**All About Me **

Mood: Great

 I am having a BABY WOW I am soooo..... excited I am 33 weeks now which is 8 months. So I only have 7 weeks left ......crazy..... I am having a Boy and we are going to name him Adison Thomas John Anderson. I really hope that he looks like Adam then he'd be sooo cute. right now at 33 weeks he weighs about 4 Lbs and is getting bigger real quick He is a very active baby always moving and going on lol...... I can't wait to meet him.

Looking on this site brought back a lot of memories especially about my Dad I do miss him sooo... much.

Mood: sad
Listening to: american's bitch

I have been coming to this site less and less over the last few weeks.... Thank God 2005 is over.... work is still crap but I've gotta do it... ohh well....my dad passed away on December 25th... Ya Christmas Day I had always thought that if someone that I loved died on a holiday or my birthday or somthing like that then it would completely ruin the holiday but it didn't it gave me more of a reason to celebrate Christmas because i was never a real religous person...i was evicted from my apartment and moved back home with my mom for a bit i am accually really enjoying living there....but my mom and i have grown so close over the years.... i grew really close to my dad to (he's my step dad not my biological father but was there for me) when he first came along and started dating my mom me and him were really close we were buddies and then he had my brother jason with my mom and him now being a father he had not as much time with me and was a bit more strict... then he had mikayla and had no extras time at all of coarse i grew up and we sort of grew apart and fought a bit but i had always loved him i said some things that I regret and i'm sure he did to but the past is the past and i can't change it plus my dad told me before he died that there is to be no regrets....for none of us and i never thought that it would hurt so bad to lose him... i never thought that i was goignt to lose him so quick...But then we found out he was sick and I made sure i made up for all the lost time and visited everyday... i miss him soo much but i have to go now i am at work and i can't cry here...

Mood: good
Listening to: nothing

i felt like putting some pictures on here tonight it is 1131 right now and i just got done reading elisa blog man u guys write in here a lot... i'm not going to get a chance to write a lot .... i know it is kinda weird but i have a neo pet and i love her she is right cute and everyone should have one*******

ya know what sylvie was saying about loss and everthing i completely understand you can truely get lost in all of it and i did hear about the girl with the blood clot thats sad crystal told me it was her cousin !!! sooo sad and i lost my dad on christmas day and my papa 12 days before that and my nanny in may and my grampie in apr of 2005 it is so hard to see the ones you love hurt soo bad

Mood: EH OK
Listening to: nothing

Yup another day another dollar wow work was crazy tonight. busy then slow busy then slow...... other than that i am sad to announce that my papa(grandfather) has passed away on december 13th this year he was such a wonderful person i loved him so very much.... I'm pretty excited that christmas is coming i can't wait this year.... i'm going to be at my mom's for christmas and sylvie is coming over christmas eve i'm glad that she is going to be there....She is such a great person i love her like a sister her and elisa they are so funny especially when the three of us r together.... i have so much fun... i can't wait until i get to hang out with them again!!!! well i guess i'm going to go now sence i ahve nothing else to say except that i would like to get home early cause i have to walk home and i'd like to go now

TARA***

Mood: good

I really don't like mondays!!...The beginning of a new week, But also of new opportunities.... Time just seems to be flying by way to quick... I can't believe that i'm 20... Wow I can remeber when i was like i wish i was older i wish i was an adult but children never realize what comes with being older and it is so funny because any adult will tell children you can wait to grow old trust me but the children will say NO i can't wait,  i've noticed that the older you get the quicker time flys, but when i'm at work i just want the day to go by so quick and then  i think why???... So tomorrow can come and i can go back to work it is a vicious circle ...... ahhh... the bad news just keeps on commin... life can kill ya you know not litterally but it can  kill your happieness... I feel the people who can stay happy through the bad times are the strongest... I'm really worried the way time is going, well my step dad is getting worse and my papa who is now in palitive care at the hospital.... man this year is not a good year for my family but we try to stay strong just somtimes it is way to over whelming... Sometimes you just don't know what to do with the thoughts in your head you eigther just want to freak out and break stuff or you just want to get drunk and not think at all but then the next day the thoughts are still there it is a constant emotional battle just to be happy but when you have death all around you you seem to appreciate more of the life that you have...

