Weblog of dave

Mood: i feel like fuck, total and complete fuck
Listening to: something in a minute

i'm so fucking tired! this past three day run at work has ground me down so so bad. i'm tired, bored, depressed, lonely and for some reason don't feel like being all crazy this weekend. and i signed up for fucking work sunday. wtf was i thinking! oh well, not like i'll be hung over or anything, i seriously do not feel like going out and getting drunk anymore, like i just don't feel it. i sometimes may be in the mood for a beer or two but i think i'm past the whole, lets get fucked up all the time thing. kinda just feeling low i guess. and it seems i can't eat more than once a day. i had breakfast this morning and my stomach was like f you dude we aren't supposed to eat more than one meal! i was like what the f. i dunno i guess i'm becoming worn down and way more sedated than i used to be. but anyway, i got like 50 hours this week so that isn't too bad. probably sleep until noon or so maybe a little later than figure out what i'm doing, if anything, maybe i'll just stay in and go to sleep early. not like i have anyone that gives a fuck about me to hang out with. alright i'm gone, gotta listen to a song for someone and then i'm getting some much needed sleep. have a good one people and a happy new year.

later

Mood: terrible
Listening to: smash mouth ~ pet names

so work today and then a day off. i told them i'd come in sunday to help load trucks, so yay for me. i dunno if it'll be overtime or if it'll be like double time. who gives a flying fuck it's money which i like making. i don't plan on doing anything crazy for new years anyway. so i woke up this morning at like 8 to make breakfast for a friend and myself, my friend however had a family emergency so she couldn't make it. hopefully her relative is going to be ok. but anyway so yeah i got up, went to the store and what not for provisions, came back made breakfast but for some reason when i ate my stomach felt like it exploded. i mean like its still rockin but damn was it killing me. i dunno if it's from like eating only like once a day or from puking last night, i think i had some bad bell o da taco. so yeah, i spoke with my tattoo artist friend about inking my neck. he was very enthusiastic about doing it. i want a skull and anchor with some fire behind it done on the side of my neck. it should be pretty nice. but anyway, i'm pretty full of energy for work so hopefully i'll pull more than 1300 cases tonight, i was draggin like a mother fuck last night. oh well, pay check was f'in sweet from last week, 62 hours, you better believe it! alright i'm done. so you people have a good day/evening while i'm at work lifting shit.

later crocodile

Mood: pretty good
Listening to: nothing yet, computer fans mostly and keyboard making noise as i type, fun fun

so it was a long day of shopping, driving and hanging out with great friends. i got some new jeans and some new kicks at the mall so that was cool. i definitly realized the shirt i've had on all day is really beat. like has been worn in, small holes in multiple places, even some dirt stains left from sweat. anyway yeah and i purchased a few dvd's at fye. i got an amp dvd, amp is a music mag if you didn't know, i also got a ac/dc the bon scott years dvd. so yeah i'm about done for now. i think i'm going to go catch some of the new dvd's and then go on safari for some z's. then yay work at 1pm. have a good one peoples

later later

Mood: "i'm sick and i'm tired and i can't take anymore pain"
Listening to: social distortion ~ ball and chain

so i'm kinda tired. didn't get alot of sleep last night. got off work at like 2:30-3, some where in there. brian had to go home early for dropping his 500 lb battery out of his jack, he left the retention plate off and went around a turn too fast. what an amature. so he's gotta take a piss test to make sure he wasn't all coked up when he did it. he'll pass no problem, as would i, just as a side bar to some readers who are concearned with my well being. but anyway, going to the mall here shortly for some new threads. my prick friend pat still hasn't gotten back to me about his ipod. that's ok though, he's just denying himself cash. got my sister's ipod up and running. i bought her one for christmas and it took me like an hour messing with itunes before i said fuck it and found other software to get the songs synchronized. i've decided to get an anchor and skull tattooed on the left side of my neck. so that should be fun. i'm thinking either a four leaf clover with something written around it or the social distortion skeleton on the right side. but for now just the anchor and skull. so that's about all i've got, i may be going to the beach this evening to see the christmas lights but i've not heard from my friend whom i'm taking. so you people have a good one.

