Crystal's Trials and Tribulations

Mood: grrrr

Mood: so happy!
Listening to: the music in my heart

YAY!!  Everything turned out to be okay after all... when Jason got home last night, we talked, and I reassured him that everything will be fine, then my dad called and told me that he knew that Jason would not be going anywhere, and things should be fine...I don't know if dad had anything to do with that one or not - but I'm glad my daddy works at the same place Jason does so he can keep me informed on these things!  (I'm a daddy's girl).  Then, this morning, I was a little worried that he would like, not show up or something, or not be 'cleaned' up...I guess I was just expecting something to go wrong...but sure enough!!  He was actually there early, and the small, short ceremony went great.  Nice and easy, just like we wanted it.  My mom's best friend and her mother showed up- they're just like family, a little late..but that's cool.  Then, we went and turned in our marriage certificate, and now we're totally set- now all i have to do is change over all my name stuff...Oh, and I got the insurance all sorted out!  I'm totally hooked up!  Well, I just wanted to let you know!!!  Thanks shellz, for all your support and prayers!

Crystal

Mood: scared
Listening to: how sweet it is-

So, Elane and I are sitting here very very bored- just talkin away... wish we had some traffic, like maybe a car deal would be nice.  The only phone calls we have gotten are telemarketers.  My mom and dad brought us some lunch, cuz niether one of us can leave.  Sonic rocks.  Still getting married Friday...at 10 am.. we got our marriage license yesterday, and Jason has started moving his stuff in.  Fun fun...I hate moving!  ANyways- gonna try to get that all taken care of this weekend.  Well- talk to u all later

Mood: stressed
Listening to: jason playing guitar in his new guitar room

So, meeting Jason's sister was not bad at all...she was really nice, and her husband was really funny- so they were easy to get along with...in fact, I invited them to Thanksgiving dinner at my parent's house with Jason and I...which was worried that my wouldn't go for that deal, but she was totally okay with it!  The more the merrier!

I got my ring this weekend!  That was the highlight!  And we have picked Jason's out pretty much, just have to go get it tomorrow.  I got to wear my ring yesterday and today, but then when my mom saw it- she was like, "aren't you supposed to wait till friday for that?!"  giggles*  so Jason made me take it off. :(  but it was real sweet- in the jewelry shop- he put it on my finger, my hand was shaking and I almost cried it was sooo sweet- then we kissed... aawww-- brings tears to my eyes right now! I'm soooo happy!  For the first time in my life- everything is perfect. :)

OK- so, the concert- totally sucked!!!!!!!!  Ugh- we got there at opening time, around 11ish...and had to walk like 5 miles to the entrance from where we parked...then it was a little cool, so we bought Jason an Audiolab hoody (very trendy), and found our seats.  The only cool band we heard was Yellowcard- they were good, and some other bogus ones- then we got soooo freakin cold that we decided it wasn't worth it to stay, and we hiked back to the car, then went back to the ring shopping (that was before we found the one i wanted).

The rest of the trip consisted of shopping at the mall or guitar store, and visiting with his sis n bro-in-law.  Today when we got back, we started putting his guitar room together, the rest of the house will be the hard part, and then had dinner with my parent's and little sister so that Jason could properly ask for their blessings.  Which of course- my dad gave him the whole "no one is good enough for my baby girl, but i guess you'll do if u stick around" speach- and my mom had to reassure Jason that he was kidding! LOL!  I was like- DAD!  anyways- it's all good, they're happy for me, and Jason's parents and family seem cool with it too, so I think this is the beginning of a beautiful thing.

The only issue I have come accross is the Jan chick tried calling him this weekend, and while my brother was having his 21st bday party at my parent's house, some girls stopped to look for Jason cuz they saw my car there...not sure who they were- but we think it was Jan's little high school friend Juanita... both of which- better just stay away from me...I asked Jason if he had told Jan about us gettin married and he said no, so i asked if he was gonna do it before or after we do, and he shrugged his shoulders- and admitted that she'll freak out and try to talk him out of it.... but he said for me not to worry and joked that we bought a guitar corner rack today...that it's a done deal...*grins*  it better be!!!  Everyone knows about it now!  Anyways- i'm probably just worrying about nothing....but I'm sure she has heard from someone and that was them looking for jason. 

We have to go to the county clerks' office tomorrow and get our marriage license :)  Then got a long week or work/moving to do.  This weekend we want to go to Fright Fest at Frontier City (a theme park in OKC) with my parent's and little sister.  So fun- I got these little devil horns that are actually barrets, they look real!  lol! 

