http://www.blogigo.co.uk/popcornXlavalamp my life...but quite nuked... en popcornXlavalamp popcornXlavalamp Tue, 26 Jul 2005 05:10:47 +0200 daily 1 "Five drinks a day, just to be social I hold up my head high enough to break Up to a sky that's holding me down I smoke five joints a day, just to be social I hold up my head I'm high enough to break Up to a sky that's holding me down Down, down, down down down down" my mom is afraid i'll get in the wrong crowd...and drink...and do drugs...and ruin my future but i dont think....i in fact know that isnt me... there's too much worth losing...everything worth losing...everything that is or could be... i've been forced to think about the future.  my mom is constantly badgering me to look at colleges and thinks i should already have my life planned out.  i dont know what i want to do, where i want to go, or who i want to be.  unless u can get a full scholarship, going out of state for the first four years of my college life is out of the question. i really dont like the idea of staying in florida...but im warming up to the idea...as i realize the inevitability... Tue, 26 Jul 2005 05:10:47 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/popcornXlavalamp/Social-Distortion/6/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/popcornXlavalamp/Social-Distortion/6/ you can list your friends but you cant count on them Thu, 07 Jul 2005 05:35:21 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/popcornXlavalamp/hioasdfh-ksd/5/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/popcornXlavalamp/hioasdfh-ksd/5/ I am as ugly as I seem Worse than all your dreams Could ever make me out to be And it makes me want to scream When it´s halloween And the kids are laughing The rogue is a bank he´s never broke But worth as much as a joke that no one is laughing at Can you believe some things are not Appealing and there´s a spot On the ceiling of my childhood bedroom And can these dreams you can´t imagine Will never match the vision That you had decided for me You are to take away from me Things that are mine and it´s not your right Out that you´d wouldn´t expect to find out Can it be that I don´t want what you want? And the only thing I could care for Is a place in a home that is safe and warm Safe and warm, safe and warm, safe and warm Judge yourself if you feel the need Just let me known to be In search of the truth myself There is a drop of blood on the ground And it seems to me that it´s not my kind And I can´t be sure if it´s yours or mine I am as ugly as I seem Worse than all your dreams Could ever... Mon, 04 Jul 2005 03:08:49 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/popcornXlavalamp/some-stuff/4/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/popcornXlavalamp/some-stuff/4/ so this is my second entry-er i am mostly writing because certain people...actually a certain person...demanded it... haha-er... anyways... i think im gunna use this more than my xanga... wooot...tricolon of o's...creating an uber woot today was exhausting...draining to the senses... i went to the warehouse and it was only jason and i out of 8 people...at 9:30 jeff showed up quite stoned...david and another girl showed up at 10:30.... the whole situation had a crazy resemblance to events in the past year...not the dissapointment factor...for there was none...but the work ethic.... *you* and i both know what i speak of...haha... *star* yeah...one other showed up at 12:30...and two people quit...cool stuff... i got my check...deposited it at the bank...went to borders and read catch 22... went to sonnys...no ac... got off at 9:30... and now im here... satisfied? haha-er thats i...   Sat, 02 Jul 2005 04:52:42 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/popcornXlavalamp/another-entry/2/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/popcornXlavalamp/another-entry/2/ so... *refers to title*....about who i know that i'm, actually close to... the answer regrettably is: there there is no such person... and when i examine it further, i recognize that ive never been close to anyone.  ive never held anyone in confidence...in that sort of way. sure ive told people of crushes, or whatever, but ive never had anyone to tell how i feel.  im so conceited. sadly, the closest thing ive ever had to a confidant....is abner and ive never even told him anything... it really bugs me...everything is within me...i never let anything out... maybe thats why my writing is so stone cold and bare.  i simply have never let it out and thus dont know how to let it flow into my writing or anything else. anger could be my inspiration...pain... i have acquaintances...but very few friends... none of which would really go out of their way to call me...to talk...or whatever its sad... truely. people may dissapoint you and their motives might... Sat, 02 Jul 2005 01:05:54 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/popcornXlavalamp/you-ve-got-me-thinking/3/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/popcornXlavalamp/you-ve-got-me-thinking/3/ i will start this blog with a poem... roses are red violets are blue some poems rhyme some dont   mmhmm... i got this because i want to be anonymous...not part of a crowd... irregularity and nonconformity is sorta nice... no im not agnostic...and i wont pretend to be socialist... but yeah... i dont even have to ask for comments becasue no0 one knows me... how awesome is that? thats all... and tfor a change.... i will never formally end these blog entr.... Thu, 30 Jun 2005 05:03:07 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/popcornXlavalamp/salutations/1/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/popcornXlavalamp/salutations/1/