Weblog of Notsothinme

Mood: depressed
Listening to: TV

 Time to vent once again I have just about a week and a half till finals week thrilled and terrified at the same time but it marks the end of a long journey with this I will have obtained an associates degree in science/nursing I dint know what I will do next but I do know that i will stop working every flipping weekend and start having a life other than school and work  I went to buy a new outfit for the up coming events what a depressing event after two months of working out all I have to show for it is guilt when I cant go and only a 4lb loss in just short of two months time  my asthma isnt as bad or so i have been told and apparently this is the only compliment that can be come up with in a pinch how about a "keep it up it will eventually pay off "or ''you are toning up'' my 22 womens pants arent as tight but I would have liked to buy a smaller size I would have settled for even just one size   However truth is I still love chocolate and if they still had Aydes candies(it is what mother kept in the house) for weight loss I would eat those instead of a candy bar with 200+ calories and what is this thing about craving ice cream I never ate it much before but I think the word diet and I get hungry for it and everything else then I feel guilty because I have eaten much more than I should then on top of it all suddenly all I think about is shagging havent had it in a very long while and in my own demented world I convince myself it isnt all bad afterall it does burn around 300 calories  well enough rambling for now I need to study what fun I certainly hope this burns calories too cause it isnt as fun as the aforementioned subject  TTFN

Worked 12 hours instead of 14 which is a good thing ,things went pretty good thank heavens cause my feet are killing me   note to self dont wear new shoes to work

i see someone is slightly interested in my boring life however not interested enough to comment not to worry I dont seem to run out of time to talk to my self 

I weighed today depressing havent lost anymore wondering if its all really worth it

got info on different job hope it has decent insurance cause it really sucks not having any and what is up with the gas prices its as if you have totake out small loan just to fill up

gotta get to gettin more long hours tommorrow

Not doing so hot in the area of dieting had chinese today chicken and vegs so I guess it is too horrible but have a school activity with my daughter so no time to exercise and have to work 14 hours sat and sun so not going to exercise then either so gulit trip city  good news though i got a letter from my college and I am getting an award at graduation plus my diploma will say graduating with honors gotta go get ready   see ya

Well here I am again I walked 2miles the day before yesterday then proceeded to eat entirely too much pizza which defeated the whole purpose what to do have a little control or will power as they say  who says and do they really and if they do are they really 70+ pounds over weight my guess is no My plans today include another walk maybe a little weight lifting I will prvail it just may take me a very long time    Oh and did I mention I go to college too no pressure there what with tests and all and my whole degree is weighted on the final test on May 17th gotta stress write again later

Well here it is welcome to my life such as it is I have recently decided that at 206 lbs on a 5 ft 1 frame I am tooooo big for my britches I have read in magazines that writing it down makes you take responsibility for your actions and help you stay on track So here it is I LOVE CHOCLATE I eat more than the recommended portions and dont exercise like I should