diary of a lost soul

Mood: tiired
Listening to: the hum of computers in the computer room and my head singing 3 wisemen by james blunt :s

well so far school has depressed me coz i no used to being stuck in rules and regulations i guess more than anything ele. quitting smoking is going well but its making me feel quite ill at least for now i know it will get better but right now it is bad btu havnt had one since saturday so am doing well. but on a more personal note i wanna say i feel erally bad because i was gonna take sian out on our first ever like proper proper date but i found out it is the weekend that i go to birmingham university coz we are dropping off my sister and since that is where i will be on sunday i kinda cant go out with sian that day which means that me waiting all this week to see her has been for nothing. ontop of that everyone is ignoringme at school pretty much except tarry sophie and bug. which is good but bad i mean really need to be on my own right now but it is just even more depressing to think that mia and that lot are actuall avoiding me coz they want to lol if i smile at them in the dining room they just blank me or if i sit next to them they leave. so annoying so i have decided to say feck the world i am eventually going to go to bournemoutha nd meet up with everyone and have a wonderful time and in the meantime keep my head down and do my work. so much social time will now be turning into work time i should be top of my class in everything. we have done 2 xc runs so far this term both of them i have won lol coz im the only one putting in any effort at all. meh call me keano or whatever but i just liek the exorcise. anyway im off for a shower sweat keps dripping onto the keypad so im off!