Weblog of dave

Mood: eh, tired, sick, pretty good besides that i guess
Listening to: radiohead ~ paranoid android

so work took longer than it should have tonight, which pissed me off but i got way more cases tonight. although the expense for the extra cases was my arms, they feel as though they are going to fall the f off. but besides that i'm just fine and dandy, barring the cold i picked up. so off day tomorrow, i'll probably sleep in, do my taxes, go get something to eat with bryan and if it's not too nasty outside play some tennis. but anyway i'm beat and need some sleep, i'll probably go have a beer or two, watch a movie and fall asleep. have a good one peoples.

later crocodile

Mood: uh, ok, pretty good
Listening to: nothing right now

so awesome awesome i got home the same day i left for work, pretty sweet. a few of my comrads in arms were notified that they were being exiled from dry to the freezer so god speed you crazy kids. well i think i'm going to take advantage of this freedom from the nut house which pays me to watch a movie and drink a beer, and then fall asleep. so i may be getting a new tat soon, one by me and someone else probably. but anyway i'm out i'm gonna go draw some shit that i've got in my head. so yeah i'm outta here.

have a good one you crazy mother f'ers

Mood: pretty good
Listening to: nothing right now, something festive soon though

so yeah. this morning/last night was f'in crazy. i don't think that our little lot of holligans has been that ragingly drunk thus far. also my friend kait came for some fun and she ended up beating my buddy in the face as i just sat on the sofa and let it happen. she got some excellent hits in. then we all pretty much crashed and passed the f out. i bought a new tennis rachet today at dick's, i like it although i'm going to need to play with it more to get used to it, it has more hitting power than my old one so yeah, gotta work on that. got a new cell today too, along with a new number so i can actually call people and communicate with the crew. but yeah we drank almost 1.5 liters of absinthe the other night and wow were there some drunk mother fuckers running around brent's house. i think we were up until like 6:30 in the am or so. it was a good one indeed. had a few beers tonight and came home early. work tomorrow and i want a shower and need to trim up the beard. so yeah i'm outta here. have a good one peoples.

later crocodile

Mood: i should get drunk and die
Listening to: nothing right now

i am a used and abused tool. i knew this would happen. i was so used to keeping shut and closed to anyone. i tried to open up and be warm to someone and BAM! i get hurt again. i'm sick of not being good enough. i'm sick of being alone. i'm sick of this pathetic life. i'm not fucking around, i so want to go od on fucking perks and booze. too bad i'm minus the perks or i would just go find some nice place to drive my truck, park, down the perks, down the booze and fall asleep. and thank god i'd never fucking wake up. i'm tired of being the one who's always wrong, always depressed, never good enough. i think i'm going to go get drunk, either here in the basement or at brent's either way i hope to god that i choke on my own fucking puke. life is bullshit, i'm tired of it. no one gives a fuck, why should i?

Mood: eh, not bad, a bit tired though
Listening to: nothing right now

ok, so i'm tired. this friday i'm going up to philly to pick up a drum kit. fun fun. and then there is a strong possibility that my friends and i will be consuming some absinthe later that evening. awesome! today was pretty good, played some tennis, which i'm actually pretty good at. i need to work on my serve but my volley is money in the bank! went longboarding today too, took a little cruise around the hood and down the street a little bit. fun indeed, it's getting warmer so i'm slowly moving back outdoors for activities. i can't wait. like one more week and i can use my personal day that i some how got. i'm going to take off like a sunday to have a 3 day weekend. should be sweet ass. i may actually do that next weekend so i have time to recover from cky in atlantic city. which i need to get with corey about getting tickets for. well anyway i'm about tired and i need some sleep. i think i'm going to go bust out some yoga and hit the bed. have a good one kids.

later crocodile

Mood: eh, not so bad i guess, tired for sure
Listening to: nothing right now

oh jeez what a night. first of all i was thrilled when we only had like a little under 15000 cases. however it some how took us until 1am to finish this shit up, wtf! i was all ready to get home at like 11 or so and get some sleep but no those assholes had to drag the shit out. but besides that i think i pulled something in my left arm, it's kinda tender. and ontop of all that my stacker vile got crushed so the stackers got all ripped open so yeah they were no good and were all over the battery on my jack. oh well, i was done taking them for the night anyway, i want to sleep and i'm going to crash really soon. but anyway, i think i'm going to purchase or download a yoga video that i can do in the mornings before work, kinda calm down and stretch out so i don't hurt myself anymore. it's a great work out too, it doesn't really have and affect on your body's shape as it does just like flexibility and the like. makes ya nice and limber. but anyway, so hi ho hi ho, it's off to work i go tomorrow and then a nice day off, tuesday will be a beautiful day of rest and beer drinking. i've got a case to kill and it shall not live to see the end of the day, i promise you that! hehe. well anyway i'm about done now. probably bed time here shortly, maybe a bit of tv. work is taking over my life! ugh!

later crocodile

Mood: puzzled, not very happy
Listening to: nothing

have you ever wondered why it is that early in the morning you really think about yourself? who you are, what you were, what you've become, and the people in your life. the incubus lyric "and it seems as though i'm going, no where really fucking fast" comes to mind. i'm frankly sick of how my life is going. no companion, in some opinions i drink too much, failed several times to stop smoking cigs, and my college career is in the toilet. i keep telling myself, find a companion to take your mind off everything, but it seems not to be that simple. for some reason i fear being in another relationship. i want control and stability in my life but at the same time i think, what will i do without my friends and will i really be happy? music is about the only aspect of my life that makes me happy and lately i've been coming up short with finding other musicians to jam with. i just don't know what to do, who to trust, or where to look for happiness.

