Psh. You'll never know.

Aug 1, 2005 at 16:33 o\clock

watching and waiting, heart a bit colder

i don't really know what to say...

to you, those who hide...

i suppose i dont really deserve anything; it still stings a bit though...

ha, i have a funny feeling that you two read this...more betrayal right?

*snorts*

im a horrible person.

Jul 9, 2005 at 10:19 o\clock

Ha.

Mood: tired
Listening to: silence

You can shoot me, if you find me.

I'm sorry to always let you two down. I don't know exactly how I got myself here, but you've lost all faith it seems. I don't know what to do anymore.

I'm just spinning wildly.

Maybe through acts, I'll redeem myself. Although...

I have doubts. I have fears. If you ever did in the first place, won't you accept my word again?

I hate this.

Secrecy.

Run. Hide. Run. Hide.

I should just go shoot myself and save you the trouble. Yes, that'd be so...invigorating, I'm sure. Very, very exciting, indeed.