Tune in again tomorrow for more info

Mood: happy happy joy joy!
Listening to: nothin

Mood: happy but tired!

YAY!!!  Nedw hairdo pic is posted...it's not the greatest..but ---> look!

Just in case u can't tell cuz it's too dark and blurry...u see the pieces that frame my face...then there's more layers under that that are darker and flip out...so trendy!!  Kinda like a old school Jennifer Anniston cut..only- trendified! LOL!

Jason really liked it-- I look so dramatic and sexy with dark hair...but everyone says blonde fits my personality more...so I do blonde in the summer and dark in the winter :)

ok- so i may be being silly right now- I'm just soooo bored at work-- and got NO sleep the past two nights...I tossed and turned *yawn*  Me and Josh are gonna play cards, then might hook his DVD player up in a bit lol

OMG!!  I got a new hairdo...I will try to take some pics tomorrow so that I can show you all how fabulous I look now!  You will all be soooo shocked!  Unfortunately for u all...I am taken! LOL!!   jk-- I can't wait to show Jason when he comes home for dinner tonight! 

Everything is planned for our trip to Dallas this weekend...soo excited about that! :)  I get to meet Jasons sister and brother-in-law...I'm a little...ok- ALOT nervous, but I'm suer we'll get along fine. We are going to go to an evening church service with them Saturday, that should be interesting...haven't gone to church in a while...especially not one that has lots of people our age!  Should be fun.

I checked with the county clerk office this morning- turns out it's gonna be easier than I thought to get married!  All we need is our Driver's Licenses, his proof of divorce (uh yeh cuz he was married before) and...that's about it- my coworker is a certified minister, so he can marry us :)  for free! yay!!!  OK- well, i think this is happening next week sometime...I'll keep you all posted!

Mood: much better
Listening to: jamey, chris, and elane talking in the other room

yay!!!! I'm so excited that Jason is back!  Un fortunately, he may have to go again and someday we might move to San Antonio- but we'll evaluate that situation when it happens..for now, it was great to have him back in my arms!  (I left work earlier for a bit to go see him) and I could tell he missed me ;)

So- the weirdest thing happened last night...I don't know if you are all aware, but the yahoo messenger has started this whole "circle of friends" thing called ringo..i think something to do with the yahoo 360 thingy.. and I had sent my info to everyone on my list (i'm such a junky, i leave everyone's name on my list once its added) and one of my very first chat friends who lived in New Jersey, that i met once in Austin, sent me a reply and we sent a couple emails back and forth- it was soo good to hear he is doing good- he got married!  I was so happy for him.  I told him about me and Jason getting married.  Oh, and get this- he lives in San Antonio now!!! hahahaha!  OMG- i was completely buggin!  lol! :)  So- anyways- we'll probably keep in touch now for sure.  Shoot- at least we'll have friends if we move to San Antonio haha!

In other news- I have a car deal working.. yay!  Maybe I'll actually get a car out this month!?  Also, went to my doc appt tomorrow- my incision was not quite healed up enough so they put some more tape stuff on it to keep it closed and I'm supposed to go back next week sometime...I think I'll have to reschedule my appt though- I forgot abuot me and jason going to dallas for our 'sorta honeymoon' next weekend!  *giggles*

ok- gonna go back to work now- actually, think i'm gonna go eat lunch..i'm famished!

Mood: excited

Ok everyone...I picked the dress I want!  (over here on the sidebar ---> )

isn't it beautiful?  Of course it will be white and not pink! :) 

