January 19th/06
Mood: sad
Listening to: american's bitch
I have been coming to this site less and less over the last few weeks.... Thank God 2005 is over.... work is still crap but I've gotta do it... ohh well....my dad passed away on December 25th... Ya Christmas Day I had always thought that if someone that I loved died on a holiday or my birthday or somthing like that then it would completely ruin the holiday but it didn't it gave me more of a reason to celebrate Christmas because i was never a real religous person...i was evicted from my apartment and moved back home with my mom for a bit i am accually really enjoying living there....but my mom and i have grown so close over the years.... i grew really close to my dad to (he's my step dad not my biological father but was there for me) when he first came along and started dating my mom me and him were really close we were buddies and then he had my brother jason with my mom and him now being a father he had not as much time with me and was a bit more strict... then he had mikayla and had no extras time at all of coarse i grew up and we sort of grew apart and fought a bit but i had always loved him i said some things that I regret and i'm sure he did to but the past is the past and i can't change it plus my dad told me before he died that there is to be no regrets....for none of us and i never thought that it would hurt so bad to lose him... i never thought that i was goignt to lose him so quick...But then we found out he was sick and I made sure i made up for all the lost time and visited everyday... i miss him soo much but i have to go now i am at work and i can't cry here...
