diary of a lost soul

Mood: depressed and angry
Listening to: the reason-hoobastank

well sam asks me what is gonnahappen if i cant get down to bournemouth what am i gonna do with john and i told him we will go round to a mates house in blandford and chill listen to music and have a few beers! all sam has to sa is "thats not very fair, making john have a boring time just so you can chill with oyur freaky goth mates" first of all dude!!! its your fault we cant go down unless a miracle is pulled out of the bag and 2nd of all whats wrong with chilling at home with a few beers! argh well anyway i wish he just was outta my life at times like this coz he always finds a way to bug me to no end and generally piss me off just so he can feel superior, little comments like "you dont like anything fun do you?" or "why do oyu wana go there? its sh!t" he always has to knock me off and be the king! if he even does agree to drive us down he's gonna have the shit knocked out of him in the mosh pit! then he will get violent and it will be funny! this is one of the reasons in a way i wont miss him when he leaves bry at the end of this term...also he stole two of my s3x bands and even when i see them on his wrist he claims he bought them, funny! he never has worn them before! i had a system bbrbrbr (dw bout that bit!) and he ruined it, guess this is one of the signs that i may have an obsessive compulsive disorder!!! lol ah well! its not THAT bad just yet! well im gonna go shout out really loud where noone can hear me and scream my face off...or just have a fag! i have almost gone a whole week without one and ihave just been doing nothign for the past two nights except staying awake needing a fag or puking up from the really bad cold turkey its awful i need a fag! well im off for a fag will blog later this evening or tomorow!