Sally's Blog

Mood: tired
Listening to: country

My sister, Sarah is going to be graduating on Friday. It is kinda hard to believe that now there will only be one of the three of us left here, Sarah will be moving out on her birthday in August and I will be headed back to college a little after that and it will only be Sadie here and even she will be graduating in 3 years! Anyways Sarah just went to get her senior pics taken last weeek, she couldn't get in with a photographer until now but it worked out really well. I just got mine from the school photographer and they werent very good but hers are awesome. The photographer gave us a DVD that was a slideshow of all her best proofs so we are going to wait to order them since everyone will be over for graduation we will just show that and they can pick what they want. I copied osome of the pics from the DVD on to my computer, there were almost 40 proofs but these are my favorites:

This is not the best one but the scenery is really good in this one.

I'm so jealous, she apperently got all the pretty genes lol. This is the one that all her guy friends liked best, I like it too.

I think the sepia tone thing makes this one look good, there was a color version too but this one looks better.

I think she looks like a model in this one.

I think this is the best one out of them all. She said this was on someones private dock by the river and they had to sneak over there to get the pic, but it was worth it.

I like the barefeet in this one

I think she looks very classic in this one.

She doesn't like this one b/c her sash is hanging between her legs but I think it is pretty

She likes this one better than the other in this location, I like it too but not as much.

 

 

 

 

Mood: wierd
Listening to: "don't ask me how I know".....a really good song

I haven't written in here in a while but I thought I would add some stuff tonight. I really have a lot I wanna write about so either this is going to be long and random or most likely I will get bored of it.

I am back home now, I got back Thursday night and it was really good to see my family and my pets, it really kinda hit me though this time that my rats are dead, I miss them so much. I went in my sisters room (my room really but she moved in there when I left) to say hi to them and I had totally forgotten that they were gone. It was so sad to see the table in the corner where their cage was completly empty. When my sister was painting that room after I left my parents moved my rats in with them temporarily next to the birds and while they were there one of the birds learned the squeaking sound the wheel used to make when they ran on it and now when he makes that sound it takes me a while to realize it is him and not my rats. It is kinda wierd, I know, that I am so upset over a couple of rodents but I really loved them.  And now I am afraid my wolf mix dog is dying. She is epileptic and she has been having grand mal (sp?)  seizures since she was pretty young (she is about 5 now). The seizures at first only came about twice a year and then it moved one or two every couple of months and it stayed that way for several years, but since I got home she ha been having between three and five a day. The poor thing is so exhausted she can barley walk so we took her to the vet over the weekend and he told us that they are being triggered by either a kidney infection or some kind of problem with her uterus. The problem is the kidney tests only showed a slight indication that there might be a poblem and he can't tell for sure what the problem is without opperating and he can't opperate when she is seizing this much. So he gave us some kidney medication so hopefully that will work and when/if she gets over all of this we are going to take her in to have her uterus removed so hopefully she will get better soon, I don't want to lose another pet! So I am sitting in here with her now until she falls asleep. We have padded the corners of things so she won't get hurt from the seizures or falling since she is having trouble walking, an we have covered the floor in old towels because every time she has a seizure she loses control of ALL her functions including her bladder and her bowels so that is a mess and she is filthy but we can't bathe her until she can stand up fopr longer than a few seconds. So it is all REALLY unpleasant for her and for us.

Hmm....what else.....my dad is out of town on business this week (which I hate b/c they are taking advantage of him but thats another story) so he gave me instructions on how to do all the pool up keep stuff. So tonight when I went to go shut off the filter and the Polaris I just stayed out there for hours. Everyone was asleep and it was all dark and quiet out there. I climbed a tree that I used to go up all the time when I was younger, it seemed way taller then but somehow it was way harder for me to get up now lol, once I got up I just sat there and cried. There is no real reason that I cried just a bunch of little ones. I thought about when I was little all the fun I had in my yard and all the people who were with me then but are gone now for anything from death to just people that I lost contact with. I thought about how I thought things would be and how they are, some are better, most aren't. I thought about my dog and all my pets that are already gone. All that thinking made me think about what the 10 yr old me would think about this me, it is like 2 totally different people I think I would have been disgusted to see what I am if I could have whaen I was younger.  After all that I just went and laued by the pool with my labroadors and I prayed, I don't really pray very much but I just layed there and I REALLY prayed. I am not even sure where I stand on the whole god thing but I figure if he is there I should at least try to find him., or me or whoever I find in the process. Then I just layed there.  I was looking at the moon and wondering if there is someone out there for me and where/who he is.  I also wondered why I was sitting there feeling sorry for myself when I should be thankful, I mean it is hard to feel sorry for a girl who is living in a nice, safe neighborhood and whose happy, loving family is still all together and, and has a car and is in the process of getting a college  education. But still I was sitting there in my huge backyard by my inground pool feeling bad for myself? What will be good enough?  I dunno anyway I am getting bored lol and it is late, so goodnight.