Mood: great
Listening to: bob marly no woman no cry

Yay today is my favorite day yes.... cause it's my day yup my birthday and i'm at home right now with sylvie drinking beer.....I'm having a really great day today i got to visit my papa in the hospital... i've missed him so much...Well I'm going now to pary....

and remember always have fun...!!!!!

Mood: good

This weekend i went out with adam to his friends house we had some really good food somthing called jumbalie (I don't think that i spelt that right hehe..) It has sausage and shrimp and chicken in it mixed with rice and cooked in a chicken broth... some versons of jumbalie also have shark!!>> and we had hot wings and moose ribs but i didn't have any of that and we had regular ribs. and galic bread... it was so good..... yummmy... We also played a game of Poker which of coarse i lost booo..... what ever adam payed my buy in which was 5 buckes per person. i was supposed to pay him back but i forgot, oooppps.... Well I had a good time.. We drank quite a bit we had a german drink i can't spell and i drank 6 moose light and 2 alpine and some red wine it was grose... I also went and hung out with Sylvie on Monday we got home early and went and drank some mud slides and strawberry something and mocha something and beer. i had a good time with her too.... i usually don't drink very much but i have found myself wanting to go out and get right drunk maybe cause i want to not think at all.... It is starting to get kinda busy here at work.... I'm excited i'm going to visit my papa in the hospital tomorrow morning i can't wait to see him I have a poem that I am going to give him I have to now!!!!!!......Peace 

Mood: good
Listening to: queen song called bohemian rhapsody

I know i haven't wrote anything in here for a bit but i can't think of anything to write just the same old shit. Nothing real interesting ever happens. But to be honest i don't want to much going on eigther cause that somtimes can make things hard!! My Grampie who has cancer (the type of cancer he has is called Sarcoma, it is a cancer of the connective tissue such as muscle, blood vessels, bone ect..)Well we found out some good news. The type of cancer that he has is treatable, i am so happy i thought the worst of coarse cause i didn't want to set my self up to just get hurt.So hopefully everything works out great and i get to keep him for another 20 years.

On the lighter side work is stupid i mean if i was doing somthing that i enjoyed then it wouldn't be so bad but somedays i literally dred coming into work but to be honest it is the people who keep me here. i have fun joking and talking with the people at work. i wish my mom still worked here it was so fun with her but she had to quit so she could take care of my step dad cause he is sick.

I went on a date last night with my Adam we went to harvey's  he is so cute. I love him sooo... much i could never discribe how he makes me feel. I you have ever been in love then you know what I'm talking about, it's this warm butterfly feeling even when you hear their voice. and the feeling never goes away it just gets stronger and stronger!!! Adam is really a great person, i can remeber when we first started dating my friends used to get so mad at me because all that i ever talked about was adam non stop and i'm sure that would get really annoying especially when you are not interested in what i was saying. after a while i just stopped talking about him so much i'm certainly not saying i like him any less. Adam is my very best friend and i hope to share the rest of my life with him...

Listening to: nothing yet but i'm going to put somthing on

It Is November 5th, I Quit Smoking On October 1st. So It Has Been 36 Days. I Am Pretty Proud Of My Self. I Wasn't Sure If I Was Going To Be Able To Do It. But I Have Had A Lot Of Supprt From My Boyfriend Adam. He Is Great, He Has Taught Me So Much.

My Papa Which Is MY Mothers Father Has Been Diagnosed With Cancer But We Are Not Sure How Bad It Is. He Has Been In The Hospital For 4 Weeks Now. They Let Him Leave Today For A Couple Hours, So He Came To Visit My Step Dad, Cause He Is In A Wheel Chair And Can't Go Visit Him. He Told My Dad That He Will Meet Him In Heaven. I Think That He My Papa Thinks He Isn't Going To Make It. I Feel So Bad For My Mom And Everyone Else Of Coarse But First Her Father In Law (my grampie) Died April 8th, Then My Nan (also her grandmother) Was 101 Years Old And She Died On May 3rd, Then Her Best Friend Shirly Has Caner Through Her Whole Body And Is Going To Die, Then Her Husband (my stepdad) Has Been Diagnosed With ALS.(the entry before this one explains what ALS is) And He Is GoingTo Die, Now Her Father (my Papa) Is Going To Die That Is 5 People In The Year 2005 That Are Dieing Soon. It Is To Hard To Deal With.                                          I'm Going To Miss Them All So Much!

