Home Grown Country Girl

Mood: Tired - Emotionally, Physically, and Mentally
Listening to: She Talks to Angels by Counting Crowes

So today was quite eventful, guys! It was my first day of classes. I have some good news and some bad news. Because I've been taught to leave things on a positive note, I'll start with the bad news. It's mainly just drama and Im sick of it. Here we go.

So today I went and picked Amanda up before school. I got there around 12:15. I went and bought my books. That was a big fat $ 186.00 for 3 books - and that was cheaper than I thought. So, Amanda gets in the car and we go to school. We're sitting there chit chatting because her first class was cancelled. I had like an hour until my first class started so we were just sitting there. She looks outside and see's Melanie [who was referred to as 'M' in my post about drama]. Melanie is working as a student ambassador because I purposefully failed to turn in my application on time. She needed the job more than I did. Anyway - she was outside so Amanda and I start talking.

Amanda says, you know, she doesnt really talk to me anymore. I said, yeah, she just has a lot going on right now. Amanda then tells me that Melanie isnt that great of a friend. So, I ask her why. She told me because Melanie has been talking about me behind my back. So, I got upset, naturally. It was close to time for me to go to class, so I went on to class. I came out at break and Melanie was talking to Amanda. I was really quiet and walked up behind Melanie. Amanda could see me. I heard Melanie talking about me to Amanda. Right There! So, I walked up and said "Hey guys!" as happy as I could. Then, told Amanda that I was going back to class. I went in the classroom and text messaged momma and told her about it. Later on she showed me the yahoo messenger conversations where Melanie was talking about me.

You know, this is a girl that I basically took over TRIBE for her so she could get her personal life straightened out. This is the same girl that I was there for endless hours upon endless hours when her boyfriend dumped her and kicked her out. This is the same chick that called me at 11:30pm just 3 nights ago because she thought her boyfriend was out cheating on her! What did I do? I simply was there for her each and every time she needed me. I helped her get into the DUI school. I helped her get the job that she has on campus now. I. Helped. Her. and what does she do? She talks crap about me behind my back when she thinks I can't hear! Ugh!

So yeah, that was the bad part of my day. I lost a 'friend'. I also talked to Angie about this and have come to a decision. Im quitting TRIBE. I can't sit there and be all nice to her to her face and trust her any more. Im just going to give her the club back, since she claims I took over it, and let her handle everything. I've already emailed the faculty advisor and let her know. In 2 days, I'll send out a formal email and let them know that all questions from here on out need to be addressed to Melanie and will put her email and phone number. Im just tired of it.

On top of all of this, I had classes today. In my first class, I will have homework every night. I have a midterm on August 7th and a final on August 21st. In my second class I have a 10 page research paper due on Canada's Healthcare System that I have to site at least 6 references, two journal article reviews to do, and a final on August 21st. I still have to go to my Law in the Healthcare Industry class, which is tomorrow night. Im sure there's going to be a lot to do in that class as well!

Now, for the good news: I love my classes! Im going to do fantastic in them and I really enjoy the topics. I can't wait to go to tomorrows class and I just have to keep telling myself that it is one quarter down 14 more to go! I just have to surround myself with positive people and people who actually care about me. As time goes on, you really learn who your true friends are. Im not mad at Melanie. Im just hurt. I am hurt because I trusted her and confided in her. She let me down. Maybe I call people a friend far too soon like Steve says I do. He told me from the first time he met Melanie that she wasn't going to be a real friend like Angie. I need to start listening to him more often. He's good about first impressions.

I hope you guys had a decent monday. Im gonna crawl into bed as it is 1am already! I'll be around tomorrow. I dont have class until 5pm so I'll be leaving around 4. It was nice talking to you tonight, Teri! =) Thanks for the chat. I needed it. =)