Mood: is my lungs full of water? coz im finding it harder to breath
Listening to: chemical brothers-galvanised
well first i want to say somthing in al bhed
vilgehk ramm e lyhd pameaja fryd ec kuehk uh e sayh fro dra vilg ec ajanouha cruidehk yht rydehk sa vun drehgehk lrmua ec y fruna....cra ryc caq fedr yhivy kio.....frah fa fana kuehk uid cinamo dryd sygac ran y cmid!
well what can i say? people hate me, only francesca has been reoteley interested in what is really going on....she even realised how much i neee 2 get away and was willing 2 lend me money but since i cant go away til the summer anyway and i will have money of my own then i turned her down! glad i got a friend like her! no1 else dares even make a friendly gesture.......and this blog is always and io repeat always my honest thoughts....
well people wont make a gesture coz they havnt realised that the blind policy of standing up for oyur mates no matter what is flawed. i wanna just run out on everyone and leave everything behind, i hear that Alyse thinks we will last 2 weeks and thats it! well it seems everyone is not looking for anything long term anymore! wheres the fun in a relationship if u cant even get to an anniversary! love is dead and us gentleman romantics are dying with it! ok i had a bad 6 month period starting with emily Battcock granted, but surely i have paid enough for what i have done? why does the onlslaught continue!? my father is out of recession with no method of treatment remaining except back toi the good old hevay dosage of steroids which is slowly eating away at him, he's now back to his fully arguamentative self, thank u very much steroids!
on the plus side i may never have to deal with this again i need to get a new group of friends as it seems evry1 from talbot heath except francesca may not dislike me, but feels they are too superior for me and all the group i currently hang round with (havnt classsified them with a group name yet!) are slowly gonna just well, do the same as the TH group. oh well times come to leave the country (and push the button!!)
on a happier note i am almost no longer 5 weeks behind in coursework and my life now has a plan and a structure to it....im gonna become an ATCO (air traffic controll officer) and if i get into a superviser position ther i am looking at £100k+ pa, base pay is £20k pa for just being trained! so a lot of money just for being trained! just neeed to get my a-levels! well im gonna go fluysh my head down a toilet or somthing equally as boring....... oh well ssdd (same sh!t different day) except that its been like this 4 about ohh well ever since year 6 so about 6 years of my life has been non stop worry, pain and general depression...shame my webblog didnt start then at least some idiot in the future could make a film or a novel out of my lifes story!!!!