun
I’ll never act this way again
Rest the weight (I know somethin that you don’t know)
You’ve had your chance and folded
Don’t hold your breath
Because you’ll only make things worse
Rest the weight (I know somethin that you don’t know)
You’ve had your chance and folded
Don’t hold your breath
Because you’ll only make things worse
(I know somethin that you don’t know)
This is me with the words
(I know somethin that you don’t know)
And you sure don’t
Hold your, hold your breath
(I know somethin that you don’t know)
Because you’ll only make things worse
Hold your breath
Because you’ll only make things worse
Hold your breath
(I know somethin that you don’t know)
Because you’ll only make things worse
Don’t hold your breath because you’ll only make things worse!
