Update...
So it's been a while...
I ended up seeing S the next weekend, he finally made his move and kissed me which was nice. When we parted ways he kissed me on the lips and said "See you another time"...at the time I thought "well that's kinda vague". So...I haven't seen him since! I'm totally confused by this kind of behaviour but it's his loss. I deserve a hell of a lot better than that. I bought the book "He's just not that into you" and I have to say, it is FANTASTIC! A real eye opener, and it has given me the answers I need and not to be tempted to message S and see what his deal is. I don't want to know because I don't care anymore. Anyone who leaves me hanging like that, and makes me wonder for weeks what I must have done wrong, isn't worth anymore of my time.
Z is finally coming to visit in a couple of weeks. I think he's great. We have so much in common. The only apprehension I had about him visiting is that he probably will be as great in person as he is over the phone and on email, then what!? But I truly believe that if something's meant to be, it will be.
I read a "Desiderata" I found, and this one line in it really struck me: "Whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should". I think that's so true, that sometimes you need to sit back and just let things go the way they are meant to.
I can't wait to meet Z, we always have so much to talk about. He's so smart and kind, and makes me feel so good about myself, whether it's through an email, talking on the phone or a really thoughtful message. I love the way he makes me feel.
I finally went skydiving, it was so much fun! I wasn't scared until just before we went to jump out of the plane. I screamed the entire 6000ft freefall (about 30-35 seconds). When my instructor pulled the parachute it was really rough and knocked the wind out of me. It was great though, I got to steer the parachute and we spun around and around in the air. To be honest, I hadn't really thought about the landing until it actually happened, during which I hit my lower back VERY hard on the ground. It has been pretty sore but it was worth it. I definitely want to skydive again, but I'm not sure if that would be tempting fate...? We'll see.
Anyway, that's about all my news for now.
