Somebody's someone

Mood: eh
Listening to: bon jovi - have a nice day

ive been listening to this song and every word of it pretty much describes me, its bon jovi - have a nice day (im going to see him in concert! 6th june saint marys staidium just down the road from me kinda )

Why, you wanna tell me how to live my life?
Who, are you to tell me if it’s black or white?
Mama, can you hear me? Try to understand.
Is innocence the difference between a boy and a man.
My daddy lived the lie, it’s just the price that he paid.
Sacrificed his life, just slavin’ away.

Ohhh, if there’s one thing I hang onto,
It gets me through the night.
I aint gonna do what I don’t want to,
Im gonna live my life.
Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice,
Standing on the ledge, show the wind how to fly.
When the world gets in my face,
I say, Have A Nice Day.
Have A Nice Day

Take a look around you, look its what he sees.
We’re living in a broken home of hopes and dreams,
Let me be the first to shake a helping hand.
Everybody, pray enough to take a stand,
I knocked on every door, on every dead end street,
Looking for forgiveness,
what’s left to believe?

Ohhh, if there’s one thing I hang onto,
It gets me through the night.
I aint gonna do what I don’t want to,
Im gonna live my life.
Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice,
Standing on the ledge, show the wind how to fly.
When the world gets in my face,
I say, Have A Nice Day.
Have A Nice Day.

Guitar Solo

Ohhh, if there’s one thing I hang onto,
It gets me through the night.
I aint gonna do what I don’t want to,
Im gonna live my life.
Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice,
Standing on the ledge, show the wind how to fly.
When the world gets in my face,
I say, Have A Nice Day.
Have A Nice Day.
Have A Nice Day.
Have A Nice Day.
Have A Nice Day.

When The world keeps trying, to drag me down,
Ive gotta raise my hands, gonna stand my ground.
Well I say, Have A Nice Day.
Have A Nice Day
Have A Nice Day

Mood: shitty - i have the most annoying cold

eh, i can be fucked to do anything, i havnt wrote in this in a while so ill try to make this a long on. I havnt really been in the best of mooods latly for a number of reasons which i will get to later. Probably the most ive smiled latly is this morning when lewis gave me some of his chocolate bar and it made me proper crazy, i know some of u people i know in real life may be reading this thinking "wat are you on about ur happy! ur always happy!" well im not, i have to force on a smile everyday just to stop people from questioning me asking wats wrong, thats the thing my makes me break down and cry. Anyways,to the reason i ve feeling crap, well first of all..i dunno...i just feel a bit distant to a few people right now and its making me thing, are they just taking the first steps to me getting ditched? Probably the people who i am most friends with right now are Holly Cathy Alice and (kinda) lauren.B It just feels like things have changed. Also, my family, there not doing anything to piss me of, the just annoying me anyway way, like me mum, she just has to talk to me and i just stressed, Its just come to the point where ive seen so much of them and been around them so much its just starting my make me feel actually sick, i know it probably just me being fucked up in the head and everything but its just driving me insane. Ive just realise that im at the point in my life were i really need someone who can always be there for me and someone who i cant trust my be by my side through think and thin, someone who i will be able to tell everything to, over the years i have been keeping in alot of hate, and anger towards people, and i just need to let it all out but i cant just to it to anyone, i need to find that ONE person, weather it will be a boyfriend, new friend, old friend, current friend, you name it, i just need someone. Tomorrow IF i come to school im just gonna act like it awlays is, me being an idiot with people (even some of my own friends) saying spitfull things about me behind my back. I bet no1 has even noticed that ive been alot quieter the last few days, im not going out hardly anymore, i hardly even sleep anymore, im not taking to anyone at home, my parents have even said there worried about me, and like i said because the just happen to piss me of so much i just locked my door. All i ever do is either sit on the chair im on now playing crappy little games or lock myself im my room put on some music and turn off all this light so its pitch black and just lay on my bed letting the music take control of me. So ok ok, you people reading this has probably had enough of me so im gonna end this now. and could somebody plz comment on this, i could really use some adivse right now.

Mood: happy
Listening to: the called - where ever you will go

So i dont go out with charlie anymore, but to be honest im not really that bummed out by it. and anywayz, i go back out with David!!! i REALLY like him, you know? i topped up £20 (but i have £22.50? ok weird) and we've been txting eachother and its great! anyway that all for now

buh bye!

well i have another detention!!! fun! hlaf an hour for no homework hehehe...great ! I started to copy harriet's work but then i just thought fuck it...do it tonight or tomorrow morning if i can be botherd. So.....hmm.....Charlie has finnaly got it in his head that i go out with him....atleast...we he always has but..well..you know wat i mean! anyway bellz gone buh bye!