Mood: missing jason
Listening to: nothing

Still totally missing Jason, but I talked to him over the phone off and on for about 5 hours today I think  LOL!  We had a long talk about getting marrie, and about our trip to dallas next weekend for the concert, and about all sorts of stuff!  He is soooo perfect for me!  *sigh* It's funny, when we met- he told me that he felt like a schoolboy..and like his first crush all over again....and now- I feel the same way!  I think about him all the time, and want to be with him every second of the day/night.  He had asked me a couple weeks ago- why I liked him...and i couldn't explain it...but now?  Haha-- he asked me the other day how I know that i love him...and I could answer so easily.... It's cuz I love how i feel with him, i feel safe and warm and tingly, and we get along great= even when we argue, i appreciate the view that he's coming from!  (of course i dont' let him know that! haha!) and most importantly, that he's my best friend.  If I were to be alone with any one person in the world, it would be him-- OMG- that makes me teary eyed just typing it!!!  YAY!!!  For those of you who have read my blogs since i started... the rocky path with "cupcake" was just a tip of all the bullshit I've been through in my life- and my rocky path with "guys" in general.  With Jason, now, I don't ever want to have an experience like that again, and I don't think I will! :)  Thank goodness!  For the first time, everything is going so well!  I prayed for God to send me someone...I'm at that point in my life..I dont' want to be alone anymore!  I think he has answered that by sending me Jason :)  My parents are cool with me getting married to Jason, and my little sis thinks it's the coolest thing since Bratz dolls came along...lol...and my brother kinda likes him *shock* cuz they both have bikes, and they can go ride sometime. *chuckles*    To make a comparison, I would say- that if my life were a book (which who knows, maybe it will be in hardback form someday- or a soap opera) this would be the end of one book, and the beginning of another.  Hopefully, it will be even more exciting- but in good ways, that normal people should have.    :) 

Oh- but still no more car sales...going to try to make an appointment with the ENT on Monday, I can't hear shit!  My hearing has gotten so much worse in the past couple weeks- every time I get put under anastetic it seems to get worse. :(  I need new hearing aids too (bogus!) and my family and I are celebrating my birthday tomorrow since I have to go to OKC on my birthday (Monday).  That's about all the latest news there... keep ya posted! 

Mood: tired
Listening to: redneck woman

Mood: bummed
Listening to: breath

Ok, so I wasn't expecting a call from Jason until tomorrow at the earliest...but to my suprise, he tried to call today!  But wouldn't you guess- with all my stupid luck, I'm in wal-mart, leave my phone in my mom's purse, and i leave for five minutes to admire the ring that i want for my birthday, and my mom didn't answer it-- so i missed my baby's call!!!!!  AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!  so pissed...so i call the number back, finally get through to the operator, who conects me with his room- and i get a voicemail that says he is unavailable...grrr.  (he was probably on the phone with his mom or if he has a roomy, he was on the phone).  *sigh*  i think i might try again soon... but I'm waiting to see if he tries again... cuz he might have gone out with the guys or something.  Other than that-- the day was long and slow... still no traffic, still no car deals... sucks-- this is the worst month ever at my lot!!!!  But at least the other boss knows it's not just me, cyz he couldn't sell anything while I was gone either. *grins*  In other news... there is this awesome concert in Dallas on the 23rd that i'm thinkin about suprising jason with tickets to when he gets back...Audioslave, Seether, people like that... sounds awesome!  He likes all these people more than I do-- but I'm getting used to it :)  ahhh-- the wonders of compromise!  lol

well-- i'll keep ya posted on the jason phone calls!

Mood: lonely
Listening to: 3 doors down

So, everything went well with my hand surgery....i knew it would.  Jason has been doing a great job of taking care of me, yet not spoiling me rotten :)  bummer.  lol!  i freaked out a little bit just before we walked into the hospital- but mostly that was cuz jason got mad at me for turning the radio up instead of giving him directions (my bad). *giggles*

The nurses let him come in and talk to be both before and after my surgery...and he kept my parents informed...so it was cool, and i think that got him some brownie points too.  ;)

The repo guy from work sent me flowers...i'm sure jason wasn't thrilled about that- but him being there for me- was a much better gift :)  I came to a realisation through this experience, one that i was hoping for-- and that is that i love jason, and we're gonna get married and spend forever together... the end :)

Mood: a little scared, a little anxious
Listening to: nothin

For those of you that don't know- I am having surgery on my hand tomorrow.  Nothing major, I broke my pinky bone in my hand last december when i tripped and smacked it on the wall...had to have a metal plate put in to straighten it and help it heal, and now I have to have it taken back out.  They recommend the plate is taken back out if you are under 26 (which i am) if not, the pins can rub through the bone, making it brittle and eventually snapping into an unrepairable fate! yikes!  Soooo...this is all going down tomorrow- prayers will be helpful here guys! :)   Thanks!  Oh, and remember, this is the ultimate test, my parents can't go cuz they have to work, so Jason is taking me... I'm excited about that part.  If everything goes well, I will know that he is the one for me for sure!  I was joking with my mom, and told her that I will leave my cell phone with Jason so he can call and give them updates..she was like, if he doesn't call- he might as well not come back.  *giggles* she's so synical- but of course he'll call.  That's my baby!  I know he'll take care of me.  Shoot- he offered to take me to the dentist to have a filling on like the second day i met him, and we were just gettin to know each other then- but he acted like it was a major dissapointment that he didn't get to take me (already had plans for mom to take me).  Anyways- so if u notice a slowing down in my logs... that's why- i'll try to type one-handed after a day or so, but i'll be pretty doped up! :)  yay!

have a fun weekend everyone! 

