gd time at scl.......
aw did boxing for 3 hrs yesterday n my shoulders hurt now
hmmm
ur leaving in 6 days, when are we going to meet?
sigh,i know work is ur priority but it makes me feel like a stuffed toy somehow. i got feelings too.
im glad to hear frm u this afternoon...........a moment of happiness
i dont want to lose you.
maybe ive done it wrongly but you cant solely blame it on me.
i do not want to lose you.
sigh
now we know each other............
we know what we both are looking for ..stuff n stuff
and we found each other......
i realized all these time we spent it was you who found me but i didnt find you.
SWEET
perhaps we are still used to our own ways of loving.
perhaps more time is needed to understand each other.
perhaps more time is needed to reconsider our relationship.
i taste pathetique.
dont feel like play the flute anymore...
david, if i dont like you i wouldnt tell you all these.
i jsut want you to know how i feel and what has actually happened to me afterwards....
我也有我感覺難道要遮掩,與你相見仍是我心願,愛與痛的邊緣
i firmly believe my bum is getting rotten after having been seated for a whole day, almost
im going to dr kams wedding tmr though i dont feel like going to anywhere without him. lol
perhaps im expecting too much from you.
cuz people say if a guy really likes someone
he would hold her hand whenever hes with her
he would miss you and make use of his free time to text you when he's at work
he would take every opportuunity he has to show his love and care to his beloved ones.
sadly, however, you dont do anything like this.
maybe, ure very busy as you said. but cant you give me a call one day? i feel so stupid.
i wonder if you like me this lot.
sigh
when words fall music speaks. so true
couldnt ride on bike to day....too painful.
hmm. did some maths todae. havent got the mood to get back to music just yet...
now its time for me to know more abt u
Listening to: non, je ne regrette rien
i like you so much. i only wish you could spend more time with me.
i wont force you to get a day off and i wont force you to spend it with me.
i cant force you to do all these.they have to come from you naturally.if i were needed to tell you what to do, its useless and meaningless then. since, afterall, you know and you're old enough to know what i really want.
please show me some love and care.
luckily im able to detach myself from every different tangible surroundings and able to enter into a particular state of consciousness....which is good. so im will be protected.
i need to finish the notes tonight.cuz ill have to save tmr for my flute prac tise.................
oh my pace workin cycling lol guylains right on it lol...........ta xx
i spent the morning with him.
i treat people differently...and if i dont smile it doesnt mean im being rude my face is born like this
i wonder how do you feel with me excluuding from the moment we spent in bed n kissing
i wonder if you feel im different from what you think, just as we start to know each other more
i wonder if you feel difficult to communicate with me....the night u said
i wish you could spend more time with me...like hanging out n s tuff
i wish you would hold my hand when we're out together
i wish you could show more love n care to me, i think you do, inside....i hope
jsut do sth to convice me ...
but still, i understand your personality n i hate to force people to do things against their will in order to get my pleasure
......
i enjoy the moment whenver you're with me. even when we're not speaking
i like you david
apart from these, ive attempting to finish the lot within the week.
my life must go on. wheres my passion and motivation for music ?
i dont know. suddenly i feel the urge to focus on my study first........
why do you ignore me?
its cruel enough. why? i only wanted to have someone to talk to,that's it.
i aint got much friends and you know that, if u could remember.
do u know how much it hurts to wait for someone u like so much? honestly i imiss you all the time but sadly ur work never ends.i feel so left-out.....
i told you i couldnt afford to let someone to hurt my feeling anymore
i told you not to hestitate and go but at least tell me the reason
Mood: cant be any worse
why would u all want me to sit on the stage for 20mins....whilst doin nothing.the beating of the timpani was like someone stabbing in my heart. it hurts.i got fucking insulted for a fucking whole 20 mins
why cant i get sth equal to the effort i devoted in......everything???????? shite i hate my life.
i nearly cried.
and you ...
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww this is my exciting roller coaster life. im so fucking fed up with all thesseeee
i hate life
u get a new gf..........so wt
communication is always essential for ppl to understand each other better.
my mom killed my i-pod with a washing machine.........
she ruined my day
i told you i couldnt afford to let someone to hurt my feeling anymore
you said if i didnt try how would i know
okay i made my steps now
ignorance is bliss believe me, ...be thankful if you were born brainless
aww my back hurts.
my lazy mood is gone. n im back to the gym!
hmmmmmmm im still unsure about us two. ure pretty much older than me n i wonder if ur serious? im too fragile to be emtionally broken down.
i have to go on, otherwise the effort i devoted will be in vain.
ta x
aww
honestly i dont know wt are we now.
people come and go.
i am not pregnant!!!!!!!!!!
my new love??
hmm i'll wait and see.
took the test today it says i was okay which means im not pregnant.....who knows i got 9 days to go.
i think ur just playing around this time.
all men get randy when they r alone wit a gal. i know it all
yaay i got 11 coursework UNfinished and has to be done within april. jeeeeeez
...feeling a bit dizzy after my practise atm *blink blink*
if you people werent deaf all you hear when ur playing ur instruments is shite. =)
i got 11 days left. shite i need my period otherwise im dead
oh why did he kiss me just sayin i wuz cute
where the heck is my dear old muramatsu ?? sebastian just helped me to fix the pads n the keys and loooook what ure doin to my old flute IDIOT!!!
im too messed up to do anything.
i never thought i would do all these with a guy whom i just met for less than 5 hrs.i shouldnt be drinkin this without having my mates to accompany me
touching kissing ...stuff n stuff
from the first second i met this guy i felt like i could exorcise him completely. ..
i woke up at 2am this morning, i was terrified.although u didnt put it in i still worried id get pregnant.. i know its inneccessary.i hope those pills cud work. ayye chris u said thatd be okay but idk...i dont feel secure. you're a stranger to me afterall
thanks to sj . oh wow uve got a gf already...already hah. silly me. c'est la vie.....so right. but i still rmb how you hold me n say la vie en rose. lol
IM SCREWED NOW
