diary of a lost soul

amazing time at download i had with lotty made her decide she has completely fallen in love with me, i tell her i dont want to go out with her and suddenly its her telling me she never wants to see me again and we should just end what we have? and she says she feels used... actually cant decide if im angry or sad right now think im just gonna get excessively drunk now, work tomorow is going to be a bitch, i dont even have lotty to cheer me up now. lifes a bitch, it seems like my blogs cant ever be happy for more than a few entries at a time :@(