Lee's Life

Mood: worried
Listening to: nothing

I went for the first interview with the SA Ambulance yesterday.....it went much better than last time! yes this is the second time I have applied....

I want to succeed in this so bad! I think probably because everything I seem to set out to do, I don't finish.....

But then again, maybe I don't want it as bad as I think, because I stopped going to the gym and I can't seem to stop drinking bourbon....I don't drink every night or anything but I do on a Friday and maybe Saturday and maybe Sunday......holy crap! that sounds really bad now that I have written it down! If I want to be perfectly honest, sometimes I'll have a couple of beers on maybe a Wednesday night after work....

I really need to stop drinking......my parents were both alcoholics....shit shit shit.....

well not much is happening in my life at the moment......

I'm 34, married, have a 12yr old daughter and live south of Adelaide....

I consider myself Pagan, love animals, hate liars and cheaters of any kind.....

I'm fascinated by death, murder, criminal behaviour, the enforcers who catch the criminals.....what makes someone who seems so normal on the outside want to kill another person?  There are so many reasons given these days as to why murder is committed, it's hard to believe that it could be just one thing that sets a person off to kill another person.

What make these people tick? notice I don't say 'men'.....even though the majority of serial killers are men, there are women out there who have no conscience, who can kill just because they can.....and kill just as well as any man....it's a fascinating subject for me......don't get me wrong, I personally couldn't kill a person, or convince someone else to do it for me, life is too precious for that......