Sylvie I Called You Tonight Just To See If Your Phone Was Working I Can't Wait Until I Get To See Your Apt.

Mood: good
Listening to: nothing

Today i accually woke up on time for work. Well i woke up at 9:11 this mourning my bus came at 9:25 so i had time to get ready. It doesn't really take me long. ~It is really cold out side today it was when i was waiting for the bus. I think that it is getting warmer though. Just check my pixie it'll tell you how cold it is.

My step dad's doctors were at my moms house this mourning checking him out and they gave him his flu shot. I'm really worried that he is going to get the flu or somthing to make things worse for him. He has a disease called ALS

My dad's form of ALS is "Familial" ALS (FALS) means the disease is inherited. Only about 5 to 10% of all ALS patients appear to have genetic or inherited form of ALS. In those families, there is a 50% chance each offspring will inherit the gene mutation and may develop the disease.

What is ALS?
Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS), commonly known as Lou Gehrig's disease, is a progressive neuromuscular disease.

ALS is characterized by a progressive degeneration of motor nerve cells in the brain (upper motor neurons) and spinal cord (lower motor neurons). When the motor neurons can no longer send impulses to the muscles, the muscles begin to waste away (atrophy), causing increased muscle weakness.

ALS does not affect impair a person's intellectual reasoning, vision, hearing or sense of taste, smell and touch. In most cases, ALS does not affect a person's sexual, bowel or bladder functions.

ALS is often referred to as a syndrome because the disease becomes apparent in various patterns. ALS occurs rarely and spontaneously. Currently, there is no cure for amyotrophic lateral sclerosis. Making it a fatal disease!

Mood: ok
Listening to: apathy-song called immortal

Frank, what's up man?

I'm just watching some bullshit
On the news. It's fucking bullshit
Reporters trying to win an Emmy.
Makeshift Patriot
The Flag Shop Is Out Of Stock
I Hang Myself at Half Mast
It’s the Makeshift
The Patriot
The Flag Shop is Out of Stock
I hang myself... via live telecast
Coming live from my own funeral, beautiful weather offered a nice shine Which is suitable for a full view of a forever altered skyline
When times like these arise I freestyle biased opinions every other sentence Journalistic ethics slip when I pass them off as objective
"Don't give me that ethical ish."
I've got exclusive, explicit images to present to impressionable American kids And it's time to show this world how big our edifice is! That's exactly what they attacked when a typically dark skinned Disney villain
Used civilians against civilians and charged the Trojan horses into our buildings Using commercial aviation as instruments of destruction
Pregnant women couldn't protect their children Wheelchairs were stairway obstructions Now I have to back petal...from the shower of glass and metal Wondering how after it settles we'll find who provided power to radical rebels The Melting Pot seems to be calling the kettle black when it boils over But only on our own soil so the little boy holds a toy soldier.. And waits for the suit and tie to come home. We won't wait 'til he's older before we destroy hopes for a colder war to end
"Now get a close up of his head" Makeshift Patriot The Flag Shop Is Out of Stock I Hang Myself at Half Mast ”How does my hair look”
Makeshift Patriot The Flag Shop Is Out of Stock I Hang Myself at Half Mast“Run that tape back” Makeshift Patriot The Flag Shop Is Out Of Stock I Hang Myself at Half Mast
“Looks just like a movie It’s the make shift The patriot The Flag Shop is Out of Stock I hang myself
“while the stock markets crash” The city is covered in inches of muck
I see some other pictures of victims are up Grieving mothers are thinking their children are stuck Leaping lovers are making decisions to jump
While holding hands...to escape the brutal heat Sometimes in groups of the three The fall out was far beyond the toxic cloud where people look like debris But all they saw after all was said...beyond the talking heads
Was bloody dust with legs looking like the walking dead calling for meds but Hospitals are overwhelmed. Volunteers need to go the hell home Moments of silence for fire fighters were interrupted by cell phones Who's going to make that call to increase an unknown death toll? It's the one we rally behind
He's got a megaphone...and he's promising to make heads roll
we cheer him on, but asbestos is affecting our breath control
The less we know...the more they fabricate...the easier it is to sell souls
(Man talking)
There is a new price on freedom, so buy into it while supplies last. Changes need to be made; No more curbside baggage, Seven pm curfew,
Racial profiling will continue with less bitching. We've unified over who to kill, so until I find more relevant  scripture to quote, Remember, our god is bigger, stronger, smarter, and much wealthier. So wave those flags with pride, especially the white part.We sell an addictive 24 hour candle light vigils in TV'sFreedom will be defended...at the cost of civil libertiesThe viewers are glued to television screens Stuck... cause lots of things seem too sick I use opportunities to pluck heart strings for theme music I'll show you which culture to pump your fist at, which foot is right to kiss we don't really know who the culprit is yet...but he looks like this we know who the heroes are. Not the xenophobes who act hard "We taught that dog to squat, how dare he do that shit in our own back yard!" They happened to scar our financial state and char our landscape Can you count how many times so far I ran back this same damn tape? While a camera man creates news and shoves it down our throats on the West Bank
With a ten second clip put on constant loop to provoke US angst
So get your tanks and load your guns and hold your sons in a family huddle Because even if we win this tug of war and even the score... humanity struggles There's a desperate need of blood for what's been uncovered under the rubble
Some of them dug for answers in the mess...but the rest were looking for trouble  Makeshift patriot The flag shop is out of stock I hang myself at half mast. It's the makeshift The patriot The flag shop is out of stock I hang myself. Don't waive your rights with your flags.

