Mood: the beginnings of a msile are on my face!
Listening to: computers hum
well i feel ill which is gay since i have as levels starting on monday so grrrr. my leather jacket is now being fixed for 2 weeks wehich sucks so much coz i love that jacket! i got my other one but hmm times are slowly changing and i feel like, for once, im changing with them! many times i have felt left behind and abandoned but hmm im taking an active role in my life and im changin with them, i cant wait to see the sunday gang again coz i havnt seen them for ages and i miss almost all of them. infact thats a lie i miss all of them, wait...hmm yeah i guess i do miss chloe a bit, its weird she's just annoying so much but my life is kinda dull and so i even miss being annoyed by chloe! hmm well i guess that will change after i see everyone again! francesca's off doing her young enterprise competition because she got through to the finalss so good luck with that! talbot heath is another area of my social life, which is well once again dying! only due to exams, we're gonna be meeting up loads int he summer when im not working or off in wales! wales is gonna rock, im gonna finally see snowdonia in anywhere other than a brohure or a geography text book. maybe its just me but the world i feel is opening up to me and my gap year is oging ot be apsoloutly crazy! im gonna go to either africa or Peru and help build a hospital or a school out there. your nto alive unless your out doing somthing so i cant wait to be able to start living my life! life with mates chilling all the time is the good life and i love it but hteres somthing about being off adventuring which just buts a shadow on everything i have strived for inmy friendship groups, that doesnt mean i am going to just abandom them, oh no i love all my friends too much, and yes love is a word i would use for them, most of my close friends i would die to protect. well times slowly change and people change with them but things are slowwly pushing through, like doing a large turd....hard at first but once it starts to come through the rest just flows out and then there is a massive feeling of relief once its out..a rather vulgar, but i feel relevant comparison! well i have had a good time recently and i hope it continues and right now i have nothing to b!tch about, the chemisty staff being pety doesnt even bother me, meh i'll do the detention and just work i guess i could do with some more forced work time! well maybe times really are good right now, maybe they were good all along but i let my arrogance and pride get in the way but hopefully i can stil look back on the bad times and say that i enjoyed mmoments, i have always stressed there is good in everyone, which is why i refuse to believe chloe is a total slag, well im still waiting to see a good side to her but i know its in there and i know she will refuse to show it to me, but i know its int here as her friends see it and so im happy. mel, well mel is a worry but theres nothing i can do and i cannot afford to get stressed and be on anti depressants for my exams so im tryna forget about her telling me she's gonna end her life (again) she's not someone who could go through with it, she just isnt that sort of person, she always tries to put a msile on peoples face so she will be ok. maybe times are changing for the better and i am enjoying these changes now and im suure i will for a while to come yet! im determined to enjoy every moment of bryanston to the fullest.
it was so funny yesterday because i poured a small amount of water over sophies head and she felt the need to throw a whole mug of water in my croth so i embarassed al of my matyes by walking round the school and pointing at my crotch saying "look i pissed myself!!!!" well all the D's are doing ifne too, puxie is smiling, bug is actually not so depressed anymore and Lucy and Jenny are doing fine, but Mia is, well depressed but we can all cheer her up with a big smile and a few playful tickles! i dont like seeing Mia unhappy because she is such a nice girl! well i better actually do some work now or else i may be in even more detentions! so will blog again tomorow or later on today if anything happens...or if my children of bodom CD's finally arrive!
Nadine