Mood: pretty good, well rested
Listening to: ac/dc ~ back in black

so i ended up getting a long bar today to connect the two holes in my ear to form an industrial. i went to this one shop, not my regular place, and i was asking them about hourly pricing just to be polite and on my way out i thought to myself 'yeah f'in right i'm going back there, i'll probably catch hep if i get inked there, white trash central.' and that's how that went but i got the bar and after a bit of work i got it in. besides that i did absolutely nothing today, f'in slept all day. and of course the crew went to baltimore without me, didn't bother to call, like a bunch of jackasses. thanks alot guys. well anyway, i think i need to start doing yoga again, my back is becoming a wreck again. well anyway i'm out for now. probably either go take a nap or go drink beer at brent's, i gotta remember to throw my case in the truck so i'll have it here, tuesday i plan on waking up and drinking all day long. hehe.

later later

Mood: good
Listening to: coheed ~ the suffering

so work was pretty good tonight. left at like 2am or so. mondays and thursdays are always the best because the next day is an off day so i always feel great about leaving. but anyway yeah, two of the slowest mother fuckers got fired today, and i'm happy, they'd pull like 1000 cases between them so yeah, they sucked. i went about as slow as i could and i still got like 1600 cases, it was crazy. so i think sunday i'm going to go full blast and see if i can get like 2000+, which is alot. today was also pay day so that was cool. so i'm full of energy for some reason. oh well, no work tomorrow so it's straight, i'm lookin to jam though so hopefully brandon will be around and up to the task. but anyway yeah, i woke up super late for work, like 12:20 and had to be there by like 1 so yeah i rolled in while they were stretching, we stretch before our shift because we do some massive lifting, but yeah nothing was said to me because i'm a fuckin super star and i'm loved by management. well anyway i think i'm gonna listen to some music and play some bongos and then maybe go play some bass. tomorrow i think bryan and i are going to find a place to live. probably move in a week or two so i'm psyched. alright have a good one peoples.

later later

Mood: tired, sad, lonely
Listening to: nothing

i'm tired, sore, bored, sad, lonely and don't really give two shits about anything but sleeping so fuck off if you got beef with me and have a nice day if you don't. my ass is going to bed. i've quit smoking, yet again, but this time it's for good, i can't stand the smell anymore and i'm sick of being single, so the whole non smoking population of lady friends is available if i quit smoking. one more day left of this week that has been from hell. probably getting super drunk this weekend. possibly moving shortly i'll keep you people posted on that. looking at the possible new residence this weekend as well. have a good one peoples.

later crocodile

Mood: disgusted with life
Listening to: nothing

so my pathetic life rages on while i try to slow it down enough to control it. i hate work, i hate my personal life and i basically hate life in general. i'm tired of it all. every single aspect of the whole damn thing. i had thought about not going back to work tomorrow but i'm going, just because i need a job. i was browsing the interweb more looking for places to live that bryan and i could afford and not kill ourselves paying rent for. not sure i've found any good places yet but still looking. maybe that'll help me cheer up. move to a new place, meet new people and if i'm lucky a lady friend. i'm just sick of it all.

later

Mood: quite unhappy
Listening to: boy sets fire ~ requiem

i fucking hate life. i'm so fed up with being single mostly, but in general life really blows ass. i just really need a companion, a friend. i need to move is what i think i need to do. just move out to ohio or something and start life over. no friends, no attatchments, nothing. just go and find new people. i'm so damn tired of living here. my soul has been sucked from me and my heart broken too many times to recall. i'm tired of caring for people who don't give a fuck about me and probably wouldn't give a thought to it if i were to blast myself in the face with a 45 tomorrow. i've had similar discussions with my friends and they laugh it off but i'm serious, i don't see myself living to an old age. i just dispise society and most facets of my life. maybe i shouldnt live to old age. maybe that's what i owe society. who knows, who cares. i'm out

later

Mood: kinda tired but alright all things considered
Listening to: blink 182 ~ miss you

listen to josie by blink 182. ideal girlfriend described within. so i found out today that the 930 club in dc will be hosting all american rejects, fall out boy and hawthorne heights in may. so that would be kinda fun to go to. if i can get some people to go with i may buy a ticket. oh shit! i forgot about cky and avenge sevenfold. yeah they're coming to some place in atlantic city but that's coming up like in 2 weeks or so. i gotta call corey and make sure he's got that all set up, that was his deal. well besides that i've got nothing for now. have a good one people.

