Close At Heart

Dec 22, 2004 at 22:37 o\clock

More from Me!

Mood: my throat hurts
Listening to: "Silver Bells" by: Mel Torme


I'm sorry I didn't write for awhile.  I didn't think any one was reading any more but I got a comment and I'm back again to write some more!

Only 3 days until Christmas!  Actually, less than that.  2 days, 8 hours, and 35 minutes until Christmas!  yay!

We got let out of school early today because of a snow storm that was suppose to come...and it came.

Love Always,


Dec 13, 2004 at 22:04 o\clock


Mood: sleepy
Listening to: "I saw mommy kissing Santa Calus" By: Andy Williams

I'm sorry I didn't write

I have been writing a long letter to Jawad and it's finally done and on it's way to Pakistan now.

That and I'm still not well.  I'm going to see the doctor tomorrow...I'm so sleepy right now so please forgive my short entry.

Please, any people who are reading this take my poll and leave comments...another reason I didn't update for awhile is because I didn't think any one was reading it.

Love Always,


Dec 8, 2004 at 20:25 o\clock

Another Day

Mood: scared
Listening to: "From this moment on" by: Shania Twain


I'm home sick again today with Emily.  It's my second day here and her third.

I'm really kind of nervous.  I'm going to be pen pals with my friend, Jawad, over the internet.  I mean I have known him for a very long time and he has helped me all the time, and I'm going to have him write to the church just to be careful you know.  But I'm still pretty nervous and a little scared.  I'm putting my trust into him, and I have never done that before.  I pray so much that this isn't going to turn out to be a bad thing.  God protect me.

Love Always,


Dec 7, 2004 at 21:45 o\clock


Mood: sympathetic
Listening to: the TV

Hi there

There is a lot of pain today.  Emily and me are home sick today.  My head hurts and I'm not too sure what's wrong with Emily.  Anywho, Warren is in the most pain.  He told me in offline messages that he was running down the street and fell and he hurt himself.  He told me he bruised his shoulder, hand, palm, and knees and he told me he wasn't feeling too well either.  I feel so bad for him and I wish he could be here.  I would take care of him...anywho, I wish I could do something to help.

Love Always,


Dec 6, 2004 at 21:15 o\clock


Mood: worn out
Listening to: nothing


I'm really tiered right now and I don't feel like typing.  I am just so worn out today and I'm not sure why.

Love Always,



Dec 5, 2004 at 21:48 o\clock

Sad Songs

Mood: ok for a sad song in my head and no one to talk to
Listening to: nothing

I'm at dad's house now and I have a very, very sad song stuck in my head.  I don't know the name of it though.

So far today I have had church and we practiced this Christmas musical we're going to do and I have a main part but i'm not in it all the time.  Anywho, that went okay I suppose?  Then we came here right after and now here I sit with no one on.  I kind of want Warren to come on.  I get so nervous everytime he wants to see me on!  de ja vu!!  I feel like I typed that right here before...oh my goodness this is creepy.

Anywho, I want Warren to be on so i can chat with him and show him my bracelet I got.  I really just want to chat with him.

Love Always,


Dec 5, 2004 at 06:19 o\clock


Mood: sleepy
Listening to: the computer crackling

Hello there,

mom and I watched a movie this evening called "Sense and Sensibility" and it was a very good movie but it really stirred up my emotions.  Any one who has seen it could agree, I'm sure.

Warren said he had to work today until 3:30 his time and it is now 4:15 his time and he's not on.  I'm not sure how long to wait for him.  I will see what I'm like at midnight and it depends if he gets on by then or not.

I'm not sure what else to write.  I'm sorry.

Love Always,


Dec 5, 2004 at 01:21 o\clock

What a day

Mood: tiered
Listening to: the TV and people


I have a head ache.  My day has been busy and I'm just worn out!  I went with Em and we went to this restraunt and it was a nice place.  Then we went to this store she loves and it has antiques in it and stuff and it was a nice place.  When we were in the car we listened to the first half of Phantom and I told her about it and we might go see the movie when it comes out.  um...then we went to Ten Thousand Villages and I got a bracelet from India and it's just BEAUTIFUL!

Then Emily's party...well I felt left out and everything but she loved my present and I know she had a good time so that is good enough for me.

Love Always,


Dec 4, 2004 at 17:12 o\clock

Last Night

Mood: bored and low on energy
Listening to: the TV

Hi there.

