Weblog of Phoebe

havent been in there for ages...... well, things as going good for me this moment,,, had a cold war again during xmas but its over now,,,, just hope things will be fine la,,, was boring so came over to net bar and surf,,, wanna buy a laptop and is still deciding on which to go thou.... my cousin is searching for one that will suit me and hv to be light as i will hv to bring out frequently..... my nephew is on the other desk playing on line games which is the 1st time we came over together,,,

work is ok,,, fuc&^%# busy with CNY coming soon and still having loads of things tt are not done ,,,, sian, more n more things to do at work now, but at least it makes the times flies faster lor,,,

my new year resolution will be to go for graphic deisgning course and buy a laptop, i wanna learn some graphic designings and thinks it will be great ,,, at least i get to upgrade myself then being push back right...???

my mate is doing well now as well and im happy for her,,, at least i wont hv to be too worried about her and her problems,,, sometimes i wanna say something but know it wont make any diff as she is so used to it now tt what i say will be bullshit to her anyway,,,,

i have been busy, but yet im happy with it till i knock off and heads ovr to allan's sides,,,, he is now tending 2 stalls and it is quite busy lor,,, i really wonder it we are meant for each other ???? as i dont see any good out of us being 2gether,,,, but one part of me just wont want to leave lor,, Jian Nu ren,,,,,

always zhi hui zi zhao ma fan er yi,, shen mo do bu hui, you gei jia ren dan xin wo zhe me duo,, hao xiang xiao hai shi de,,, ye bu zhi ta you shen me hao, wei shen me wo hui zhe yang de bui she de zhou,,,, hai

another quarrell with him,,, sian.... y we just cant make a pact and live happily... y must we be so stubborn and not give way to each other

his debts are almost cleared... at least by hald now which is gd... we wont hv to worry so much,, and it oso means if i wanna break, i wont hv to worry about him as much as b4,,,,  as he wont need as much support fm me le,,,, isnt it gd for him and sad for me as ~~ can i really let go now?? i dont think so... if yet then i can go donkeys yrs ago and not trying to make up my mind now!!!@@@@

i dont seems to be able to let go,,, but true... luv is not enuff now,,, i need communications and time 2gether not being a report card,,, oli know about it when it happens no matter good or bad... i would like to know about the process stage as well... tt's where i dont feel the closeness ....,, things are not MEANT to be discussed or talked about to me ,,,, ,,,, ,,, sad, as this makes me feel like im not a part of his life,,, no matter wat is the decision ,,,

well, he thinks hes right,, tts y he didnt call me,, well i dont call him as well as this has become a habit and he knows i'll still goes back to his side no matter how or what@@@@ bloody hell... things just falls back to the same place after i had told him the problem,. so obviously he didnt take it seriously

not sure how to handle ths problem.... to say,,,, leave is the good thing for me in health and future,, but i will not be able to luv another one as much as i luv him,,,,, i will be sad but not sure for how long i will be.... sian sian sian.... no one can help me... oli me myself can help me and i know i wont be able to as i luv him!!!!@##### #*@&!%#$*%^ shit Fuck^$^*& HELL  #*#$*&#$^# TA MA DE