Weblog of Phoebe

Mood: VERY UPSET

Sometime things are hard to swallow,,,,,, just dont know how to keep my sprits up now as i think i had give up hope on anything about him now..... maybe im uptight, maybe im gave him too much freedom that now i hv to find a internet cafe just to write my feelings out as i hv no one to turn too,,, well, i do but i dont wanna let my frens worry too much about me,,, Kent asked me y we still dont wanna marry after such long time, im not sure myself as i just have a gut feeling that i will no be happy  if he dont changed and still gets into debt and more  debt all the time,,, worse is that he wont tell me how much as i will always find new one when things cropped up,,, thats shit mate!!! just for how long will i be able to cope with all the shits that he throws at me??? think i just have enff now that i just dont wanna speak to him this moment,,,,,,,,,,

Miko had reached Bandyup and Simon just called ,,,, so good to know that she will be happier now,, too bad we are not able to chat over the ph yesterday as it was her b-day,,, guess i oli hv her to speak to now but yet this will make her worry a lot and she hv enuff trouble herself liao,, i dont think im a good fren after all as im too dedicatd to Allan le,, maybe i should really chang my goal~~ make a new goal or review my present one as it had actually make me suffer,,,, too much into not good anyway,,,

it had affected my relationship with my family, fren ( as im always busy ) i mean y am i so stupid as to help him close his bloody stall after work and help him on weekends>??? shouldnt i hv things to do that are much more meaningful that this?? writing this on internet cafe seems a little strange for me as im not sure who knows me will come up and notice wat i had write... so i had keep this to a small small font ,,, well, bcos of him i dont hv time for hm,,, mom was nagging so i chat with her when i gets hm ,,,, then due to this i dont hv enuff sleep,,, that i had bad mood at work,,, and no time to accompany mom or sis,,, maybe this is relly getting me down ,,,, when all along i tot i was supporting him by helping him out and being by his side and stop him from gambling,,,,,,,,,,, sian sian sian

David said he is afraid of being lonely,,, me too,,, blieve many ppl too la,,, why i just cant find relaxation b myself huh??? y am i toturing myself when i can actually enjoy the hell out of my life??? wouldnt it be better than working all day 24/7 ( unless he didnt open him stall ) which is not to me as he cant close his stall on weekends and im on office job ,,,,,,,, then still hv his sister some more!!!! im still wating for him to apologize as she had misunderstood me ,,,,, till now i dont wanna speak to her or even look into her eyes,,, as im very angry about the incident, ,,, then Allan is not sensitive about it,,,,, asking me to do things which aid her,,, look i am calculative ,, very calculative when i dont like the person and im not pie-say to say it out,,, i told Jeff and David just now about it le,,,

well, looks like i had talked too much le,,, still hv lots of things to say le,,

on thing for sure, i realize that loving each other is actually not enuff ,,,, what i need is being able to see my future together which will end up happily and oso seeing each other like an open book and not just one side oli.........

wo ye bu zhi dao wei shen mo wo hui zhe yang xi huan flirt ,,,,, dui David shi hen hao wan la, bu guo wo men shi bu hui 4ever de la as i dont lik ta de patten.... all along wo do shizhe yang de,,,,, mayb thats y Allen, Benji do hui xi huan wo,, kan lai wo shi yi zhi do zai hai ren hor,,,,,, aiya, what feelings they hv are all just a moment oli la,,, spicing up life ma,,,

talk again now busy DL-ing thingy......

Mood: very angry

Raping is enuff but to not being able to conceive next time/......... ask urself ............. Rude bastards + brainless just for the kick out of it

Please read.
Be really careful...

SHOCKING TRUE STORY
A woman at a Gas nightclub (Mumbai) on Saturday night was taken by 5 men, who according to hospital and police reports, gang raped her before dumping her at Bandstand Mumbai. Unable to remember the events of the evening, tests later confirmed the repeat rapes along with traces of rohypnol in her blood.  Rohypnol, date rape drug is an essentially a small
sterilization pill. The drug is now being used by rapists at parties to rape AND sterilize their victims. All they have to do is drop it into the girl's drink. The girl can't remember a thing the next
morning of all that had taken place the night before. Rohypnol, which dissolves in drinks just as easily, is such that the victim doesn't conceive from the rape and the rapist needn't worry about having a paternity test identifying him months later. The drug's effects ARE NOT TEMPORARY - They are P*E*R*M*A*N*E*N*T.  Any female that Takes it WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO CONCEIVE. The weasels can get this drug from anyone  who is in the vet school or any university. It's that easy, and Rohypnol is about to break out big on campuses everywhere. Believe it or not, there are even sites on the Internet telling people how to use it.  Please forward this to everyone you know,especially girls.  Girls, be Careful when you're out and don't leave your drink unattended.

There was already been a report Singapore of girls drink been spike by Rohypnol.  Please make the effort  to  forward this on to all you know... For guys, pls inform all your female  friends and relatives .... remember you also have daughters and sisters.
Visit this website for more info on Rohypnol.

 http://www.streetdrugs.org/rohypnol.htm

Mood: So-So

PERSONAL PERCEPTION

Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be
another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the
way
home, a boy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the
donkey?"

Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey.
He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The
husband is the head of family.
How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?"
Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on
the donkey.
Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, "How
can
the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He! is no gentleman."

The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey.

Then, they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you
hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you."

Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the
donkey and carried it on their shoulders. It seems to be the only choice
left.

Later, on a narrow bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled.
They lost their balance and fell into the river.

You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn
you.

Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.

Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is
clear..

 

e-mailed to me for a long time liao

this is to say that 1 thing cant please all hey... everyppl hv diff thinkings, diff opinions, who can u please??? just b urself and do wat u think is right ( hv to be right la of cos - use brain ) as long as no harm is done to anyone JUST DO IT

NO OVERPOWERING

Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower
another,
or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer
all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage.

Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which
carries
the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a
person's character."

It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing
the
spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.

I! t would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our
expectations..

 

we humans are always trying to do,,, ME TOO!!!!! but to lower our expectation??? seems hard hey as in our mind we are actually trying to make imrovements for each other.... same as the one b4 ~~ 1 thing cant please all

weekend is ok la had a little talk with him which is good as at least he noe wat im thinkin instead of sulkin all day and not explainin why......

Miko is going down to Bandyup this Fri which is great for her as she has more frens there that can company her and look after her as well,,, i feel happier to her too,,its her B-dae this coming Thur,,, and i haent send her a bdae card yet,,,,, will give her a buzz on tt dae thou...... i miss her a lot ,,,,, i do wish i can speak to her sometime as i can tell her lots of stuffs and not worry she will pass the info ard,,, ... ...

home is ok la,,, sis have been going out late for the past few days and mom is getting worried and nags lor,, shes still so worried ,, we are so old oreli,,, in her heart we are still her babies,,, what to do,, she cant let do with ease, worrying we will get into troubles lor,,,

was looking at themes @ Zedge,,,,, lots of nice ones to look........ dont know where to find the DL button leh,,,, still lookin and my coll is callin her BF now to findout...........hv to register la,,,,,,, aiya,,

got to go,,,,,,, work time now

 

MWAH

Mood: still not happy

Slowly moving my thingy to here -- this fm my other diary.....

had a shitty day since last night as the liar lie ( whats new ) again,,,and know wat,, over little things most of the time which im not sure why is there a need!!!!!! he called me to say he was lying then assured me he wont do it again and yet the same thing, same pro arise again...that B,fu.... well it is actually not a big pro but i jsut dont want him to hv this habit as u wouldnt like ppl to lie to u too rit!!>?????? i dont know how to control him sometimes as he will forget when i loosen the grip.... men!!! when u r a man, u will say - women, so this is actually the same way round la...... some habits are pretty hard to change one la, i hv my bad habits too, ,,,,, mayb im too critical but i just want to change this habit of his as it has been this way for far too long ,,,, always wanting me to find out out of the blues,, that shit!!!!!! i know he just lied so i wont get upset or angry at the moment as he dont bother to cover up his ass when the truth surface ..... i do agree it is not big pro but y must he lie... you know wat i mean??? y is there a need when it didnt harm anyone??? am i that hard to talk to?? ( mayb i really am hee hee ) all cos he have lots of bad bad habits that really need attn....
actually i will live far better and happier if we are not 2gether, i wont hv so many pro that are fm him, but i just dont wanna give up, having hope that he will really change to a better guy,,, wo him i will sleep early, not stress, better relationship with my family, eat less ( less stress ),. better face ( less stres pimples ), can go for comp course ( dont hv to help out at his stall ) blar blar blar......
w/O him i will olso become lonely, miss him, my goal is gone by 70% and mayb i wont marry and just look up guys that i like till the day i mati!!!!!!
know wat we hv been 2gether for donkey yrs liao!!!! !! must b thinking why not married rit,,, for the past 5 yrs we care not able to ......
chat again ```````````

Mood: n0t H@pPYyyyyyyyy

Might be boring to some ppl... just for relaxation and laugh mate,,, hv a great day as im not happy for the past few days,,,,,,    

Test for Dementia

Below are four (4) questions and a bonus question. You have to answer them instantly. You can't take your time, answer all of them immediately. OK?



Let's find out just how clever you really are.




Ready? GO!!! (scroll down)

First Question:

You are participating in a race. You overtake the second person. What position are you in?

 

 

 

Answer: If you answered that you are first, then you are absolutely wrong! If you overtake the second person and you take his place, you are second!
Try not to screw up in the next question.
To answer the second question, don't take as much time as you took for the first question.

Second Question:
If you overtake the last person, then you are...?

 

 

 

 

Answer: If you answered that you are second to last, then you are wrong again. Tell me, how can you overtake the LAST Person?



You're not very good at this! Are you?

Third Question:
Very tricky math! Note: This must be done in your head only.
Do NOT use paper and pencil or a calculator. Try it.



Take 1000 and add 40 to it. Now add another 1000. Now add 30. Add another 1000. Now add 20. Now add another 1000
Now add 10. What is the total?


Scroll down for answer.

 

 

Did you get 5000?

The correct answer is actually 4100.

