Allison's Thoughts

Dec 27, 2005 at 19:27 o\clock

Thankful for good health

There's nothing better to make you appreciate your health than when you are sick with the flu! After two days of leaning over a toilet, when it's over you feel like you could conquer the world!

Dec 24, 2005 at 21:46 o\clock

Huh!?

I could just scream! My mother and my sister are driving me crazy! Last night I went over to my mother's house to cook. I was in such a great mood when I first arrived. This great mood was quickly destroyed by the two of them! My sister was laying across the chair acting like she was dying because of a stuffy nose. She helped very little as a result. This really irritated me. They fact of the matter is that she is lazy. She chooses not to work so she is on welfare. That's right, there are states in this country where is is amazingly easy to get handouts.

 

The thing that is the most irritating is the fact that she complains about not having any money! Huh!? She wants it all, to be lazy, not work and buy everything she wants. She uses the not having money thing to get people to buy things for her too. She constantly fishes people and takes every possible opportunity that comes her way.

 

She has attempted to finish college 4 times now. She was one year or two semesters away from a bachelor's degree but chose to transfer to a community college where she will end up with an associate's degree that isn't worth anything!

 

I guess I have a hard time understanding why.

 

My main irritation is the fact the my mother talks terrible about her behind her back but when she decides to come home she kisses her ass. What a twisted family I live in.

Dec 20, 2005 at 02:32 o\clock

Invisible woman

It is a sad state that this world is in. People don't see each other anymore, not really. Have you ever noticed that? If you are out and you attempt to make eye contact, the person will simply ignore your efforts. Is it because they are so self- absorbed that they have no time for thoughts of anything other than themselves? Every once in a awhile, you will get a person to respond.

I have even walked by people, looked them straight in the eye, said "excuse me ladies"' and had them completely ignore me!! I don't understand it!

I challenge you to make eye contact with people the next time you are out. See how many respond to excuse me. It could be just where I live. I would be interested to see how people in different places react to the same thing.

Sep 22, 2005 at 04:22 o\clock

Shadows Of Light

I journey through life in a covered wagon ,

A small portal to view where I've been,

never where I'm going.

 I struggle to see through the canvas which embraces my soul. 

There are only shadows of light..

Journey on Brave Soul!

Journey on

 through the shadows of light.

Someday the canvas will wear.

All will be revealed.

Someday, I will be free

The sun, wind, and rain will be my allies,

breaking the canvas of my soul.

Until then, I will take comfort in the sweet warmth of shadows, ,

Shadows of light.

-AK

Sep 21, 2005 at 05:40 o\clock

You Got to Believe

 

Hang in there girl!

things will get better

You got to believe!

Don't give up the fight

you got a lot of life yet to live

You got to believe!

No one will do it for you

People will try to bring you down

They will only succeed

If you let them..

You hold the Key

Don't hand it over

Race for the gate

 

You will succeed

But you have to believe

Sep 21, 2005 at 03:12 o\clock

Enough Is Enough!

Mood: Extremely Agitated
Listening to: the sound of my dishwasher

Ok, I'm 30 years old, I have a three year old daughter, a husband in college, and a job which keeps me working 50-60 hours a week!

 

HELP ME!!!!

 

I need a major chill pill!

 

Why in the hell are people never satisfied with things? Why can't I just accept the fact that I have no control over anything in my life? People always talk about how "It's your life" I got news for them. IT"S NOTTT!!

 

All of my "responsible actions are based on what's best for my family even if it means putting myself dead last. Sometimes when I come home from another 13 hour day, I just want to crawl up in the bed and not talk to a soul.Unfortunately, dinner has to be made, the kitchen needs to be cleaned up, my daughter needs a bath,ect.....

Wouldn't it be great to just say, "Get a bowl of cereal damn it!!" Trust me I have been tempted. I feel guilty for having such thoughts. I feel selfish for having them.

This last week has topped them all. In the span of three days, I found out I was pregnant, then miscarried. You can imagine how this is the last thing I need!! To make matters worse, I received a sale paper from Babies r Us today. There was a section that had pictures of bare pregnant bellies. The caption said something about the joys of motherhood.

WHY DID I HAVE TO SEE THAT SALES PAPER TODAY!!! What kind of a sick joke is this?

Ok, so maybe I'm a little hormonal right now....... Who wouldn't be

Or......Just Maybe...... That little selfish witch inside me is coming out!!