Mood: depressed
Listening to: vermillioon - slipknot
well nett didnt come down on sunday because she was feeling ill and stressed, no matter how much i know i shouldnt mind because well it's not as if anyone could put up with me once a week for too long but yaknow i had it all planned out and then she cancells coz se is ill, gets better and says she will come and then doesnt come, its kinda a double whammy which is a total b!tch, anyway i'm really down about it and i just wish that everything could be sorted out and never bothered with anymore i mean not bothered with as far as they all work not to give up on them, i really miss seeing her and i know deep down that this is really special, it's not just physical and it's not just about anything else other than me and her, i have so many issues and she respects and even understands them all and has allready been so patient with me, the big question is has she used up all her patience and given up on us? i really think she is totally special and i wanna be with her for so long it's just crazy. but lifes being a total b!tch which sucks. anyway apart from nett i guess life is going well though i mean school grades are up and stuff but i just really wanna have a holiday. unfortunatley its gonna be plagued with revision and retakes but thats my own stupid fault for not having the intelligence to get decent grades first time round, so i can live with that its just my stupidity has ruined yet another holiday! well i am really really really apsoloutly low about nett but if it is just nothing then i guess it's all cool its just that i wanna be with ehr so much and oh f@ck i am late for a lesson!! will say the rest later tonight
