Mood: bored bored bored bored bored..oh yeah BORED
Listening to: everybody pays - mark knopfler
wel life is once again set around going to school and then being bored out of my brains all week long and living for the weekend, nothing really wrong with school when i think about it except the fact that it is not bournemouth and it is not tousands of friends to schoose who to meet upp with, people at bryanston are cool but i dont seem to really 100% get along with any of them but meh this weekend wont be too bad i dont think i might meet up wit3ht the sunday gang btu they seem to be splitting apart with cornflake going off with new people but im not sure i dunno i have lost up to dateness with the sunday gang so gotta meeet up more but this weekend will be a b!tch for meeting up as both mum and dad are busy so i will have to bike in to bournemouth which is cool i can christen my new tyres but i just dont know if this weekend i want to do anything maybe i jsut wanna spend a weekend vegging at home but im not even sure of that geez i dunno what i wanna do i mean everyone from the th gang is busy but surely someone must be free i dunno the smiths people are busy, TH gang is busy, sunay gang, well things seem to be in dischord there and i dont wanan get involved so i might just spend a weekend on my own biking round dorset might see abi but the outlook on that is grim i mean she tells me she is at a mates house night before and doesnt know if she can make it to dorch on sunday so i am not holding out any hope their, well i am bt i know in reality the answer is sorry cant make it! well anyway times arent changing that quickly anymore things have settled into a rut and now at least hayley and francesca are talking to me but i just think that its a kinda falseness oh we used ot be good mates with him so lets keep it going coz they have been "busy" every weekend for ages and everytime i try to "book them" in advance they say they dunno yet so geez i give in some people arew way too hard to understand how their brains work and unfortunatley most of those people are women! well ad an ok day yesterday wasnt the best ever but it was ok just pottered on like i do everyday really! its weird how many people i miss i guess i have been in a bit of a down recently with weekend social life going sh!t and i guess it does affect my life all rest of the term round but i dunno things just seem to be different with everyone the D's at school are all being ok i guess but life everywhere else isnt great and is kinda down but not otu if ya know what i mean its like its all down but nothing is out of reach but i am too down to want to reach for it right now i mean why should i be the one who ALWAYS apsoloutly 100% of the time have to arrange somthing to meet up with hayley and franesca, they invite me to their birthday parties probably out of a feeling of oh whats the word, well out of a feeling of (insert word for feeling like oytu need to because they have known me for ages" kinda feeling duty that kinda stuff like they feel obligued to or w/e i dunno what the word is i hate it when words excape me anyway they always have their birthday parties on a saturday night which i cant go out on coz im working and im usually never allowed out late after work, never quite worked out why but i cant so meh i got a physcis lesson now but will update again maybe later today in my free afternoon!