later later

Mood: tired
Listening to: rod stewart ~ maggie may

so it was a nice christmas and a great night out with the crew. oh yeah, don't go see king kong, it sucks really bad and is like 3 hours long. also the audiance was a bunch of a holes who couldn't shut the fuck up and would laugh and clap like something hilarious was going on. i'll keep the rest of the comments to myself about the audiance. but anyway yeah, brian's g-ma apparently has some house she rents out so we're going to see about it. it would be less per month than an appartment and more room. only draw back is that we couldn't go nuts and have wild ass parties, which is ok, i only asked him to let me have an underwear party when we moved in, but that's anyplace we move to. well ok i'm done for now, you people have a good one.

later later

Mood: tired
Listening to: nothing

merry christmas people. for some reason i had to get up at 9 am to open presents, impatient people couldn't wait a few more hours. some of us have jobs with very long hours. well anyway, hope you all have a nice christmas.

later

Mood: i don't know, i feel like hell
Listening to: elton john ~ rocket man

i want to move to an island in the south pacific where i won't be located, ever. i had dinner with heather tonight, she's great company and it was wonderful seeing her again. however after discussing a certain topic i feel like shit and i simply would like to move far away, drop off all radar screens and live in a hut on an island in the south pacific. catching fish and harvesting sea grasses to eat. in short i'm sick of life and seeing heather made me realize what a terrible excuse for a human being i am. oh well i guess, can't all be winners i suppose. so i'm going to get on brian's case about moving very soon. i'm tired of living here and i want to move. i seriously don't see myself living to an old age. i hate thinking about my future, it's probably just filled with more depressing times, failed relationships and lose. what a crock of shit life is. i'm done. merry christmas, and happy holidays.

later later

"son can you play me a memory? i'm not really sure how it goes, but it's sad and it's sweet and i knew it complete, when i wore a younger man's cloths"

Mood: tired, very tired, but possibly a bit happy
Listening to: nothing, i don't need noise right now, i need sleep

god damn i'm tired. today was pay day, so that was sweet ass. besides that i racked up another 12 hours and am at like 50 on the week, with still another day to go mind you. however today, friday, should be light since it's our sunday order, but who the hell knows. i pulled like 1392 tonight, beat matt but didn't beat myself from last night. oh well i guess. that's about all i have, i woke up, got a shower, got dressed, went to work, and now i'm here, exciting day. i was dragging really bad though early on. but anyway i'm done for now. have a good one people.

bye bye

Mood: tired, kinda excited about christmas coming up
Listening to: nothing, besides z's coming from my face

fuckin fuck work is going to kill me. i have like 38 hours this week already, and two more days of work left, so after working like 2 hours tomorrow i'll be on overtime. sweet ass! i pulled like 1450, well that's what i logged, i probably pulled like 1500-1520 because i helped out this one guy with a pallet which was pretty f'in big. i'm going to the beach this weekend to see the lights in ocean city so that'll be fun, just going down for a few hours saturday and then coming back up the same evening so i'm around my parent's house for chirstmas day. but anyway i'm tired and i need to get some sleep. that and i'm trying to watch tomorrow never dies so i can fall asleep. alright my friendly friends i'm outta here.

byes

Mood: eh, ok i guess
Listening to: real big fish ~ she has a girlfriend now

so it was a semi wasted day. didn't get the truck emitions tested or cleaned out. boo hoo. oh well. did a little chirstmas shopping. got my sister an ipod for christmas, so hopefully she'll like it. after that i did a little consuming of alcoholic beverages at brent's. nothing major just a few drinks to get me ready for the next three days of work. boo on that indeed. but anyway, i'm kinda tired and am probably going to crawl down to my cave and watch some tv before i fall asleep. ya know what sucks? the fact that i have no one to snuggle up with and fall asleep with. this is bullshit indeed but it's probably fate dealing me the hand that i deserve. i dunno. what i do know is that i'm out for now. so you people have a good one and happy holidays.

