http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak once again xanga and family has let me down. This will be my journal for keeps and hope to get some things accomplished in my life to be at peace. en pixiefreak pixiefreak Tue, 08 Aug 2006 17:40:09 +0200 daily 1 Well my father passed in March this year.  But I am doing fine, haven't been here in quite some time and thot I'd stop by and say  hello. Bf has had his quadruple bypass and is doing fine, still has kidney dialysis tho but it's needed. Daughter is living with friends and not me anymore, *sighs* I was sickly for a while but am better.  HOWZ YOU ALL?!!! Tue, 08 Aug 2006 17:40:09 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/UPDATE/52/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/UPDATE/52/   My holidays weren't very pleasant.  My sister and I talk on the computer quite a bit which can get quite boring.  But on December 21st, my father was ready to give up and go home (to the big man upstairs).  Well he got better the next day and on friday, he started again.  Finally, he got better. Last week he had 3 strokes in a weeks time.  But he's still doing good.  So that is how my holidays went.  My daughter is here, she spent the nite.  She  has 2 or 3 more kidney stones to pass and has to go back to work tomorrow. Pray for our troops, our miners, and each other.  Ok.  Bye for now.      Thu, 05 Jan 2006 18:05:43 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/To-Whom-it-may-Concern/51/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/To-Whom-it-may-Concern/51/ Thot I'd check in and let you all know, Holidays sucked, so don't ask.  Been a boring life as usual.  My bedroom is tinkerfied now.  I have a cell phone, like I know how to use them very well, daughter is working and likes it.  She spent most of the holidays here but there was arguing.  GUESS WHO? While I'm here I will check out my favorites and clear things out.  HOPE YOU DIDN'T THINK I WAS GONE.   JUST DISAPPEAR FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME HOPING SOMETHING EXCITING WILL HAPPEN IN MY LIFE.  Toodles for now!!!   MWAH TO ALL!!! Tue, 03 Jan 2006 20:07:13 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Checkin-In/50/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Checkin-In/50/ Well it's been a rotten morning. Let's just see how bad the day can get.  I'm ready to just get lost and not let anyone know where I am.  This is my last entry for a couple of days.  I'm gonna become a hermit.  LOL.  Just thot I'd write and let all my friends know I won't be on here for a while.  MWAH to all.  Wed, 09 Nov 2005 16:12:22 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Hurt/49/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Hurt/49/ It's a sad sad day.  Lost a loved one yesterday and it's just not a good thing. still haven't got arrangements for funeral ready yet, waiting.  I don't like to talk about death cuz i know there is a much better world where I'm going. Still have 1 more errand to run, and I'll be done for a while with chores.  Bleh, don't like chores. Caio. Wed, 02 Nov 2005 18:58:16 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/bleak-and-dreary/48/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/bleak-and-dreary/48/ It's been another sucky day for me.  Go figure!!  The bf is sick again.  It's his own damned fault.  Doesn't eat like he should.  Stoopid ass.  Daughter got to have anniversary dinner lastnite, just waiting to hear from her about it.  Hope the lasange turned out ok for them.  Nothing to do in this rinky dink stinkin town.  I hate it here.  If I had my own place and a job to keep it, I would do it in a heartbeat. And break up with the bf. LOL.... Well it's getting darker earlier now, that sux too.  I've decided not to baby the so called bf when he's sick, there's nothing I can do for him.  And I won't lie down with him, that's just too gross to even think about.  Just wish there was something to do here.  Oh well, I guess it's okay to be bored sometimes.  But I'm bored all the time.  C'est la vie.  Have a wonderful evening. Mon, 31 Oct 2005 00:43:51 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/sucky-day/47/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/sucky-day/47/ Let's try this again.  Daughter is gonna have dinner with fiance tonite and piss off her roomie.  She's had this planned for 2 weeks and she deserves to have that time with him.  Other daughter bought me a halloween gift and when I showed bf this morning I got the 20 question game.  He had diarreah at 4:30-6;30 this morning so I expect when he gets back from hunting he will be in bed, sick.  Like nobody else gets diarreah.  Such a retard.  Daughter is suppose to come see me again today.  YaY!!!  I hate staying here alone with bf cuz he wants all the attention.  Which I'm not willing to give him.  Not with the way he is. He never got that bath when he was sick and to this date, he still hasn't bathed.  YUCK!!! I dont' touch him, he may have cooties.  He wants me to sleep with him and I won't.  Let me ask you ladies this:  Would you sleep with a man who hasn't had a bath for 3 months?  Didn't think... Sat, 29 Oct 2005 18:32:55 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Happy-Halloween/46/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Happy-Halloween/46/ Daughters plans to have  a good dinner and time with her man went to shitz because her roomie wants to have a halloween party. And daughter had all this planned for 2 weeks and now look.  