Last night I waited until 1am and at 1 Warren got on and told me he was scared to be on and so we didn't get to chat.  I hope that tonight we can chat and you know what the swwetheart did?  When I told him that today was Emily's birthday and I told her about him so she knows about him he picked out a birthday e-card and e-mailed it to her.  I hope she gets it because that was just too thoughtful!

Today, in about an hour, I'm going to go with my mentor Em to go out for lunch and then go to an antique shop and maybe to another shop somewhere.  Then, it will be Emily's party.  I'm not really looking forward to it though.  But oh well...she's 12 today.

Love Always,


Dec 4, 2004 at 05:54 o\clock

Another Evening

Mood: bored and sleepy
Listening to: the usual

I'm stuck.

I don't know whether or not I should wait for Warren tonight or not.  He tells me he doesn't want me to stay up late and I am tiered...and I know his family will be home so he won't be able to chat and if he can and we do get to chat he will be on and off and he'd get scared...I think I'm going to go to bed soon.  I'll wait until 12:40-1am and if he's not on then I'm going to go to bed.

I'm so bored and I don't know what to do...*sigh*

I'll take surveys and post them in here or something lol

Love Always,


Dec 4, 2004 at 01:31 o\clock

Bored with Boredome

Mood: emotionally confused
Listening to: the TV

Hi again

I'm really, really bored right now.  My pen pal got off line to eat and when she comes back on she can only be on until 8 or so my time and when she gets off, if no one is on, I plan to write a letter to her and a friend back at the old place, Anya.  She saw phantom with me and I want to know what she thought of it and how her Halloween went and to see if we could be penpals because we can't see eachother like we used to every Sunday.  *sigh* I miss my old life.

Mukesh...would you like me to tell you about him?  Basically, he is a 18 year old man in India who is so maddly in love with me.  I feel so sorry for him because I don't love him like he wants me he needs me to, because I mean he's 4 years older than me and I have Warren.  I feel so sorry for the man...he told me in an offline message that he is so much in love with me and he thinks about me all the time and he prays to God that we will chat again and he said he also prays that I am happy all the time.  He's such a sweet person...but I just can't love him like he needs me to.

Love Always,


Dec 3, 2004 at 21:32 o\clock

Oh yay more good!!

Mood: happy!!! happy!!!
Listening to: click, click, click

People are reading!  yay!  I have 2 comments now!  People are reading!  haha!  People I don't even know even!

Thank you people!!

Dec 3, 2004 at 21:28 o\clock

Good Day

Mood: a very very good mood :)
Listening to: the typing of my fingers

Hi there!

Okay, so far my day was a good one!  I got up feeling just terrible because I hate getting up at 6:30am only to know that I have a day of school ahead of me.  That felt bad.  I went to get my yogurt and ate it (that's all I eat for breakfast) and it was feeling like a pretty bad day.  But in civics we didn't get any homework and I didn't do too too bad on my quiz.  I got 16/20 right but it wasn't that easy any ways.  I only missed 2.  Then, I went to gym and we are tested for things every Friday and I did really good this week.  Not on pull ups but I don't think I ever will (honestly).  But when we were all waiting for the bell to ring Tiff told Jaccob that I can sing really well and he asked me to sing and, of course, I refused but then once I walked away to sit down I heard them all talking about how good I sing and stuff.  You see, Jaccob doesn't like me too well and I don't really care but it's always good to have some one who thinks your worth nothing see that you are good at know?  Then I had science and got a 100% on my test and then I had reading and I feel I did all right on the test but I'm not sure for sure.  We got reading home work but it's not too bad.  Then lunch...I had nachoes.  I have had a salad all week for lunch so I have decided to treat myself today with nachoes and boy were they GOOD!  Then I had study hall and I got the wrong book.  I got my science book instead of my reading so I just helped Clarissa study for the sceince test and then I wrote some.  Then we had choir which was fun (as it always is).  Sure we sound really bad as a choir but I sing in it because it's really fun for me.  I sing to let all my stress and anger and sadness go.  Okay...then I had algebra and I worked with these people who all they wanted to do was talk and talk and talk and so I didn't get the last part done but I'll ask the teacher during study hall on Monday about it because I'm pretty lost with it.  Okay, then computers where we presented our power point presentations and every one liked mine.  No one really sighed woefully like it was never going to end at the beginning and it was about music and it had Beethoven and Mozart in it so they all knew those names and that might have helped it not to be too boring like i feared they would think it was.  Then I had language arts and for our "homework" we have to fill out this sheet about what we liked about writing poetry and what we didn't and things like that and that was fun!  I love writing poetry and when Trianna went up to ask the teacher if I spelled chaos right in a poem she took it from her and read it.  (Now aloud but to herself) and when she was done she said it was good.  Then I got a ride home from mom so I didn't really have to walk home and when I got here my mom gave me a letter from a new penpal.  I put my penpal information into this magazine thing for Christians and I have had 3 replies back now.  This one is a new one!  But then I got home and I got offline messages from Mukesh...I will have to tell you about him.