Mood: depressed
Listening to: evanesence

I woke up this morning with a terrible hedache which has still not gone away and on top of that I was freezing, I must have hit the snooze 4 times not because I was tired mostly just because I didnt want to leave the blanket. Finaly I got up and they must have had the thermastat set in the 50s as usual and I look outside and it is all rainy and like 40 degrees, I wanna know where May went lol, I heard Amarillo got like 3 inches of snow! Anyway so I am sure the weather contributed to my mood and headache but I went to my first couple of classes which went okay since it was the last time for Tues. Thurs. classes it was mostly final review stuff, but then I got to my car and went to shut the dorr and the latch broke so I am driving with one hand and holding the door shut with the other so now it is just sitting in the parking lot open for whoever wants to take it, which would be fine exept I don't think my insurance covers that otherwise I'd be more than happy to let someone steal it lol. Then I had to go to this end of the semester convocation thing with the school president and a lot of other important people and my professor had said what I took to be "it is at 2:10" but he meant 210 as in room 210 and it was at the same time as class always (1:00) is which totally makes sense in hindsight since rm210 is always where those things are, but my dumbass shows up at 2:00 as everyone is leaving and I walk in and the president just laughed and said "oops" it was so embarassing especially since like half my classmates thought it would be nescisary to point out that it was over lol. Also today was possibly the last chance that I would ever get to see this guy I really like because he might not be comming back next semester but he wasn't where he normally is by the time I got done explaining why I was late to the dean at the convocation! Oh well though my friend sorta has a thing for him too and she said it first so it would be kinda wrong for me to try to get him, but he is a great guy I at least want to be friends with him but I dont think I have his # ( I used to but I lost it) so i was gonna get it and give him mine so we could hang out even if he doesn't come back next semester but guess not now. I just really hope he comes back. Then I was trying to figure my expenses for all the stuff I need for the end of the semester like storage and stuff like that and it comes out to be way more than I have not to mention I need to get my car door fixed now since I have an 8 hour drive home, that or I will have to go gehtto and duct tape it shut lol, I really hope it doesn't come to that! I also was trying to get tthis mirror I had hung on my closet down since i am kinda starting to pack up and it was really stuck good so when I finally got it off I lost my grip on it and it shattered all over the place and it was really big so that was no fun cleaning...not to mention that has to be all kinds of bad luck to break a mirror that big lol.

I know all that doesnt seem so bad but I have been really stressed with finals starting this week and all and Ive been kinda depressed, especially today so with that and all the little things it is just kinda overwhelming. I was taking a shower earlier and all the sudden I just started sobbing for no real reason. I dunno i guess I just need to make it through this week and next and then I can go home and relax.

Mood: bored
Listening to: evanesence

Yesterday was my birthday. I am now in my last teen year, I can't believe I am 19. It was kinda boring, I don't really like people to make a big deal over me though so I only told a couple of people. All I did was go over to a friends house for pizza, beer and a movie. But it wasn't too bad. We watched fight club, I had never seen it but it was funnier than I thought it would be, it was a pretty good movie.

I had to be at this car wash/ bake sale at 8 am today for my, it was really cold so I left the car wash part up to other people and I manned the bake sale table lol. It was to benifit the Cancer Society. We acctually did really well, it was supposed to go until 3pm and whatever was left was going to go to the BBQ that we are having tomorrow but we sold out by noon and we had a ton of stuff too so that was great. I was glad to get outta there early, I was freezing and I wasn't even all wet from washing cars so I can't imagine what those guys musta felt like.