Mood: emotional
Listening to: the right side of wrong-bon jovi
well to all u uncultured readers out there the right side of wrong is one of the best bon jovi songs ever! well im seeing everyone as usual tomoro i think which hopefully wont be too bad ill just have plenty of fags now!!!yay paycheck! i woke up this mornign and had a good lye in. anyway i really should get to the point of blogging today since i have a lot to say! this is the album i was always listening to when i was near the end of my time i went out with francesca and during the whole 8 months grieving from that! its a damn good album! my depression before made me see it in one light and now i am seeing it in a new light! well what am i trying to say? well things in life depend on your mood. songs are a good demo of this! especially the song by queen too much love will kill you every time! it has about 10 hidden meanings dependng on ur mood! anyway relating this to life.... now the depression has unsettled itself from my life and i can sleep again and i am happy for the first time in a hell of a long time, my views in life are changing, i have spent a lot of my time hoping things will change and when they dont i do get worried about it! but life is about change and enjoying the flow as the change happens so i think its time i wode the wave of change..a good phrase to put to this is "ride on the coach trip of change, get run over by the coach, or get left behind." life is a choice, enjoy change, let the change kill you or refuse to change. i used to let the change kill me but now things are reaching good levels of what can only be described as yin and yang that i can see clearly again and well.... what can i say? life is getting better! im not even gonna be cynical and say "yeah but for how long" but one thing i have learned is well.... francesca was right when she said "all my friends are just my friends, but you have that boy bit before the friend, and that means a llot" now obviously i will say girlfriend instead of boyfriend! but she has such a good point! i have been just choosing really good friends and ruining our friendships in a hope that one of them will be able to fill the girl, as well as the frindship, it started with emily, my oldest and one of my dearest friends and i thought i had it with the second emily but then once i was on the third emily i guess i had to move to to get to another place to get the girl...didnt work so now i think its time the girl bbit was ignored and i'll just ride it out till someone comes along, so we'll see what happens with abi but im gonna take my time and make sure tis worth threatening our friendship for a test of the girlfriend. this is some wisdon i wish i could pass on to the world like francesca tried to pass on to me, but if i tell everyone they will react the same as me, agree with it but not get the knowledge behind it after a long hard struggle for life and happyness, so its somthing that someone must go on a journey to learn.....this is my story, it'll be a good one