Mood: happy
Listening to: jimmy eats world - just take some time

Um....so i went out with ellie and sam.s again. It was proper funny coz my brother let me use his bmx and i was giving ellie a dubby and we were just cracking up and we saw ginger boi!!! we would of went after him but sam made us wait for him while he was looking to "lime avenue" lol errr!!! OMG this song rocks! (nickleback - photographes) lol

anyway thats about it, going back to the skate park tomorrow woopie!

oh man, the song ended, owell but now im listening to Jimmy eats world! lol

ova and out!

Mood: happy
Listening to: jimmy eats world - just take some time

Um....so i went out with ellie and sam.s again. It was proper funny coz my brother let me use his bmx and i was giving ellie a dubby and we were just cracking up and we saw ginger boi!!! we would of went after him but sam made us wait for him while he was looking to "lime avenue" lol errr!!! OMG this song rocks! (nickleback - photographes) lol

anyway thats about it, going back to the skate park tomorrow woopie!

oh man, the song ended, owell but now im listening to Jimmy eats world! lol

ova and out!

Mood: ok i guess
Listening to: all american rejects - paper hearts

um...i had P.E 1st two periods, it was really good for a first lesson. Um...nothing much happend in school really, after school me eli harriet met up with Charlie and we saw sam.s so he tagged along, we went to peartree, pretty fun.

Mood: Happy
Listening to: All american rejects - p.s i love you (they r awesome!)

um..so today went well, the lessons i had to day were: English (me and ellie wouldnt stop cracking up) music (with my "ipressive" bob marley drawing) German (cool teach) mth (fucking hell, 1st lesson and already stuggeling!) and double d.t (ahhh mark sits oposite me!) All in all the day was pretty fun. At luch i pushed over Harriet and she feel right on the flour and EVERY1 just turned round and look (soz about that lol)

Also i now go out with Charlie....i kinda happy about it but at the same time it doesnt really feel like anything. I was with ellie today, when we was on my comp we was cracking up coz...well...we just were lol, And yay! im giving her £5 to become a member on rs and shes giving me 200k (gp on rs) (my username is sk8 gl 14 if u wana add me) So it rocks! go us!

So tomorrow im going out with ellie and Charlie lol. YAY! I think =s lol...hmmm....wat else...tomorrw ive got p.e! WOOPIE!! I tihnk its gymnastics! im a pretty much always do well on tht seeing as i used to go to gymnastic club thingy. lol.

Mood: ok i guess. over the depression ( i hope )
Listening to: Good charlotte - change

first day back from hols......SUCKED!!!! lol ok, so it wasnt THAT bad! if i had to be honest it was OKAY!! oooommmggg my tutor room is now yelllow, it look so gay! we spent period 1 2 and 3 sorting out a load of usless shit, period 4, well we was all in the hall sorting out some more usless shit, Period 5 um....oh yeah we had science!!! im sat next to my bestest m8 ever!!! hayzel!! *ahem* (for those dim people, i was being sarcastic when i said bestest m8 ever) LOL me and harriet were just cracking up! Last period i had english, I had mrs..um...matlock i think, i first we all thought she was gonna be like Miss Travis, but shes is really nice lol. After that, we went hime bla bla bla, me harriet and ellie went to the sk8 park. We saw Wayne (sam and bebs m8) James (boy i know from yyeeaaarrrrss ago, since i was 8 lol ) and some other boy. We was there for a while, then we saw Dan-Dan and Luke. W. i thought they was gonna be mouthing us oiff coz of our *skater* image but he was actually being really friendly and talking to us. Then Steven stone came and we was kinda talking to him for a while, then this RRREEAALLLLYYY fit boy me and ellie saw yesterday, was there again and i was like WHOA! lol ok, so thats enough for today! lol

alse ive realised that ive kinda been neglecting blogigo for a while now, so im just gonna make myself write a entry EVERY day lol.

Mood: lonely, depressed, empty, hollow, shit.
Listening to: good charlotte - hold on

im seriously depressed. Befor when i said i was depressed, ocmpared to how i was feeling thats was a load a shit, i feel like the world is playing pothetic games with me and i hate life right now. Yesterday i yhad the mother of all arguments with my mum over the stupidist thing, she throw a fucking glass plate and me for fuck sake, when i heard her on the phone to my dad she said that she doesnt want me living with her anymore, so i just shouted at her and called her a bitch. Last night a Katies party was really good but then me and harriet got really depressed and i just burst out in tears and it didnt help with people surrounding me. When i got home i just started crying yet again, my eyes are really puffy from where ive been crying so much. At about 1:30 last night my mum phoned me and said "look kristing i apologis for what i did yesterday and i love you, your my daughter" so i said "i dont care anymore, i hate you, dont ever talk or come near me again" i really my life at the moment. i thought i was happier than ever untill this happend.

And plz if anyone is reading this dont make childish petty comments coz im really not in the mood.