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me and lotty are in a fully stable and happy relationship, the problem being i am at university in bristol...UWE to be exact and im doing ocmputer science, really hard work its been hard geting back into the working frame of mind after a year of bumming around. its weird to think i started this blog 3 years ago and it still feels like a bastion of peace for my mind. well anyway things are really different now, ive never really...properly had a gf where not seeing her was hard, with ali it was similar but not so extreme in feelings as with lotty, i dont wanna say shes the oneincase i jinx it but i am truly happy with her. the distance is such a strain though im past crying myself to sleep and i do jus sit up msot nights mising her unless im out on the piss, which is hardly ever now im skint as ive never been before in my life im scared about running out of food money, i know mum and dad could help me out but how can i expect to lerarn anything about money if i go to them wheni spend all my money on beer as one of my housemates says to me. so yeah that brings me onto my housemates, first of all theres alfie, hes a good bloke, total stoner but his hearts int her ight place, we dont really get along as close mates but theres no complaints about him he seems a decent bloke. the third guy in our house of 6 is toby, hes really cool again but me being me i tend to have problems getting along with guys who dont click with me from day 1 so were again not really close mates but there is definatley the same mutual respect as with alfie, that brings me on to the girls! ill start with sarah because she is the first that comes to mind...where to begin with sarah... she's essentially a good person and i coulod get on really well with her but she does seem to wrap her life in drama since she left her bf, she got with a guy called kyle who fucked her over royally and since thens he has been off with all these random guys fuck knows who half of them are but one time she let the guy she fucked take my seat on the taxi home...was really not impressed it made me so angry so it was me leo and kirsty trying to get home on our own when she said exploicitly she wanted to have a night out with me...fat chance. well anyway yeah she is essentially a really nice person she just needs to...emotionally mature and grow a bit of a thick sin, shes always reallyt sensitive about ebverything especially cleaning, whens hes in a strop she cleans which is cool but she always does it with a chip on her shoulder its like for fuck sake! if your gonna clean clean! if you dont wanna clean dont! anyway apart from that shes lovely and we get on really well eventhough i have reservations about her ability to keep the truth clear and not cloud it to make her seem better or worse off for sympathy. Then theres Hannah, same name as my sister and a totally bonkers girl! really loud and crazy and i love it! common knowledge is that alfie fancies the fuck out of her, he always asks about her if she isnt in and rightly so i say! shes a lovely girl! totally top bird! really down to earth and knows what she wants and does it! no complaints at all! the house is quiet and really placid without her. Finally there is Leo, the dreadlocked leo! shes lovely as well have a lot of not so deep but probably quite dep conversations with her about total crap when we both have better things to be doing like hwil emaking cups of tea we will thens pend a good 10 mins chatting lol! stoner too, but mostly on weekends which is cool! always happy to ofer a joint around so long as people dont take the piss! which it hink is perfectly fair! yeh my hosuemates ive been lucky with! love them all! my course mates are all a total laugh as well! the main ones i hang out with are trevor, met him on facebook before i went to uni and hes really clever! good at helping me with my work but im not using him for that hes an awesome mate and really fun to talk to! then theres chris! he is a bit of a joker but not he sort of joker people find annoying! always up for a laugh and is willing to admitt he might not be a genious but he does work hard and therefore gets results! then theres lottie...not lotty! as i kep spelling her name and probably will end up spelling it in this blog a lot! well shes... touchy... she is very obsessed with her bf who has started uni in swansea and is a virgin christian no sex before marriage person and gets very upset if you talk about sex around her in a ladish way like its not a big deal which is fair play to her...but shes on a course with lads and slips always happen and we joke about sex and she protests in her own small ways to make you feel uncomfortable but still shes awesome fun! doesnt drink much but will have the occasional alcopop or two! a really fun girl! finally there is andy! well what a character he is! has verbal diorrhea worse than me! which is really saying something lol