So, so far my day has been great!

Love Always,


PS. Isn't that smiley just so CUTE??

Dec 3, 2004 at 03:36 o\clock

He did it! He did it!

Mood: proud
Listening to: the TV

Oh I'm so happy!  He did it!  Warren came on and he told me that he took his driving test and he passed!  Now he can drive!  Oh this is wonderful!  Life is going by so fast...9 months ago when I first met him he was some one that I really loved and that was all he really was.  Now he's my friend, he's not the same person he was before, he's mature, he's so's amazing I will honestly tell you this.

I wander if any one is reading my blog?

Love Always,


Dec 3, 2004 at 02:27 o\clock

*sigh* Terrible evening

Listening to: the TV...the guy got a question wrong on who wants to be a millionare...and i knew it


This is just a terrible eveing.  Jose is on but he's not talking to me and I don't know hurts.  The last time he talked to me he told me that he was in no state of mind to talk...and I don't know what i did or anything.  He asked me to just leave him alone...and I wish I knew what was wrong.  That and I'm DESPERATE of someone to talk to or something to do!!!

Everything just left me...I can't think of a thing to talk about.  Well, this is just great.

Love Always,


Dec 3, 2004 at 02:17 o\clock

so annoying!!

Mood: annoyed
Listening to: the TV

Okay this is just getting annoying...

no one is on.  there is no one to talk to and nothing to do.  Oh wait I just remembered!!  I have to look something up on the internet for choir...*going back to scowling* but I'll be back!!

Love Always,


Dec 3, 2004 at 00:38 o\clock


Mood: bored
Listening to: the TV


I'm bored because no one is on...well, people are on but no one is talking to me.  Warren isn't on and I think he's out taking his driving test.  I'm really wanting to hear from him...I usually get a little worried every time he is out or something...I'm always getting terrible terrible thoughts of him being hurt or killed shoved into my head.  It's really heart breaking to think about.

I think I might surf this sight or something...I wish people would just talk to me.

Love Always,


Dec 2, 2004 at 21:45 o\clock

No Scense...

Mood: bored...still

This doesn't make any says there have been almost 60 visitors to my blog but no one has left a comment nor a guestbook entry (Okay okay one person did)...ah well I know people are probably reading!!

(lol that little guy is so cute--it really didn't mean anything I just thought it was cute lol!)

Dec 2, 2004 at 21:41 o\clock

Me again!

Mood: all right...bored some
Listening to: the TV lol

Hi again!

Well, Warren got on last night but he didn't talk much because he wanted to work on my birthday present.  Since he can't send anything in the mail he's making some thing on the computer and i know it's possible to be done because on his birthday I made this thing on the computer for him.  He has a driving test again today.  He failed his last one and it wasn't fair how he did but he has another one today and I hope he doesn't fail again.  The last time wasn't his fault.

No one is on any more and I don't really know what to do.  I guess i can surf the internet or something?  Humm...that's an idea.  I hope that people start to read this.  I know one person probably is reading it or something...she signed my guestbook.  I always love it when I get replies.  If I don't and no one is reading I really don't find any reason to continue with it.  I have one on livejournal that I know people read...they don't read it too often but I know they read it.

Love Always,


Dec 1, 2004 at 22:04 o\clock


Mood: angry and annoyed
Listening to: the TV

Oh goodness!!!

My brother and sister are fighting again and I'm hungry...just one day I wish that they wouldn't fight!!  JUST ONE!

My day was all right.  I haven't heard from Warren for a little while and I'm starting to get a little worried

Love Always,