diary of a lost soul

Mood: time for me to die

well ok great news everybody, i open my heart to alyse and she fwds it to her friends, including me..saying he he look at josh etc kinda stuff and alls he had to say was oops busted! such a crushing blow, does this show that i am, and always will be a good judge of character? well look at me i am now oficially the stupidest person alive. what do i have now? i annoyed my other group of friends to try and be able to keep me and alyse going, i abandoned them and now their all i have and they know i abandoned them, i tried to keep in contact with a few but the few i did try and keep in contact with cant be bothered. thats it, i used to live for my social life at the weekends, and now that has been taken from me too! well it looks like my blog is going to become an intersting read about depression hatred and suffering once again. the one person i felt i could trust turns round and laughs at me behind my back im so depressed its unbelievable, should i try and work it out? should i give in? should i just oh i dunno even what i can do, the good thing is now i cant be killed, since you cant kill a man when he's got no hope since he is allready dead where it matters. im too depressed to write anymore im gonna go drown myself in a toilet or somthing equally amusing so alyse can have another laugh at me