Don't believe it? Check with your calculator! Today is definitely not your day. Maybe you will get the last question right?

 

Fourth Question:
Mary's father has five daughters: 1. Nana, 2. Nene, 3. Nini,
4. Nono.
What is the name of the fifth daughter?

Answer: Nunu?


NO! Of course not.
Her name is Mary. Read the question again

 

 

Okay, now the bonus round:
There is a mute person who wants to buy a toothbrush. By imitating the action of brushing one's teeth he successfully
expresses himself to the shopkeeper and the purchase is
done.

Now if there is a blind man who wishes to buy a pair of
sunglasses, how should he express himself?

He just has to open his mouth and ask, so simple!!

KEEP THIS GOING TO FRUSTRATE THE

"SMART PEOPLE"  IN YOUR LIFE!

hi all,,,

not sure how true this is but i post this anyway...........

DEAR ALL.

 Planet Mars will be the brightest in the night sky starting August. 

It will look as large as the full moon to the naked eye. This will cultimate on Aug. 27 when Mars comes within 34.65M miles of earth.

 Be sure to watch the sky on Aug. 27 12:30 am. It will look like the earth has 2 moons. The next time Mars may come this close is in 2287. Share this with ur

friends as NO ONE ALIVE TODAY will ever see it again...^_^

HaVE a NIcE DaY!!

hi all,,, ( if any )

 

find this meaninful and good ,,,, as for the guys, not bias so take this easy mate

 

 

那晚，我認識的一對年輕夫妻中的太太哭著來電：「你快來！我恨
他！我要和他離婚！」
快速趕到他們家，這會兒還正吵得兇呢！
男說：「她很無聊，我上班好累，她說晚上要去散步，我說改天，
她就又哭又鬧，真是討厭！」
女說：「你才討厭，我在家作牛作馬為這個家打掃，為你做飯為你
生孩子，為你們臭男人當發洩獸慾的工具怎麼，只要求散個步你就
會累死啦！？」
男說：「喂！生小孩是兩人的事又不是我一人的事，妳累難道我不
累？我發洩難道妳沒享受？」
女說：「哼！早知道生了小孩你不管我根本就不生，我們女人為何
辛苦生下孩子，就一定要負責孩子的一切，又不能出去工作。」
男說：「喂！生孩子又不是妳一人能辦到，沒有我妳生個屁。」
女說：「哼！你們男人有何貢獻？享受女人肉體的是你，發洩的也
是你，你貢獻了什麼？」
男說：「哼！沒有我的貢獻精子妳生什麼！？」
再來下面的話讓人難忘！！
女說：「哈哈！貢獻精子你，享受完了，你射精了，你貢獻了，好
那看看我們女人的貢獻：

我懷孕要忍耐嘔吐
我要小心飲食
我連生病都不敢吃藥
我要為肚裏孩子注意一切
我懷孕不便於行
我不再能遠行郊遊
我坐車都不方便
我要穿上大肚裝
我不能放心行房
我要擔心肚裏孩子是否健康
我要定時去醫院產檢
我懷孕要破壞身材
我要煩惱妊娠紋的出現
生產後要努力恢復身材使丈夫不嫌棄  

 

我要忍受陣痛
我要痛苦生產
我也許須要剖腹生產
我也許會有產後憂鬱症
我要帶初生嬰兒
我因餵奶而胸部下垂
我要照顧小孩生活起居
我要比小孩晚睡而比小孩早起
我要半夜起床餵奶
我還是要忙一切家事
我要放棄事業
我伸手要錢要看丈夫臉色
丈夫出門享樂而我得在家帶小孩
甚至於走樣的身材是丈夫外遇的藉口



這種種一切就是我的貢獻！你不過是享受完之後，放一點精子在我
肚裏，然後大睡，奇怪這種情況，憑什麼小孩要跟著你姓？！他的
血他的肉他的一切都是我給的，你不過只給他一丁點兒，有什麼資
格跟我爭？」
這場架吵完了，我永遠記得那丈夫極力想爭辯，卻一點話都說不出
來。

想一想，好像事實真是如此。男人啊！以後真的要對自己的老婆好
一點喔！

Mood: toubled

Just got nokia 7610 on tue,, ya i noe 3G tech now but i luv 7610 and im able to muck ard with it now,,, then i found out it have flaws

no choice la, i hv traded mine for it, actually im not thinking of getting one for my own, i just wanna keep one for spare so i can sell it when im in need of cash,,, then out of hapopiness, i traded mine!!!!!!!!!!! can anyone pls tell me y my sms is oli limited to 70 letters per page while one of my fren hv the normal 160 letters per page??? tks a lot

its our 10th ann on tue which is oso national day ,,,, dont hv a very happy one but a memorable one thou.... i was troubled,  lots of things especially $$$$ wise,,, wonder if allan had really stop gambling, which i hope he did as it did got us into troublessssss there is no such thing as bet and will win right!!! i think it is a very dumb solutions when u are in need of cash and tot this can help u,,, maybe a few times but not all the time!!! when then ppl can understand this,,, a habit is different

hai working now not free will login again later,,,,,,,, MWAH