Over a stoopid party she has to be disappointed.  She feels like a failure and it's just not right.  It's hers and her mans one year anniversary and she was going to cook lasange for the first time for her and her man.  Needless to say, I am not pleased with her roomie for screwing her nite up.  Fri, 28 Oct 2005 22:54:26 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Daughter-s-anniversary-dinner-went-to-shitz/45/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Daughter-s-anniversary-dinner-went-to-shitz/45/ My sister is driving me mad.  Same as bf.  I do the same shit everyday.  Listen to my sister ramble on and my bf bitch.  Yeah, boring. I hope all those in Florida are doing ok.  I hate nautral disasters. Any kind of natural disasters.  I haven't come here for a while cuz it's the same stuff all the time, no fun makes me a dull person so.  Here's to hoping I visist here more often and to all of you in the path of the hurricanes (bleh)  Have a Great Day!!! Thu, 27 Oct 2005 18:14:34 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/SSDD/44/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/SSDD/44/ It's been one of those days.  It was really cold lastnite and I couldn't warm up.  I wore a sweatshirt and night pants and socks to bed lastnite, wasn't enuff.  I now have on 2 pair of pants, 2 pair of socks, and my sweatshirt on and a jacket to cover my legs.  It's not like me to have so many clothes on. The bf is really sick and needs to go to the hospital and be admitted but he wants to take a bath first.  How dumb is that I ask you. It's warmer outside than it is in this damndable trailer.  Bf had someone put out the pilot light for the heat and now we have to find someone to re-light it.  But with the prices of heat going up, it's kinda scary even thinking about turning the heat on..Found out the bf had his window open the past couple of nites too.  That doesn't help any.  I wish he'd just go on to the hospital and get admitted and get it over with.  I could use a couple of days alone.  Peace and quiet, not... Thu, 29 Sep 2005 19:57:42 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/freezing/43/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/freezing/43/ Well, I'm back to bitch..  Closed Xanga once again.  Yeah, having family troubles there.  Thot I could trust someone and then boom. Isnt that the way it usually goes tho? It's been nice and cool here in Iowa.  But when I get out of bed in the morning, it's freezing!!!!  Guess it just shows you that you have to get up and moving to get the blood circulated in the mornings. So now this is my home.....my main journal......YAY!!!!!  Not much else happening here, just had to close my xanga and yahoo and sign up for a new account on yahoo.  no biggie. Tue, 27 Sep 2005 19:42:47 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/My-home-blogigo./42/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/My-home-blogigo./42/ been a buzy little pixie.  Not really, Sister has been online with me for 2 weeks solid, maybe more, dk.  guess sometime today I will get to cleaning up the trailer a bit.  My sister is taking care of my dad and worrying about her husband who works out of state in different states.  Daughter lost her job.  Just really a boring life here.  See ya!!! Mon, 26 Sep 2005 08:11:02 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Buzy/41/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Buzy/41/ It's gonna be another one of those days.  I didn't cook breakfast and he is already bitchin' about it in his own little way.  Oh well.  I'm not married to him and I'm not his mommie.  I shouldn't have to do these things, for pete's sake, he's 47 years old. I think he's mad too because my daughter bought me a hampster and he said if I can come up with the money to get one and the stuff it needs, I could have one, guess what, My daughter got it for me and now I think he's upset about it.  I couldn't keep the dog so I gave it back to my daughter and the cats are outside.  I wanted an animal to keep me happy.  So I got a hampster and it's name is Wheeler cuz it likes to be on the wheel 90% of the time when it is awake. I am here where I live because he needs me, I don't need him.  I do all the shitty work here cuz he's too lazy.  He lets his dirty clothes pile up, he won't take a shower when he starts to smell dead, he won't put his dishes in the sink... Wed, 14 Sep 2005 17:36:24 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/another-one-of-those-days/40/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/another-one-of-those-days/40/ I wrote this once.  And it messed up. I got up early this morning but of course I went to bed early lastnite, headache.  Dont' you just hate those?  I do. Anyway, my sister is in OKC.  I got to chat with her a while lastnight via messenger. She is looking pretty decent.  About 3 or 4 years ago she looked sickly, bad drug usage.  But she's doing good now.  Her job takes her all over the place.  She goes to Memphis soon.  Isnt' that where Graceland is?  Maybe she'll go see it.  She's so lucky.  I also have a brother I haven't spoke to in about 3 or 4 years.  He just got bailed out of jail for dui.  He has a pretty decent job too.  And he's a looker.  