Weblog of Phoebe

Jan 8, 2006 at 13:02 o\clock

tots

in not sure why but we are drifting apart big time now,,, i just dont wanna talk to him anymore expecially y im so pissed lately,,, its like im not even in the mood to talk to him ,,, wat had changed, im not sure but it feels like we eventhough we meet every day, things are not picking up,,, i cant compromise anymore as i feel that im the only one giving without receiving anything,,, feel so sad about this as how can we not be closer yet had drift so far apart now,,, still looking for the ans and im not really sure what had happen,,, one thing im sure is he is too busy with hos thingy that he had neglected me big time,,,, its like im not here unless he needs me to do something ..... y had things become like this,,, so many yrs together yet things dont seem to improve ,,, yes,,, he do luv me, but this is not enuff for me now,,,, i need someone to care about me ,,, i hd grown up,,, i dont need oli luv,,,, geezzz makes me feel so bloody old liao,,,, but true lor,,, i need someone to look after me, company me and hear me talk - communicate when theres time,,,

shit,,,, enuff on this as i m so bloody depressed after talkin this matter,,, chee bye chee bye

Jan 2, 2006 at 16:45 o\clock

another day

well another day ... things are going ok for me this moment,,, tot og going to buy the laptop this week liao which is good as i dying for one this moment.... for all that i could see, samsung 06 is the most suitbale for me this momnet,,, i actually like the c30 but the screen is a little small la,, little upset and i oso like the white ones fm Fujitsu but small screen as well lor... well i bought a sudoku game yestersay but i had forgoten where i hd placed it ( been finding it since last night leh,,,, sian i really dont remember where i had placed it ,, find all the possible places liao,, so sad ,,, tot i can play last night when i got home lor,,, bought at $10 bucks at Carrefour but the tot of going over just to buy it bores me a little ,,

just went to Sodoku on line,,, quite fun but not in mood right now to play ,,, toto he will be able to go and look at laptops today but bad news came up when i got down to stall for lunch,,, hope things will turn our right later ,,, will noe about the outcome this evening lor,,,i hope we will hear the good news as it means a lot to us ,, things are gradually going good for all of us so i hope this too ,,

i bored,,,, i dont know what to do,, so sian .. sometimes i just feel lost ,, not knowing wat do i really wan in life leh.... but i gradually find mi way sometimes and LOST it again,,, damn it,, feels like i dont really know wat i wanted as i .... hai,,, starts to talk shit and rubbish again hey,,,,

forget it leave now.... mwah mwah mwah and HAPPY NEW YEAR