Mood: i hate school but as soon as i leave school this weekend i will be depressed
Listening to: metallica- hero of the day
in another detention this is affectingmy work so much.... and i may not be able to even post this on the web since the airport is flickering in and out of range of my laptop....oh well i told my tutor of my plan to go to germany and he seemed to think it was a good idea but that may be because he hates me!!! i am still determined to not ruleout leaving the country it will be good for me to get out but the decision hasnt been made as to whether it will be permanent but i will NEED to get out of england if it is just, at least for my gap year. the plan now is oh damnmy teacher will be comnig round in a bit!! damn hang on will type again in a bit. oh i just got given a chocolate bar! how nice of mr locket!! well i am 1/2 waya through HMC and i have got used to always wanting to collapse either asleep or dead! why couldnt i have been suspended....damn it. oh well most of my mates will now shun me for a bit because of my violent outburst but i dont care anymore....i always have a friendd in my music....theone way i can explress myself that noone can take away from me simply because i have music on so many different computers, cd's and cd players that noone can ever remove music from my life. the plan is now to make sure that people dont notice my state of mind. hopefully germany is just around the corner for me, this half term i might go witgh my father if he can get travel insurance which is always a doubt now he is back out of recession.... well the operation gave us 3 years of happyness i guess i hsould be greatful for the time we had....but at the time iwasnt i took it for granted and now it seems some assshole from above ispunishing me, well punish me,not my dad. maybe one day i will get out of this dump and make somthing of my life, if im not dead! well at least i dont owe money anymore! with my debts as high as theyw ere no matter how happy i was i oculd have found myself dead!!! oh well! am gonna go now teachers getting suspicios of hjow much i amtyping and i have only done 2 sentences of my bullet points! will update again later tonigh
DAMN AIRPORT CONNECT grrr i will post this to the internet eventually
