well....
vikki is being, very immature about not even willing to be civil to me, i mean we hang out with almost all the same people and she wants to what? crack everyone in half? its come nowhere near clsoe to that but i can see this turning into a me or him situation, of course everyone will choose vikki, im not exactly someone worth bothering with, but i guess once i go traveling or to uni i wont be wanted anyway and since noone will miss me i dont see what the big deal is, but losing friends is always hard. but now i have the extra annoyance of finding out that, actually, without all the drama i really enjoy myself! i mean last night out fucking round with wombat and just shitting round between all the new people and old alike reminded me why, despite blandford being a shit hole, i love going out! so yeah im not gonna sit and wallow in self pity, or worry over my friendship with vikki, i mean read her comment to my last blog, she doesnt give two shits about me so why do i let it bother me? well bean came up and said i was a bit of a bastard for not removing the picture, i explained to him i why i was not gonna take it down till i got one worth replacing it and then when vikki made a huge deal over it (enough to unblock me and scream at me) that i removed it and put up tha tone of the kid who is dying, you know me, sucker for a sob story! plus a good picture of me is one in a billion, i always look stoned or retarded or just fugly, so hmmm bean was then like oh, right, thats not so bad. which just reminded me how biased vikki really is against me, so im not really gonna try and fight the tidal wave of hate she is gonna bring against me spreading shit about me, i guess the only difference between me and her right now is i have respect for her, when she has none for me, but you knwo what im like by now, i respect the wrong people far too much, but hmmm i still have respect, which i guess is something. i remember when everything was peachy in the summer, and it was fun but now meh, i swear each year winter brings out the worst in people. anyway on that deep though my brain is empty since its late and i have an early morning 2moz for work all day with danny which will be cool, she always makes me laugh! plus i wanna phone ali and be like wow new phone it wont cut out on you anymore!! heh