Mood: good
Listening to: c-rayz wallz-song caled guns and butter

Life's not a bitch

Life's a beautiful woman

You just call her a bitch

because she won't let you get

That pussy

Maybe she didn't feel ya'll shared

Any similar interests

Or

Maybe your just an asshole

That couldn't sweat talk a princess

Mood: same
Listening to: outkast

Free Thinkers Are Dangerous

Those Who Think They Are Crazy Enough

To Change The World

Are The Ones Who Accually Do.

Mood: very good

Bring Back The Light

Peal Off The Scab

Don't Choke On That Cum

Cause It's Not That Bad

By:Mystie 

Mood: same
Listening to: aesop rock- a song called daylight

I saw this picture   on the internet and laughed my ass off.I thought that i would share it with all of you !

My day is going good so far i guess. I now hate columbia house they screwed me over.They are charging me 140$ for four movies that is bull shit. well what ever what can ya do i gotta pay or go into collections for an orriginal bill of 8 dollars and no way am i wrecking my credit for 8 dollars. But now i am broke for the next week which sucks, but i start my day shift at work on monday.  10:30-7, that's not to bad. But when i bid for the new shift on the first i think i'm going to bid for 2:30-11:00pm cause then i can still take a bus home and it wont cost me so much money, and of course i can sleep in YAY!. I can't wait until i move uptown.  My boyfriend might be getting a job at moosehead making 17$ an hour sweet huh! If we do move up town we will both be closer to our jobs cause moose head is over west.

You all might be wondering who Mystie is, well she's my sister and my very best friend.I don't think that anyone could ever be there for me like she has been these last 20 years.She helped me to get where i am today.Without her i don't know where i would be. I love her so much>She has taught me so much. I would do anything for her. There is a picture of her in the side bar the one with the electric acustic base. and her son Hayden is also there drinking a juice box he is turning 6 november 21st he is a very interesting kid. wow and is he ever smart. He was pushed up from kindergarden to grade 1 last year and stayed in grade one again this year but in french. He is reading at a grade three level.He can play 7 differnt instruments and he is good at all of them! I don't know if i can spell them all right but 1.mandalin 2.base 3.drums(is really good at drums)4.guitar(electric and acustic)5.trumpit 6.recorder 7.digeriedoo(which is a long wood thing it's australian it makes a real weird sound). and remeber he is only 5 years old roght now when you speak with him it is like talking to a 7 or eight year old child . he will be six in a month though.

Mood: happy
Listening to: nothing

you pick your scabs and,close your mind,to block  the screams you hide inside,Lick your wounds until there clean cause life is but a dream.The day is black with krusty eyes cause i've figured you out with backward lies.

By:Mystie