Just can't keep his pecker in his pants.  He's been married 5 times. Twice to some woman.  I'm just glad my daddy loves all of us.  Even tho he says my brother isn't his.  He says it's not who planted the seed but who helped it grow, and... Thu, 08 Sep 2005 15:44:22 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/a-little-history-about-me/39/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/a-little-history-about-me/39/ Just so freakin bored anymore, all I do is play on this computer and nothing else.  Got all my chores done except folding and putting my clean clothes away.  My sister is OKC until Saturday or Sunday and then she's gonna meet her loser of a boyfriend in Memphis.  I secretly think she's scared of leaving him, he's one of those dangerous types.  She will be staying with my dad, who is terminally ill, but not for good.  Which is needless to say a sad thing.  She will try to go see her daughter but my cousin is going to stand in the way of that.  I say if my niece wants to see her mom then it is totally up to her, not my cousin.  Not much else to write so Blessed Be to All....SO MOTE IT BE!!! Wed, 07 Sep 2005 21:30:30 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/same-ol-dumb-stuff/38/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/same-ol-dumb-stuff/38/ having a really bad day!! Got woke up at 7:30 am cuz bf couldn't potty, so I had to go to his mom's and get something for him for it. Went to lie down earlier and his mom calls and says they have to go back to Des Moines and to plan on staying the nite.  They wanted me to go but, I have a dog here that gets into everything, can't very well leave him outside in the sun all day, and can't leave him caged up all day.  SORRY. So , not a good day for me!!! Tired, back hurts, and hungry all at the same time.  That includes being bored.  LOL Tue, 30 Aug 2005 21:56:02 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Bad-Day/37/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Bad-Day/37/ Bored, Bored, Bored.  Not much going on.  Daughter works I guess parttime. She's not scheduled to work today and is still in bed.  so is the bf.  I did my dishes yesterday so there is nothing to do.  found out my cousin is pregnant and I can't be happier for her.  She's been wanting a baby so bad and now she's gonna have one.  We wasn't sure if she could but now we know.  I think it's great.  My niece is trying to have a baby and I hope she does one of these years.  I think they'll both make great momma's.  I myself am bored to pieces.  so i'll go and get this in.  Miss all of you!!!! Sat, 27 Aug 2005 18:50:42 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Saturdays/36/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Saturdays/36/ no, am not bouncy, just wish there were something to do, well, there is, dishes!!!  EWWW.  It is 84 (supposedly) here and hot, like 90 something.  And cloudy so it makes it stickier.  Boyfriend ate himself sick, ha ha.  Not my fault.  My daughter is now working, has been for 3 days.  CNA. gets paid 7.50 an hour.  So I'm a pretty proud momma.  My other one graduates college this winter.  YAY!!! Our winters here are pretty cold, snow.  Not much else going on here, same ol same ol.  Hope All have a BLESSED DAY. Fri, 19 Aug 2005 21:17:58 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/RAIN-maybe/35/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/RAIN-maybe/35/ It's quite early yet so I'm still kinda sleepy.  Everyone is still in bed. Hi All!!! My daughter has orientation today at a Nursing Home, sounds promising job-wise.  But it's not until 1:00 this afternoon.  I go to my nephews, which is just right across the highway, at 11am to see pictures he took of my daughter yesterday.  My daughter needs to be awake at least by 10 because the person she does live with will be in town around 11 and she needs to tell him she will need a ride home after orientation.  If we knew she didn't have to be there until one she could have stayed home and come in town today and I couldve taken her back home but we didn't know what time she was suppose to be at the Nursing home.  I picked her up and now don't have the gas to take her back home which sux big time.  I hope her friend can wait around until like 2.  He could stay here and wait for her if he likes.  I don't care what my bf says, it would be so much... Tue, 16 Aug 2005 15:57:57 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Too-Early/34/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Too-Early/34/ I have added yet another to my favorites.  I'm trying really hard to keep up here and think I'm doing a pretty good job.  Want to say hello to all my friends.  It's not easy sitting at the compter all day and it's really not that much fun.  I love the journals. I give the computer that.  And music, is a must!!! I am bored today and these journals are the only thing keeping me going.  On one journal I have family and on this one I have friends.  I like friends.  In other news, well there is none.  Still hot, still miserably hot.  I'm always on the computer, doin chores, or running errands.  Hey, that's my life.  BORING!!! Hope All have a Blessed Day!!! Tue, 09 Aug 2005 20:17:50 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Another-Friend-Added/33/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/pixiefreak/Another-Friend-Added/33/