Mood: anxious
Listening to: third eye blind

I guess that title could be taken two different ways, huh?!  But the day I was referring to is my surgery date...yep- Friday is very close, the day after tomorrow!  EEEKKS!  OK- so, the thing that makes this so exciting is that Jason will be with me the whole time :)  This will be my final deciding factor, if he takes care of me, and handles this well- I will know that Jason is definately the man for me!  *Hehehe--I told my mom I would give Jason my phone so he could call periodically and check in and let them know how things are going...she was like, if he doesn't call, tell him he better not come back. lol  she's so silly= of course he'll call! Anyways- mentioned today to my mom that if Jason and I were married, I'd have great benefits like my parent's do- she didn't even flinch and was like, "yeh, u sure would!"  I was like- ok, waiting for comment...but none came!  I was like- cool!!!  I think my mom knows that I really like Jason and that we might get married soon.  How cool- I was tellin Shellz...I catch myself thinkin about me and him, and saying things like "we" and "our" alot now...wow!  CRAZY! :)  But I like it- I don't want to be lonely.  I told Jason that after he gets done paying his down payment on the car i sold him (which is quite a lot) that he has to buy me a ring so we can get married, we get our own place, and then he can fix up my mustang...giggles*  I told him they had to be done in that order of importance.. he was like "listen to you!"  :)  he liked though- i could tell in his smile and the glow in his big blue eyes.  *sigh*  I want to meet his parents in person though...and i would like to meet them BEFORE we get married.  I think that would be proper.  And I've thought about it- and I want a small wedding, nothing extravagant... Maybe in the park, under the gazhebo.  March/April time.  I want my closest friends there- don't have too many of those, so shouldn't be too hard, and my coworkers maybe...and of course both of our families.  Other than that- i'm cool.  My bridesmaid dresses are gonna be pink! :) Ok, I'm gonna keep dreaming about this later... he'll be home soon and he'll be all cold from workin out in the rain tonight...that means lots of cuddle time! yay!!!!

OMG!!!  Did you guys see??  I have had over 1,000 visitors!  Yay me!!!

Mood: confused, and a little stressed
Listening to: try again- aliyah

This has been a rather uneventful weekend, unlike last weekend's change of events!  Last night, I went and hung out at my parent's house while Jason was at work, then when he got home (and after he got done at Denny's *rolling my eyes*) we talked on the phone for a while about the whole "moving in" thing... I'm not quite sure what to think about that still, or what's going to happen.  I understand his not wanting to move in here now, and I understand that he wants to be married before he moves in with me (but in our own house of choice that is), but he says he wants to be married and wants to move in with me...sooooo... when's he gonna ask me?!  I dunno- it's stupid, good things don't happen to me anyways.  It's all a big fantasy or something.  I think the main reason why I even consider getting married is cuz I'm getting old, and feel like I'm running out of time- what if Jason is the only guy that I ever get this close to?  What if I lose him and NEVER get married??  What if he is the perfect guy for me???  What happens if i say or do the wrong thing and mess it all up????  UUGHHHH!!  It's soooo confusing.  I know it sounds stupid, but I wish Cupcake was still around...he might be able to give me some advice on this- being the sappy soul that he is *grins*  he always said if i needed advice on this stuff he'd want me to ask him...yeh, well- now he's no where to be found *sigh*  so, cupcake- if you are reading this- call me!  or email me, or something.  I'll be in OKC tomorrow!  That's some good news, I'm gonna go to the doctor and have my hand checked out, and then go to lunch with Jackie and maybe to the mall or something.  Jason was going to go, but he doesn't want to miss any work cuz he's trying to get to go on this TDY (temporary duty assignment) this coming weekend, which might end up lasting a week- if not, he'll have fri-mon off work!  That would be cool!! I could take a vacation day and we could spend some time together.  I know it sounds like we already spend too much time together, but it's like- i want to spend every extra minute in my day with him.  Sounds silly huh?  If he does go on this TDY though, maybe he have some time to realize how much he would miss me, and then maybe he'll really propose to me! :)  *giggles*  Well, I'm gonna go watch some sappy movies and stuff- cuz he's taking a nap.... someone once told me "People who spend too much time sleeping, are missed alot"  I didn't get it at first, but I understand it now!  Hope you are all having a fabulous weekend!