he will do anything for his mates if needs be! there was a strong possibility he would become our mule with him having a car at uni, buthe is highly respected if not ridiculed for his inability to shutup or fix a computer problem without first clicking on about a million things probably making it worse before he sits down and logically thinks about the problem! much to the fury of our tutor julia! and anyone trying to help him to be honest! but hes the one i always invite to the pub purely because the only other close mate from my course on campus doesnt drink and the other two are off campus! but still hes a wicked drunk! really surprisingly ladish! he also has a tendency to tell us the same "funny" stories about 100 times so we know his life really well quite quickly! lol but he is a decent bloke, no hang ups or insecurities, he is what he is, not surprising since hes a (ha!) mature student..well hes 24 so yeah that is my new life! my house is like a 70's council house in that its small, nothing but the basic amenities and everything else is falling apart! but its home and it does feel homey! thats HOMEY not HORNY incase you made the mistake i did just reading the last line after switching between applications! oh well lol! what else to add in? yeh im surprised how much i miss lottys mates, i mean i know without lotty most of them would not really have bothered to get to know me but they have all welcomed me so warmly its quite heart warming! except lottys house mate who goes through periods of putin gup with me and periods of blatantly hating me! although i think i do make her laugh sometimes with my lack of worldlyness! according to her anyway i reckon! but dont quote me on that one! so yeah this is my new life which will go on for 4 years! so this blog may doule in length before i enter the real world once again!
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Jun 6, 2007 at 13:55 o\clock
Mood: feeling guilty about being happy
Listening to: sad statue - soad
well ive just finished taking down the goat pen and boy is that a sweaty job, feels good to do some manual labour for once lol! very manly! i think that its about time for me to stop seeing everyone all the time, stop going down the skatepark, stop trying to spend as much time with lotty as she will allow, which i feel wont be much these days anyway and concentrate on saving money for uni, download and blackpool all in one month is going to kill my credit cards.
decided to go biking with vikki last night, she is cool to work with but boy does she whine about going too fast or too far eugh girls! me and sam should start biking and i agreed to meet him with vikki btu the bugger didnt turn up! grrrr anyway it feels good to be on my bike again but boy does my gooch (sp) hurt! guess im not used to doing that much so soon but the rest of me is fine so its nice to know i havnt lost all of my fitness but i still dont think im the psycho who finishes an xc session a few hours later than everyone else just yet!
one of my mates i caught trying to hang himself yesterday, pure luck that i found him but it really has put a downer on my excessively positive mood. his mum has officially ben declared insane and is now n st annes and ok yeh he is 19 like me but he doesnt have a dad so he has to take over all the responisbilities of the house, which not only can he not afford to do but noone our age should have to deal with all of the debts and bills of their family. i was determined not to cry and i didnt, but it was hard. i really wish he could just get away from it all in a more productive way like a holiday but that would not be good for the debts and bills. if your reading this dude im here for you and i hopew i can give you enough strength to keep going!
seeing ali tonight which is going to be good, everyone keeps saying to me how its blatant i miss her so much and im still in love with her, which i am, completely, just not really longing for her anymore. i guess im happy to love from afar! but it will be good to see her and know she is ok! chinease back at hers then off to watch a film. im the taxi shes the wallet, just like it used to be when i was skint back then.
decided a few days ago that im gonna learn the super art of massage, never know if it will come in handy at uni, either for the seduction of the ladies or just as a source of revenue. more updates on that as they flow in!
right well vikki was gonna come over but shes not here so if she doesnt turn up after morning neighbours imgoing to bike into bournemotuh, no point in wasting away sitting at home on a lvoely day liek this
Jun 5, 2007 at 16:05 o\clock
answer is im not sure yet lets se, just got abck from a lads weekend out in blackpool, what can i say? i pulled a womanwhow as married with 2 kids and played her like a puppet! felt good to know she was married! apart from that there was no other girls but meh i have girls close to me back home so it never bothers me.
