Mood: mixture of happy and sad its weird i kinda switch between the two
Listening to: montsegur - iron maiden
i really really wish me and katie could just be friends and have none of this plagueing us, she has been so great about it but i know inside she is hating being such a good person and it gives me even mroer espect for her and makes her such an amazing person, i mean i do feel connected with her just not as a lover, lol g@y best friend kinda thing! i dunno but she does mean loads to me and i think we have both just got a bit confused about things and well i wanna be there for her coz she is a mate but i dunno what the hell i am supposed to do about it i mean well life is allright but its not great and well as for me and nett, she is very busy right now and i got really paranoid about us and well i wish it could be the sumer again in someways lol it was all so easy but then you always think that about the summmer coz summer is the time when everything is pretty simple usually lol with the few exceptions! i'm kinda alright about not seeing nett on sunday but it still really bugs me its just that i have accepted it and imnot gonna dwell on it coz what good is that gonna do right now? i really miss her and well just gotta hope everything works out and everything is fine! i really really want everybody to be happy, i'm kinda alright but poor katie i just wish there was something i could do but the more i do the worse it will get so i just gotta back off which isnt in my nature when a friend of mine needs help.
anyway on a random happyish note i am gonna fail my physics coursework if i dont get this done so i really should go! i just wish that katie can find happyness nand everyone can be friends again!! except me and the trenddies coz hayley and francesca have just pissed me off so much i dunno y i kept trying tobe their friends i have now officially given up on giving hayley her present she answers the fone and half way through when i tell her about her present she says she's not sure when she is free and i try to get moire out of her and she just hangs up so i cant be asssed anymore and it feels oh so good! anyway on with the physics!!