later later

Mood: tired
Listening to: nothing

so i'm uber tired. today was a good day but just ran me down. pulld like 1821 tonight which isn't bad considering we onlyl had 16000 cases total and like 12 guys or so pulling. but anyway, there's a killer show this saturday at some kid's house in northeast. it should be really fun. i'm not sure if brandon is going or not, hopefully he will, i'll need some back up in the pit just incase it gets a little unfriendly. besides that i'm not sure what the hell else i'm doing, probably get drunk at brent's tomorrow night and maybe saturday night as well. maybe the crew will take a trip to show and tel, that would be fun, havn't been up there in a long time. well that's all i've got for now. i think i'm going to start practicing yoga again though, so that'll be fun. alright i'm out. have a good one peoples.

later

Mood: kinda sleepy
Listening to: ac/dc ~ high voltage

for some god forsaken reason i am up early. probably because i got drunk early last night over at brents and "went to sleep" early. either way it was yet another fun filled night at the b fritz pad, booze and tv, the usual. brian instructed me to give him a call today so we'll see what he's got planned later on. he and i need to get back in the hunt for apartments, this is getting really old living at home. so my new piercings are healing well. a few more weeks and i'll be able to run a straight bar through the holes and connect them for one lovely industrial. but anyway that's about all i've got, i think i'm gonna go try and capture a few more z's before i get into anything today. have a good one peoples.

later later

Mood: tired
Listening to: nothing yet

bored bored bored. i downloaded some new songs for the lyra, however i need to take some songs off of it that are messing up. i think they got f'ed in transfer. but anyway yeah i'm not sure what i'm up to tonight, i'm bored however tired so details are sketchy at best whether or not i'm going to get some sleep early. i kinda feel like a few beers but it's hard to tell right now what condition i'll be in later on. i called out of work today by the way, my lower back is an absolute wreck and a half. so hopefully resting today and tomorrow will help me out for wednesday/thursday. well anyway i'm done for now. oh yeah, i think i'm going to start doing yoga again, try to get a little more flexible. well anyway i'm out, have a good one.

later

Mood: ouch
Listening to: bad luck 13

i'm tired, and my body aches like a mother fuck. that's all i've got for today. i'm probably going to call out tomorrow, my back needs some healing time and a day of work than one day off isn't going to do it. so peace out pfg for tomorrow, i'll give them a call early to be considerate and allow them time to put people where they need them.

Mood: really chill, kinda happy, kinda sad, kinda lonely
Listening to: nothing yet

so i'm really relaxed, a bit tired but very relaxed. i'll be ready to work tomorrow no doubt. before that, however, brent and i are taking a run to the light house at turkey point. i'm going to start running with him because i wanna get into better shape and also he'll be reliable to run with on a consistant basis. a few of us are talking about getting some people together for a soccer game very now and then, kinda make a weekly thing out of it, or bi weekly. either way that should be a blast, i love soccer but havnt played since i was in high school. soccer is way more fun than like football, i hate it when people are like ohh little soccer fag, i'm like f off if you say that then you havn't played with real players who just go all out and will do whatever it takes to get the ball and score. but anyway, i was up at the east end tonight. saw a really good band called apex watson, they were fun and did a really good cover of a pink floyde song at the end of their set. well anyway i'm kinda tired so i think i'm going to get to bed. have a good one peoples.

later crocodile

Mood: still kinda tired, a bit down
Listening to: cypress hill ~ insane in the membrane

so i woke up like an hour and a half ago. i hadn't slept since 11am thursday so it was needed. so i got pretty shit faced last night and puked in a church parking lot. probably because brent was driving like an asshole. he hadn't been drinking but just felt like being a crazy mother i suppose. so i'm in search of a car charger for my lyra. i need one that goes from mini b usb to cig lighter. i'll have to search ebay or something for one. maybe comp usa will have something. so i missed a show last night at the east end because i was too drunk to drive up there. still kinda feel bad about letting down my friend whom i told i'd be there. i'm going to try to get to a show up there tonight, this ska band is playing, so that'll cheer me up probably. well that's about all i've got. have a good one peoples.

later later

Mood: kinda tired, left ear = a touch ouchy
Listening to: nothing yet

so i havn't slept since 11am yesterday. i don't know how i'm awake and i dont' know why. frankly i don't care either. i'm not really wanting sleep, nor am i wanting to really do anything. i dunno. a nap would be terrific but we'll see what happens later. i dont know if i'm going to see hostel or going to that show at the east end. i guess i'll make a decision sooner or later. so i finally pierced my cartilage, twice. so once that heals i'll run a long bar and have a sweet little industrial rockin out on the left ear. well i'm about done i think i'm going to go lay down for a few minutes and listen to some music. have a good one peoples.

later later