diary of a lost soul

Mood: ever so deeply depressed
Listening to: vermillion - slipknot

well i have had bad news fromt he police. oli is actually accusing me of being violent towards him and i acte in self defence! that pisses me off so much and ontop of that all my so called mates arent willing to make a statement so there is nothing to get him with. dam well pissed off about that. plus i am not going to be able to see tes for a little longer than i thought so kind of on a downer. wrote another letter to jake in detention today and cant wait to get this festival on the proper straight and narrow it wil be so good! jus remembering i have friends like jake who are actually loyal means so much to me especially when i used to actually consider sam a frriend. such a total idiot i am. so many things in my mind lpagueing me but so little i actually physically write. my hands dont seem to want to open up my mind today so many emotions i need to suppress. good news htough is dads platelet count has increased 30 times its value a few weeks ago so he is now at about 400 when before he was 14! so he's back in the healthy zone which is good. so little to say like i said but i am not going to force it out so may blog when i am more open about my emotions right now