Mood: tired
Listening to: fear of the dark- iron maiden
this weekend was quite a good one considering next monday my AS levels start. there was steph's birthday party and it was wild, more than enough weed to get 10 elephants pissed! enough alchohol for everyone there 10 times over! i got really druink and stupidly got in there with fat phillipa, but i dont wanna talk about it, just thinking of it makes me wanna puke! anyway sophia got really upset about this and so she was really drunk crying about it, i went up to comfort her and ended up spending the rest of the night with her. was a nice end to a bad week. during the week i have had a few problems, this really petty teacher in my school called mrs grugueon (cant spell french names for sh!t) gave me a detention for handing in the wrong asssignment claiming it was a deliberate attempt at deception..... dont even get it myself but hey! mr haslam, my housemaster, stood up for me and and told the chemistry department he thought this was a stupid reason to put me in detention for, but said i would do the detention and so it's good that he's standing up for me, maybe htis will help teachers realise that im not a no hoper, i do care about my grades, i just find it really hard to keep it together, maybe it will change over time but ive only got this school year and then next school year and then i am off from education and joining the airforce after a gap year. somthing to look forward to, but also to hope never will come i guess since after that i leave the sheltered world of school, where iw ill admitt i am willing to be sheltered with the smothering protection the school gives you but i know i wanna leave but i think about it and will miss it once i have left, im determined to enjoy my time at bryanston despite the fact that im not exactly the most social person, i keep most of my friends outside school, i guess you could say i dont fit in at my school but i have a close friendship group of people and another clsoe friendship group with people 3 years beneath me. i dunno why but they are so nice people and since people in shapwick, where i used to hang out are younger than me i guess age isnt such a bother to me, if people are 3 years younger than me but just as mature and fun to be around then why the hell shouldnt i hang out withe them. i will admitt its nice knowing they look up to you and respect you but we are all on the same level as each other and its good fun! like after the party on staurdya night lucy rang me and asked, since she lives in the village directly next to mine, she rang me and asked if i wanted to go to the car boot sale, it was cool but the car boot sale was totally shitty so w just chilled out and mindlessly walked around with me feeling so sh!tty, not froma hangover coz i never really get hungover,, but from the pure tiredness of not falling asleep till 4 in the morning and being woken up by giggling girls at 5 30!! ah well. hopefully seeing abi next weekend, but she is being a bit slippery and even on my birthday party, she told me she would come to mr smiths and then when i rang her to ak where she was and i eventually got a text saying sorry im at a mates house party cant come! so meh hopefully we will meet up though coz she is really cool but somthings a miss, i guess itsa the same thing thats a miss with sophia, i know they both like(d) me but their personalities mean that they are kinda like a bit of a player and will not do anything unless it is played exactly by their rules i mean, abi never answers her phone, fact so everything has to be done by text or msn or email and its a pain in the ass when its so muche asier to do it by phone, but she, very rarely, but she will ring me, only done it once and women like this sure are annoying and it confuses me as to why they feel like they have to do this....anyway i better go im only blogging because i just got kicked out of a lesson to do an overdue assignment so i best get on with it!