Mood: tired
Listening to: josh talking

When I woke up this morning, I had a missed call from my parents on my phone from like midnight last night.  I called them back this morning and got no answer- I drove by their house on my way to work this morning and saw that my dad's truck had been hit on the front passenger side!  The truck was at an angle in it's usual parking spot (pretty much up in the yard- facing the street).  During my saturday morning meeting, my mom called me back and told me that last night about 1am, someone had drove up onto the curb and slammed into the truck and took off!  OMG!  The neighbors across the street were out partyin and saw the whole thing and called the cops for them and got my parent's to tell them what happened!  (that was way cool of them). They gave the cops a description of the car, which turned out to be a white dodge intrepid, and they found the car at a local restaraunt a few minutes later.  It was all jacked up too!  They found an empty liquor bottle in the front seat...I doubt the people had insurance, but my parent's have full coverage of course, cuz it's a 2003 Chevy Silverado (that i sold them when i worked at a chevy store in OKC).  Looks like it's gonna be totalled though- sucks, but kinda a good thing too.  They didn't have GAP insurance though- so I HOPE they have enough equity in the truck to come out ahead in this all. *crossing my fingers* even though I'd LOVE to tell them "I told you so" on the gap thing.  *giggles* 

Had ANOTHER talk with dad and Jason about the whole moving in thing- the buying the house option is OUT, cuz dad wants $30 g's...hahaha- and I'm so smarter than that (not worth that much, especially for me to buy) and Jason wants to move into a bigger, nicer house-- which I think is stupid and pointless, cus usually my parent's are aweseome landlords and will work with us as much as they can.  *sigh*  Plus I have mice in my house, which they're fixin to get trapped this weekend (we're goin to the store tonight...decon didn't work on these smart little fuckers) and I'm gonna go through the spare room and try to get everything cleaned up so we'll have room to move Jason in, or make my entertainment room- whichever works.  Well- gotta get back to work now- i'll keep you all posted!

Mood: confused
Listening to: the thunder/ lightening outside

well.. I'm facing some hard decisions in my life right now- torn between helping my parent's and apparently my boyfriend's happiness.  Is it always going to be like this?  This sucks!

Here's the deal... I rent my house from parents, because it belonged to my grandpa, and he died a year and a half ago and they bought the house out of the estate.  I moved in about a year ago, in order to help them pay for it, in hopes to owning it outright in a couple years, after it's paid off and my parent's get a little profit on it for a while.  The other part of the deal is that I pay for the insurance on the house- which they sprung on me last month at a whopping $498.00! grrr...that hurts- payin it out, but it still hurts.

So anyways- when me and Jason started getting serious the first time, my parents suggested that he move in.  Which i later found out was for their financial benefit, cuz my mom quit her job at the church and they would like the extra money.  Well, then me and Jason broke it off for a while there, and that thought went out the window- well NOW we've been talking about it again.  Unfortunately, my dad cornered me today- and wants to know by the end of next week if he is moving in or not, cuz they need the money- and if he doesn't move in- they are going to have to sell the house!!! :(   Jason wants me to just move into his house cuz it will be cheaper-- but I don't want to move, this house has sentimental value- and I'm comforatable in it.  It's been the nicest house that i've lived in (since being on my own and all), and until me and him get married- I don't see the point in moving into a smaller house for the cheaper rent, when we can both afford the rent my parent's are asking of us!!!!  DUH!  I think Jason wants to be in control of this situation though- and it's hard for him to not be in control, there fore he's procrastinating...and it's pissing my parent's off- and frustrating the hell out of me!!!!  I'm like- what are you waiting for?!  Anways- I tried to talk to him about it tonight- and I know he can sense how much it's pissin me off, but he just rolled over and went to sleep.  I even tried waking him up (cuz i don't think he was really asleep so fast) but he didn't awaken.

So here's the question:   do I try to get a loan and buy the house from my parents?  (keep in mind I have the most terrible credit cuz of college- those were rough days)...or do I hold out a little longer and hope that Jason gives in and moves in (which I thought he was doing anyway!) or do I just give up and I guess find somewhere else to live- maybe with Jason, maybe without?  I probably can't afford the 'without' option though...things are tight in the fall months until tax season at the car lot.  What do you guys think?