November 28th
Mood: good
I really don't like mondays!!...The beginning of a new week, But also of new opportunities.... Time just seems to be flying by way to quick... I can't believe that i'm 20... Wow I can remeber when i was like i wish i was older i wish i was an adult but children never realize what comes with being older and it is so funny because any adult will tell children you can wait to grow old trust me but the children will say NO i can't wait, i've noticed that the older you get the quicker time flys, but when i'm at work i just want the day to go by so quick and then i think why???... So tomorrow can come and i can go back to work it is a vicious circle ...... ahhh... the bad news just keeps on commin... life can kill ya you know not litterally but it can kill your happieness... I feel the people who can stay happy through the bad times are the strongest... I'm really worried the way time is going, well my step dad is getting worse and my papa who is now in palitive care at the hospital.... man this year is not a good year for my family but we try to stay strong just somtimes it is way to over whelming... Sometimes you just don't know what to do with the thoughts in your head you eigther just want to freak out and break stuff or you just want to get drunk and not think at all but then the next day the thoughts are still there it is a constant emotional battle just to be happy but when you have death all around you you seem to appreciate more of the life that you have...
