Home Grown Country Girl

Mood: Annoyed, Sad, Hurt, and Angry.
Listening to: The dishes not being done by me because im on the computer.

Well, today was a bad day. Im not going to gripe and moan. It was just one thing right after another. Sometimes I feel my life is stagnant, even though Im constantly doing things. There's just so much I wish I could write, but I just don't have the drive to do so right now. I wish there was a way to just completely remove people from my life that bring nothing but negativity. I wish I didn't have to worry about some of the things that I do worry about. I wish that I would be able to just let some things go and wipe my hands clean of the situation. Im trying, but it is hard. I dont know why I feel responsible for the choices that some of my friends make. I also don't know why they get mad at me when Im asked my opinion and it doesnt agree with theirs. I guess the way I talk to people and my forwardness comes off as being too harsh or too mean. Maybe it's me. Maybe I need to change. Maybe I need to be less forward with my thoughts and feelings and more to myself with things. Maybe I need to just put on the fake emotions and work really hard at numbing my facial expressions. I wish that people wouldn't say, "oh, that's just shelly for ya" or "we'll overlook it because it's shelly." I hate that. Don't dismiss me. If you dont agree with what Im saying or doing, tell me. Maybe Im crazy to think if I treat people a certain way, that's how they'll treat me in return. I dont know much anymore.

Today, a lot of things have went wrong. One right after another. When I mean wrong, I mean it all just kinda bombarded me at once. Various things. Some things were completely unrelated, others werent. All day I've found myself crying at the drop of hat. Im not normally like this, either. My emotions are like a roller coaster ride right now and I just do not know where the stop or panic button is. All I want to do is sleep. Everything is getting on my nerves and rather quickly. I feel so sorry for Steve. He's had to put up with a lot today. I've tried to just keep quiet and he keeps making jokes and probably feels rather idiotic when I don't laugh. I need to get out of this funk. I need to just accept the things I can not change and change the things that I can.

Well, I figured I'd post some pictures of my favorite things. I dont know why, though. Probably because they make me smile. Teri: Thanks for the talk earlier. I needed someone to talk to and you were there for me. I appreciate it.

This blurry picture is of the Pussycat Dolls.

 

Can never get enough Scarface. Great movie.

 

A blurry picture of the movie called: The Sweetest Thing. Great movie. Makes me laugh.

 

I love Drew Barrymore.

 

Betty Boop is too cute.

 

Cameron Diaz is hilarious and beautiful. She's great.

 

I love the show Bones.

 

Julia Roberts is such a great actress. My favorite? Erin Brockovich.

 

House is a great show. He's absolutely hilarious!

 

We all know I love me some CSI.

 

Jenny McCarthy is hilarious! Her books are hilarious and she's not afraid to be herself. I love that about her.

 

Reese Witherspoon is fantastic in any movie she plays in. She's also a great mother and absolutely stunning.

 

Chad Michael Murrary is just hot.

 

Carmen Electra is hialrious. She plays in the parody movies and does a great job! She cracks me up and is so beautiful.

 

Angelina Jolie is my all-time favorite actress. Ever.

 

Wow. *Swoon*

 

    

Marilyn Monroe. She's a classic beauty. Love her.