Career Mumblings
Mood: Surged Emotions
Listening to: Calls of Agents Asking For Breaks
I'm swirling in the thought that I am on my restday. But, as I wallow in the idea of lounging in my bed and listening to the music which soothes me at that moment with the wind blowing in my face amidst the cancer causing smoke filled room, I hear a certain familiar sound...
"RJ... RJ... RJ PS! Question..." What the...! I'm at work? Yeah! Shit! I'm at work... again. Sadly. Isn't it a wonder how reality would creep up on you and burst your bubble just like that? Hmmm... Let me see what wanted to do for the past few days now. A list of unfinished business. Wanted to get a facial. Nah! Broke. Wanted to watch a movie. Nah! No date. Broke. Wanted to return bottle cases. Nah! I'm missing four bottles. Wanted to have a cup of coffee. Nah! Broke. Wanted to go on rest day. Nah. Can't. Have to work. Broke. Wanted to fix computer. Nah. Broke. Wanted to pay cable tv dues. Nah. Broke. Wait a goddamn mother fucking minute here!!! I'm seeing a pattern here! Damn! I'm broke. Hahaha! Aren't we all. Why does everything related to frustration related to money? Beats me. I'm burning my ass off here working. Just an afterthought in this call center. We are all just pawns here in this forsaken place. Dispensable money crunchers doing all the dirty work and not getting the paid for it.
I'm considering a career shift. This is not worth it. I don't even know how I managed to convince myself to stay here for the longest time. Maybe I can't afford the transition. Maybe. Probably. Just probably. Most probably maybe. Let me weigh my options.
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EPSON Industrial Engineer, Lipa City, Batangas. Prestigious company. Above average pay. fairly high position. Long growth rate. VEry new place. Unknown travel and cost of living expense. Very distant from family.
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Fairways and Bluewater Human Resources Administrator, Boracay. Very popular company. Very very nice place. Average pay. Very very distant from family. Place compensates for pay. Unknown cost of living. Expensive travel. Unknown growth rate.
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GlaxoSmithKline, Detail Staff, Makati City. Prestigious Company. Unknown work. Unknown pay. Unknown location assignment. Unknown growth rate.
So, I ask myself, "Should I go somewhere or stay here?" Inspite of my better judgment, comparing my current state and the next possible state I would be in; I am staying in this company for the time being. Inasmuch as I would like to leave; the risk is not mine to take, let alone afford it.
"Get a life" Has been a very degenerating comment I have been popularly hearing. Come to think of it, it embodies the true sense of being in a job such as what I have. Let me see here. No night life (work is at night), no social life (in the true sense of the word, since the only socialites we are with are those who also are from our field), no love life (unless you’re with someone here and are of the same schedule), and no sex life (what? Sex! We would rather sleep than expend precious energy on sex). Demeaning isn’t it? I know for a fact it is. Damn! Angst is riding up on all facets of my personality. I need a vacation. A really long one. Before a vacation, may be a promotion would be nice. As a coffee buddy would aptly put it, "Why keep your angst when you can share it, right?"
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