Enough Is Enough!
Mood: Extremely Agitated
Listening to: the sound of my dishwasher
Ok, I'm 30 years old, I have a three year old daughter, a husband in college, and a job which keeps me working 50-60 hours a week!
HELP ME!!!!
I need a major chill pill!
Why in the hell are people never satisfied with things? Why can't I just accept the fact that I have no control over anything in my life? People always talk about how "It's your life" I got news for them. IT"S NOTTT!!
All of my "responsible actions are based on what's best for my family even if it means putting myself dead last. Sometimes when I come home from another 13 hour day, I just want to crawl up in the bed and not talk to a soul.Unfortunately, dinner has to be made, the kitchen needs to be cleaned up, my daughter needs a bath,ect.....
Wouldn't it be great to just say, "Get a bowl of cereal damn it!!" Trust me I have been tempted. I feel guilty for having such thoughts. I feel selfish for having them.
This last week has topped them all. In the span of three days, I found out I was pregnant, then miscarried. You can imagine how this is the last thing I need!! To make matters worse, I received a sale paper from Babies r Us today. There was a section that had pictures of bare pregnant bellies. The caption said something about the joys of motherhood.
WHY DID I HAVE TO SEE THAT SALES PAPER TODAY!!! What kind of a sick joke is this?
Ok, so maybe I'm a little hormonal right now....... Who wouldn't be
Or......Just Maybe...... That little selfish witch inside me is coming out!!