lotty did a really stupid thing which angered me to shit, she's pissed off at me so i ring up to find out why all i get is oh your a cunt fuck off and she throws her phone somewhere, forgets to hang up and her and her faltmate and their clsoe mate wiggy were discussing me and how lotty is so much better than me and how much better she can do and wow, every word of it was true. still i cant let that bother me because were going to download together and i cant wait! i think it will be a blast! i cant wait for my first ever download!
me and ali are getting along well and i cant wait to see her again its good that were close mates and its true i do still love her and im happy with the way things turned out so all in all life is on a high! and all the lows ive had are really helping me to appreciate this high! think i may go to the beach later and enjoy some time off work!
May 21, 2007 at 13:38 o\clock
my world hase been turned upside down and then put in a hoover and then the bag has been broken and pieces have been scattered everywhere. is it all bad? no but everything is different now. i got the balls to break it off with ali, we had an amazing relationship but we did nothing but argue, now were staying mates and for once in my life were on good terms a week after break up day, one week tomorow i will have been single and boy has it been weird, when i go out im actually checking girls out and enjoying not having the guilt attached if i check out a fit girl. i love ali to bits i really do but things were driving us insane and i saw her on friday after the break up and things were good we really will be good friends but was sleeping with her that day a mistake? fucking amazing sex it was really emotionally driven and i dont wanna become fuck buddies but once every now and then i were both single surely cant harm anyone right?
me and lotty are really close now i share everything with her and she's been a realy good friend through everything giving me good advice which has helped me massively, i do love spending time with her and im glad its not awkward or anything but i know her flatmates despises me and she seems constantly grumpy with me so im just gonna not bother with her and ignore her, she has way too much of an obsession, like other people i know and now ignore, with drama, its like she feeds off it.
but apart from that francesca spoke to me on msn accusing me of giving her number to a girl called jenny...wtf? and so i asked her laods of quyestions, which she didnt reply to, after about 20 messages on msn i got pissed off and blocked her sending her a strongly worded email basically saying how she has changed and shows me no respect since she can no longer gain anything from me she isnt gonna bother with me, she just said i obviously jhadnt grown up like she thought i had, like she thought i had, she knows shit about me and she is makign assumptions about how i live my life? growing up is for boring people as lotty has really taught me it just really pisses me off how she always acts as a distant superior person and not someone who is on the same level as me like it used to be, chatting to sam in the car on the way home he agreed with me but i suspect he doesnt beleive it as much as i do since their 2 familiies are really close friends and so he probably still sees her at family gatherings, where heprobably agrees im an immature cunt who he isnt mates with or not as good mates as we used to be or some bollocks like that.
so yeah life is different and im glad for it because things seem to be running smoothly, i dont feel bad if i want to just have a day to myself anymore because it may be the only time in 3 weeks ali can see me so i feel a lot less stressed than when i was going out with her but it does make things feel strange after we were together for exactly 15 months which is quite a scary length of time for me to be able to keep a girlfriend for! anyway thats all i have to sya for now thanks for reading, and yes i know this is the first time i have ever acknowledged anyone who reads my blog but i just felt like thanking you guys for taking an interest in my life, whether your a friend catching up on my news or just an internet randomer! thanks
Apr 15, 2007 at 10:25 o\clock
we've all seen it, cruising around forums and abouta milion people have the phrase "you laugh because im different, i laugh because your all the same"
is this phrase now so overly used that it is, infact everyone being the same? STOP USING THAT PHRASES ITS ANNOYING
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Emacs the Elephant
Emacs the Elephant hacked her source and said goodbye to the DrOsS box Off she went with a binary dump Dump, Dump, Dump Emacs the Elephant hacked her source and headed back to her UNIX Room enough for a binary dump Dump, Dump, Dump The head of G-NU was Stallman far, far away By night they met on the Internet with no need for overlays So Emacs the Elephant hacked her source and said goodbye to the DrOsS world Off she went for a binary dump Dump, Dump, Dump.