diary of a lost soul

Mar 8, 2005 at 14:04 o\clock

physics

by: stebbo

so depressing still doing physics coursework! well i have officially been completely amazed my alyse yet again, i suddenly realised, i dont know why or how but she is one of the best people in the world. i mean she is still by my side which is just amazing! btw join www.inselkampf.co.uk its reely kool! i dont have much to say but i justw anted to put in an update to say i havnt forgotten my blog! willl post later on!

Mar 7, 2005 at 10:30 o\clock

another average weekend!

by: stebbo

Mood: damned physics coursework....for another time

well i had the usual day on saturday, rubbish basically! i had school in the morning, time in the afternoon where i crash out only to be woken up in a panic 20 minutes before i have to get to work! and when i get home from work, i got invited to sharrons party but its too far away for that time of night according to my mum! well so i saw alyse on sunday, sunday wass not very good coz of mothers day but we still had fun! alyse had to leave really early, infact everyone did except me and mel! we had fun but it was good!
sam is as annoying as i knew he would be now he hass got a car, he has sucha townie attitude towards cars, he need full bass and 50 cent playing! grr and the thing is he is so up himself! i mean all i hear from him is about how much i am gonna love his wheelspins! hmm yeh rite he has a little peugeot 106 (a damn good car in my opinion, not for speed but for efficency and reliaility) prob is its a european car so repairs are expensive but his dad will pay for any of that coz they are rich! the light at the end of the tunnel is when he gets over this amazing fact that he can drive and stop talking about it once he realises people will say wow coz he passed really early but after that they dont give a crap!!! grrr i wish i could have a conversation when he did not mention it it makes me wanna tear my hair out and go really crazy if ya know wot i mean!! well software updater on my laptop wants me torestart my computer...i defy it! hah! lol
well i have a probleem with going out with alyse, i can hardly ever see her! she's this amazing person who grrrr time with her is really precious!
well im off now to finish yet another bit of physics coursework! i never thoguht one subject could pile on so much so quickly! ah well it'll be worse next year! i gotta appreciate how relativly (ha) easy (ha easy!!!!) it is........... will blog when i have time

Mar 4, 2005 at 20:48 o\clock

crap crap crap

by: stebbo

Mood: torn in 2
Listening to: dont tread on me - metallica

well i have been avoiding swearing in this webblog but sometimes i really wanna crawl up and die. i have lost alyse, well i havnt but she doesnt trust me and probably wants me dead i wouldnt be surprised i was a total tit and i dunno what i can do to make it up to her. can you ever make up with a girl who hates you? i dunno, some romantic gesture, oh wait yeh no money. somthing free, simple and will make her smile....is there such a thing? she told me she took me off her list of 5 decent guys so i obviously have gone far beyond her bad books. i need a plan and i dunno what i can do if god exists he must really be a total bully! well on the happier side i have such bad pins n needles in my arms that my hands are numb so i cant feel pain in them!! but i am thinking alyse will forgive me in time, hopefully we can sort our way through this...we'll seeits too early but the outlok is kinda positive

Mar 3, 2005 at 22:30 o\clock

crap

by: stebbo

Mood: stupid stupid me...
Listening to: hero of the day - metallica

well i screwed up big time, i told alyse wot mel told me and now i dunno if n e fink will work out! i shouldnt have even told laysebut i just cant keep secrets from her...... i wish i could tell everyone everything btut hatss just not possible but i wanted to tell her even though it is not an issue for me because i wanted to know more oout of curiosity i guess and once again my curiosity has backfired large scale but she still wont tell me wot was gonna happ[en between her and milky (alex) so i guess im just gnna think nothing happened cozi know she is not like chloe, she wont do n e fink chloe did so i consider myself safe just was curious, well my curiosity ruined it all. we are still going out and we will recover but dunno how long, this weekend i guess will be the indicator

Mar 3, 2005 at 11:42 o\clock

well.....

by: stebbo

Listening to: pink floyd

i have ahd an ok day but i am getting behind n my physics coursework which has to be in mon monday (another piece!!) and i am seeing alyse this weekend. mel scaredd me a bit when she said that alyse and alex were gonna go out at one point but then alex found his current ex (v recent ex) and she might dump me and go for him, ithought about it and i decided, luckily for me with my ex!! that i trust alyse, they going to a small party thing on saturday night and apparantly alex is gonna be there...de ja vu? well i dont think anything will happen! and hey i guess alyse hardly see's me anyway so if she is happy with this guy then i should be happy! if she's happy with me i could never be happier ever ever ever! (except when eating a steak and ale pie or steak and chips ;)

Mar 2, 2005 at 22:56 o\clock

thank u bob!

by: stebbo

o u set me up witgh chloe....not so good! but hey he explained the reason o me in bmth and its quite funny chloe wanted setting up with sum1 and he thort well hu will go out with anyone and i ask if he got n e single mates and i said i didnt care bout loks just needa proove im not a cheating scum! well at least i proved that!!! lol
also he introduced me to the metallica album "black album" it rocks buy ti! well im off for the night will blog again 2moz promise!!!!