later later

Mood: tired, pretty good i guess
Listening to: motorhead ~ enter sandman

so i finished up early tonight at work, only about an hour of over time. oh well. i should have close to 20 hours of over time this week. fun fun. we get today, tuesday, off but then we work 3 straight days, rather than 2 then 2 off. oh well, i have christmas eve and christmas day off so that's good. and then we get to do the same for new years. i pulled like 1385 cases tonight, which beats last night but i'm still pissed that i didn't make 1500 like i wanted. although 1385 is busting ass, and pulling more than almost anyone else in dry. so that's good. keeps the boss happy. however, errors came out today and i had "13" errors, but that's bullshit 4 were mispicks, meaning i pulled the wrong thing. which equates to like 1 a day. but the others were "missing on truck" yeah fuckin right, one of those fuckin drivers definitly took my shit. no one's there to stop them from grabbing what they want. a case here a case there, they think no one will notice and that it doesn't effect anyone, but it fucks the pickers and takes money out of my pocket! so it pisses me off and kinda makes me look bad. but it's ok. i'm fast and i can afford some "errors", i think total we had 190 or something so i didn't contribute that many. but enough about work. i've gotta get my truck emitions tested tomorrow, forgot to do that like last friday when i had off. oh well. then it's to the mall for some christmas shopping and to buy some jeans at american eagle, i need some new jeans, all of mine are falling to pieces. well that's about all i've got. you people have a nice day and a good holiday if i don't write but i probably will.

later later

Mood: pretty good, focused
Listening to: green day ~ jesus of suburbia

ok, fun fun. worked like 12.5 hours today, fun indeed. had some stackers and full throttle and was rolling. pulled like 1369 cases which i forget the weight but is a good bit for dry at pfg. but anyway so work was pretty good, although apparently some people are slow as shit in dry and management freaked out, i thought it was directed toward me because my average is like 11 cases an hour below par, however i was talking to this guy who had been there for a long ass time and he said it's hard to even get 140 unless you get some big ass trucks. so i was relieved when he said i was pulling a massive amount for only being there 2 weeks. but anyway, i'm debating on what kind of lift i want for my truck, a 2 inch suspension or a 6 inch body lift. either way i need to do something so i can sling 31" tires underneith of that bad boy before the summer so i can go play in the sand at the beach. i also need to get a trench shovel, a board and a high lift jack so if i get stuck i can get out. well that's about all i've got for now. hope everyone is having a good week. christmas is just around the corner and i have zero shopping done. yay yay, which means i'll have to find time this week to do it. alright i'm done for now.

later crocodile

Mood: i dunno, unsure of myself i suppose
Listening to: had some green day on, however it is done playing now

so i'm tired, it was a fun night at the fritz pad. however i have work tomorrow at 1pm. so i've gotta be ready to rock and roll. i've been really thinking about my life, where i've been, where i am, and where i'm going. at a distance i realize i seem shallow, hallow, and soulless. the shallow part i can handle, the hallow part i agree with for the time being, but the soulless part i'm not so secure about. i feel that it repels people and attracts others. the problem being that the people i want to keep close i keep pushing away. loves lost are lost either way but why should they be so disgusted by me and unwilling to communicate and be friendly? so this boggles my mind. well anyway big plans for new ink this coming weekend. hopefully i'll get both pieces done on my legs and be happy. if not i'll just go get into some trouble with the crew. and oh yeah i went sledding naked again tonight, fun stuff, you should all try it sometime. alright i have a treat for you all, some final words for the evening.

My self destruction is a choice

Not a reaction or retaliation.

Love lost is gone
Never again to flower on a dead soul

enjoy, later

Mood: pretty good
Listening to: singing ac/dc songs to myself

so it's been a few days since i've written, sorry about that. work and boozing like a mad man has been taking up my time. i've been at brent's and work more in the past 96 hours than here at home. anyway yeah so brent said i wouldn't go sledding naked, i did. i was aloud to keep my shoes. it was great fun. got an issue of blender in the mail today. this guy i used to work with had all these frequently flyer miles stashed so he was like here guys just pick a mag and i'll have it sent to your house. so i did. i chose blender. great magazine indeed. so i have off tomorrow and i think i'm going to spend it 4 wheeling at the pits then cleaning my truck. and maybe some festive social beverages in the evening at brent's accompanied by a lovely board game perhaps. hehe. we played menopoly the other night while drinking our asses off. brent and i killed a big bottle of apple vodka, it was a mess. but great fun. so yeah didn't get out of work until like 1am tonight, that was ok though, picking makes the time go by so fast. i didn't realize it was so late. but that's ok. so thursday i probably won't get out until 2 or 3 am if we take the same speed as tonight, it was pretty light and we still didn't get done early. oh well, i'm paid by the hour. alright well that's about all i've got for now. hope you people have a good one.

