right, i forget u want me to be ur complement only
not much to say abt scl, everythings goin on well. n well yeah, im likely to give up on becoming a musician. but i will work on my diploma.
u left n bk, its been almost 5 weeks. there hasnt been any proper conversation. only an email tellin me ur number...i was sad and disappointed at first. i felt like a stuffed toy. slowly, i managed to live with it. i knew i couldnt force u to do anything,which is, otherwise, meaningless.
i would prefer to regard ur silence n nigilence as an act of cowardice.It hurts. How could u be like that? its cruel its blunt and its devastating. People said weve broken up frm the fact that our contact has been cut off in this month-time. my heart aches,soars and it breaks.
something inside has died and i cant hide it or just cant fake it. oh dear, wh were u so serious n started everything in the beginnin? and suddenly deserted me like that.
finally we had our first proper conversation last night.
'i told u im a bad boy and u didnt believe it, remember?' 'i told u,ure going to hate me'
yes, ure bad after living for 36 years, being dumped by all the gfs that u had. u dont seem to have the will to change. how pathetic.
and worst of all, u came to me. heh. at first u were so serious and said u wanted to plan n etc . i truste u. but then u said work was ur priority and made a mistake. wt more i cud do. i told u i cudnt afford to be hurt in the beginning u said how would i know if i didnt try. here i am. i chose not to believe i chose not to understand the reality of u. sigh
maybe ure trying not to hurt me and let me to make my own choice.
i dont know wt to say. ive got loads to do myself. certainly, a relationship like this cant possibly last.our 20-year age gap, 2 totally diff lifestyles and ur irresponsible attitude towards a relationship....
u like me and reluctant to let go. and work is ur prioirty atm. i dont know wt to say.
oh right, u said u wanted me to be ur complement. perhaps i shouldnt be expecting much if i choose not to leave u
