This has been a revolution of the mind.
In response to the comment, the trip has been planned since April. Life happens and theres nothing you can do about it. Blown tires, moving, etc. I've tried to get public assistance - I don't qualify. I've been to two charities - I don't qualify for some things. I have no children and the money I do get is well over the limit that they can provide for legally via their grants. You kinda sounded like my mom in that comment. Why would you do this? Why would you do that? That is very irresponsible! I mean no harm to your feelings, just stating the way I feel. This is why I was leary about blogging. C'est la vie, right? I should also mention that the lack of funding in my account is due to an error in the financial aid/brusar office at my school. I've spent 3 weeks or so clearing it all up.
I should say that when I wrote the first entry, things were really bad for me mentally. Im not writing to ask for feedback, nor am I writing to ask for sympathy. I just need a place for peace. That's why I made this blog.
Some of my friends are going through rough times right now. Wish there was more I could do for them.
Went to a friends wedding today. Thankfully, my mother took me. It was nice. I was her 'matron of honor'. She was really happy and I was happy for her. She's a good friend, better than most of my friends here where I live. That kinda hurts to say, too. Birds of a feather flock together, right? Wonder what that's saying about me.
My brother called me tonight. He can only talk to me when his girlfriend isnt around. She hates me. I was told, by her, that if they have children, I will never be apart of their lives. That hurt. I don't like her much either, but I would never stop my brother from seeing my children if I ever have any. He will always be my brother first. Wish he saw it the same. It's so fake when I talk to him. We used to be really close, best friends even. She's managed to rip that bond in half and put herself in the middle. Partly my fault and partly his. We shouldnt have let it happen. He's blind when it comes to her. I guess that's how your first love is? I don't remember my first love...
I find it fascinating how the mind can hold so many thoughts all at once. My mind just skips around like a quentin terrintino film. He's a great producer. I love his films. I have so much to do before I go out of town next week. On Saturday, I have to take my cats to the vet. They'll be boarded there the entire week and the youngest will be having a surgery. There things we need as well. Bah - I can't think about all of that. My mind will go into overload.
This has been a revolution of the mind.
