diary of a lost soul

Mood: the knife or the gun....
Listening to: wish i could listen to music but i cant even do that im being punished by the school so much

i was told i was almost suspendded and the school only sayss that when they mean it, i am the one who has been assaulted here!! they are playing on the fact that i beat up someone else before and using that to make me look like the bad guy! i have been bitten by a human! and well u have reqad the story no ned to retell it here. friends abandoning me left right and centre, people telling me that if i do one thing out of liine they will suspend me. i cant deal with this. i just cant. maybe after this weekend i will actually be able to smile. bet you a million quid hayley and francesca wont come, last time we were going into bournemouth and they had promised us the night before, but oh guess what, were driving in and i get a text saying "really sorry cant make it in but will see you soon" well im sorry if i take offense to being cancelled on 10 mins before we arrive in the car......
also i have had people make me feel useless, now with my wrist my parents are getting things down from high shelves in supermarkets for me and i am having teachers notn allow me to use the internet, well, if they ban me from theinterent i actually have nothing at school, it is my only connection to my friends and then i will only have one day a week where i meet people i want to meet and not poeple who thinks the shine shines out their ass. as most people do at this school. im feel like i should cry but i cant my head is just filled with depressin, but i know i will see chloe tomorow, dunno how i am gonna survive next weeek on chart....that is gonna be impossible....