New Things
I have been seeing more of D, and I’m completely smitten. I’ve gone from this “happy to date, not ready to commit to anyone” phase to “I don’t want to see anyone else but D”. Unreal. I went out with him last week for his birthday, met some of his good friends and had a great time. We have talked a lot, we know a bit of each other’s past experiences. There’s nothing I don’t like about him so far. When I’m not around him, I’m thinking about him and I know he feels the same way. This is what I didn’t feel with N. This is how I want to feel! I love that D listens to me, and hears what I say, even better he remembers everything I tell him! I’m so used to not being heard. Not being paid attention to. Feeling like what I have to say is of no importance at all. D is different. Yeah, I am so scared of getting hurt (turns out he has the same fear) but at the end of the day which is worse? Not taking the chance and never knowing? Or giving it a shot and see what happens, and run the risk of getting hurt? All I know is that he makes me feel great, and I feel great. I looked in the mirror before and I was glowing, I have a sparkle back in my eyes that I thought was lost forever. I’m so happy and excited about the future, whatever it holds.
