10-5-05 about 9 pm
Mood: feel like fuck, sad as shit!!!!!!!!
Listening to: nothing cause i can't find the fucking cd i wanted to listen to!
"i had a bad year, what are ya gonna do, i've been knocked down, beat down, black and blue. she's not the one coming back for you, she's not the one coming back for you...." isn't that the truth. i realized today that it's been just one shit year. lost julia, lost heather because i was an asshole, engineering at rib roof is being closed down. the only good things were actually being in a relationship with heather and meeting a bunch of new friends at SU. for some dumbass reason i quit my job at rib roof in the spring because i was all upset that julia left me. why the fuck did i even think to do that. damn it! then it was back to the shit hole hardware store, which i walked out of and got my drafting job back, which as you may remember is being taken away. however they aren't leaving me high and dry, i was offered another job which i've said fuck it i'm taking the job i don't care anymore, i'm making money and that's fine with me. so anyway, i'm fuckin done now, i'm tired, i'm stressed, i'm trying to stop smoking which makes me a pissy bitch, and yeah that's about it. alright have a good one if you can, and if not have a good one for me for fuck's sake.
later