later

Mood: suprisingly good
Listening to: snoop dogg ~ drop it like it's hot

so, if you're wondering why most of my posts have been early in the morning it's because i don't get off until like now so yeah anyway. so i love my job, i really do like working in the freezer, seriously, not being a smart ass or anything it's fun as hell. i got a freezer suit today which made all my issues with being cold go the fuck away. that thing is so awesome. but anyway, i'm kinda tired but not very. a bit energized about having the next two days off and it being pay day. the awesome thing is i only have to work sunday and monday before i get another day off. so anyway i'm done for now, dinner time, yay 1am, hehe. have a good one peoples.

later later

Mood: tired, alot of other things as well
Listening to: nothing yet but i'm feeling something

ok, so another exciting day. yeah f'in right, i'm kinda tired but not extremely. today is the best day of the work week though. it's pay day and it's the last day of our work week. two days off after today and like i said, it's payday today, good stuff indeed. so i've got about 50 minutes until i need to leave for work, i'm kinda ready to go, i've got my first layer of cloths on, just need to put the other 2 layers on. i need to get a freezer suit from these people. this whole layering bullshit is getting annoying. so my cold is still lingering, havn't been able to shake it yet although i'm going to be sure to take some dayquile before i go in today. yesterday i was hackin up a lung, and being in the freezer didn't help. i think saturday i'm going to finish up some ink work on my left arm. i'm tired of looking at skin, time to sleeve this mother out. alright well that's about all i've got. you people have a good one.

later later

Mood: eh, ok i guess, could be better
Listening to: 3 doors down ~ be like that

so i'm bored as shit. today has been a bit of a waste. work tomorrow at 1 and the next day then two days off! yes! working in a freezer isn't that bad, it's fun, the people are awesome so it's straight. i want to go get drunk tonight or something but i dunno, we'll see what developes and how i feel later on. woke up at like 1pm today after going to bed at 5am. i don't mind not getting any sleep but it's the whole filling up the time i'm not sleeping that i'm having issues with. insomnia can be a bitch. it seems to me that a lady friend has solved that in the past. maybe i'll be so lucky in the near future. just maybe. well besides that i've got jack shit. if you guys havn't checked out my myspace page do it. i did alot of work to it today and you can hear a song from the band i am a part of. maybe i'll go play some bass. i dunno, i don't feel like going downstairs, it's cold down there. alright well i'm going to go find something to do.

cheers

oh yeah, my myspace is

myspace.com/hardcoredave

check it out if you're bored but you can't check it out if your a board.

Mood: tired, sick, lonely
Listening to: nothing

so yeah, it was an interesting day. made a truck payment. got some new curb stompers at my new company's expense, they're nice and comfy, which is good i'll be working 10-15 hours days in them. oh well, it pays. i start sunday which i guess i could say is tomorrow. i'll probably sleep until like 2 in the afternoon today and then have a short evening finding nothing to do and just shooting the shit at brent's. stubs and i went and looked at appartments today. we were told by one place that we made almost twice as much as we were aloud because apparently the place was "low income only" we were like wtf we should be able to live there too. what about equal housing rights? but we did look at these really nice places that we'll only be shelling out like 450 each a month, which is kinda steep but we can afford it so i guess it isn't that bad. i'm thinkin some new ink here very shortly, i found this great supplier that sells needles very cheap and tubes as well. but i need to get alot of supplies back in stock, i'm running low on many things, even inks. well that's about all for now, i'm kinda tired and the nyquil i took is kicking in. so you peoples have a good day.

later crocodile

god wills it!