veli long no ci liao
havent been up for a long time.... well things are not improving and yet going fm bad to worse..... he had occured abt 15K debts now!!! Y some ppl just wont learn fm mistakes and yet know how to talk about it like they hv realise the harm and foolishness they hd made themselves to be seen as ......,, and yet.. DO IT AGAIN & AGAIN...>>>>
really like to know is it stupid or wat,,,,,, well,,, guess i am stupid as well,.,,, just tt we are stupid on diff things nia,,, one for luv, the other for excitement on gambling.....
every day is a chore as he is avoiding his family and some of his frens... of cos la!!! they are dissappointed with him liao ma,,,, then i ganna blame by one of his buddy ( who he owes $$ to as well ) ...... look,,, this is fustratin as i had talked abt it, nagged abt it,,, scold him abt it,, many ways,,, soft, hard, nag, loving, hints ,,, yet he still wanna do it,,, what can i do>>>>> i cant watch his every moves ma>>>>>>>>>>>makes me feel sad and angry as who will walk in mi shoe... see how it good it is,, >>>>> having mom who will nag when she finds out,,,,>>>> never encouraging in the way tt i will accept ,,,>>>>>
aiya,,, gotta go,,, hope i will be able to come back in soon to let off again,, just hope things will get better asap,,>>>>>>>>>> still luv him ,, STUPID ME!!!!! GUESS NOT MUCH LIKE MI IN THE WORLD NOW!!>>>>like no matter how i try to improve or do she will find fault/s ...... look i am NOT IN FAULT IF HE CANT SHIT...>>>>> everything is up to himself to change ,,,, we can guide him but last deceision is still up to himself,,,,,,, NOBODY IS ABLE TO WATCH ANYONE FOR 24/7..... im not upset meh it makes mi life hard as well leh ,,,,,,, no matter what,, i dont see it as mi fault,,, BUT I SUFFER W HIM OK!!! N WHO ELSE!!!!!! WHEN HE HV MONEY,,, WHO IS HE SHARING WITH,,, HIS BUDDIES okie okie, be fair,,, a little on me,, watch movies and more movies or eat better ,,,, ( not a lot ok!!! so dont think of diamonds or shopping or jewellry ) ....... When in debt who share and suffer with him,, ME ME and ME.......
